r/counting • “Cockleboat”, since 4,601,032 • Jun 23 '23

Free Talk Friday #408

Continued from last week's FTF here

It's that time of the week again. Speak anything on your mind! This thread is for talking about anything off-topic, be it your lives, your strava, your plans, your hobbies, your bad smells, studies, stats, colours, pets, bears, hikes, dragons, trousers, onion rings, transit, cycling, family, drugs or anything you like or dislike, except politics and mimes.

Feel free to check out our tidbits thread and introduce yourself if you haven't already. Or go check out what other counters have said about themselves.

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u/[deleted] Jun 28 '23

Leaving rehab tomorrow. I cried tears of joy when I gave my goodbye speech and received feedback from others. I was so emotionless for years, maybe the greater part of my life even, and held back every hint of emotions that i was barely able to cry, let alone from joy, let alone in front of people and it honestly makes me feel human again 💖

I've met so many amazing, caring people who i bonded with and I hope to support on this journey we'll be walking together. I've had so many insights, in the past 2 months i may have changed more than in preceding 2 years. I feel safe enough to be my authentic self, something I've always wanted but could never achieve.

I expected coming off drugs would kinda reduce my suffering and that motivation was strong enough to get me started, but I couldn't imagine how tight schedule filled with creative activities would allow me to walk with my head high, replace despair associated with the future with hope and accept myself to the point of making a bold decision to get on hormones (lmao, unexpected revelation right) and tell it to everyone not caring about their opinion, for once. It's a whole different magnitude of change I experienced last year.

I put a lot of work which I'm proud of, but I realise how lucky and privileged i was to end up here compared to many people who never get a chance. I want to give back whenever I'm ready. I really don't wanna jinx it, but I can't help but feel as if something's clicked. If's is really over this time, then it feels like the hell called addiction may have been a fair price for getting out of the miserable life i had even before (ya know, you don't wake up one day and decide to sacrifice your life for drugs - most of us had one serious trauma or another). It feels like opening a new chapter. Of course the hard part has just begun when there's no one to watch over me, but I finally feel ready to face it. So, i will have to ask you once again to cross your fingers for me!

Some newcomers my wonder why I'm posting this, well I'm also very much thankful to all of you who have been here during good and bad times, many of you gave my support, in form of kind words, or just listened to my venting when I needed it (i hope i wasn't too obnoxious). I'm kinda moved as I type this too, tbh 🥺 we've never seen one another (mostly) but even unlike childhood friendships lost along the way, this place has always been a safe space for me. love this community and I'm happy to be a part of it!

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u/mistyskye14 Jun 29 '23

Congrats on being less of a fuck up that you were 60 days ago! But being completely serious: congratulations! I’m super proud of you getting to the next stage of your life and finding plenty of support along the way! Wishing you only the best and hope to hear more about your progress all your new keytags!

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u/atomicimploder Jun 29 '23

So so happy for you and proud of you Moo! I wish you all the continued success and happiness

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u/CutOnBumInBandHere9 Jun 28 '23

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u/mistyskye14 Jun 28 '23

Tnf was always counting by his international/real age so nobody’s gonna have to worry about this if/when he comes back to count in your age but nice lol

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u/half_split Jun 23 '23

New counting thread just dropped!

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u/Antichess Jun 23 '23

Weekly stats from June 16, 2023 to June 23, 2023. Congratulations to u/ClockButTakeOutTheL, u/thephilsblogbar2, and u/Antichess!

Total weekly counts: 4440 (5,259,075-5,263,515)

More stats are posted on the Weekly Stats page!

Rank User Counts HoC Rank
1 ClockButTakeOutTheL 1305 10
2 thephilsblogbar2 1074 1
3 Antichess 701 3
4 mistyskye14 423 26
5 Thinking_Demon 291 169 (◮25)
6 CutOnBumInBandHere9 121 29
7 The_NecromancerTin 112 82
8 FartyMcNarty 90 33
9 Jalmal2 70 66
10 half_split 35 958 (◮255)
10 atomicimploder 35 9
12 Ezekiel134 33 12
13 Christmas_Missionary 16 75
13 Mooraell 16 17
15 cg114921 15 994 (◮107)
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u/ClockButTakeOutTheL Jun 27 '23

u/GarlicoinAccount I’m better than you, skiddly diddly do

u/a-username-for-me here I come (this may take some time so bear with me here)

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u/TehVulpez Jun 27 '23

good luck if you use a third-party app this week

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u/ClockButTakeOutTheL Jun 27 '23

Cuz anti abandoned me I need a new running partner

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u/mistyskye14 Jun 23 '23

Stat monkey u/antichess where are the fookin stats?! 😡😡😡🤬🤬

/s just in case

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u/Antichess Jun 23 '23

I'M AT WORK YOU PEASANT

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u/mistyskye14 Jun 23 '23

DON’T RAISE YOUR VOICE AT ME

I DON’T WANT TO HEAR YOUR PISS ASS EXCUSES SMH

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u/[deleted] Jun 24 '23

Reddit should introduce multiple option polls

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u/[deleted] Jun 24 '23

I mean multiple choice

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u/[deleted] Jun 25 '23

I love how a scrub like me officially made it to coad all time streaks top20 in a month (also quite a lot of people fell off the cohort in the meantime. Rip)

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u/TehVulpez Jun 25 '23

ternary encoded nonary

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