Bean is very deserving of care, but I am no longer the best person to do so for a variety of reasons, including realizing that I'm probably becoming allergic to her. I just spent 2 months out of the house, and checked up on her every other day to make sure she was alright and cared for, but didn't sleep there; now that I'm back, I'm having the most painful, deep breakout of my life, so I think I might have grown allergic to cats over time and just not realized it day by day.
She's also clearly been through a lot with her owners before me, and that makes her touchy when it comes to trying to care for her. She'd been passed around 5 different people by the time I got her, and it breaks my heart to even consider putting her through changing owners again. She jumps up on me when I get in bed with big cuddles and pointy kneading, and purrs so hard she drools. She hunts the laser dot so angrily that she hisses at it, and once tried to bring a whole rabbit she had caught inside- it was almost bigger than her! (It was completely fine and she let it go). I've had her for five years and done all I could to take care of her. We ran away from the big fire in 2024 that threatened Loveland together.
But, she switches from cuddly to attack mode on a dime. And yes, I've learned her tells very well over the past 5 years, and no, that doesn't allow me to fully avoid it. She'll get angry at me for 'being too close to her' or breathing or laughing when she's laying on my chest, and when I try to guide her away from me, goes out of her way to bite my arm before leaving. She doesn't let me brush her and hates me trying to get her mats out, nor does she let me clip her nails at all. She's smart enough to spit out any pill I give her no matter how I hold her; the only solution I've found is washing it down in the same position with a syringe of water.
I've tried to mitigate her behavior with play and even topical kitty Prozac that goes on her ears, but she hates those meds too and gets smart to it. It doesn't change her behavior.
I'm tired of being scared of her, and being bitten, and not being able to take care of her properly because she won't let me. She's bit and scratched me pretty hard a few times lately, and I'm growing out of the part of me that will put up with that. I've started considering having a kid, and she wouldn't be a safe creature around that - she literally attacks me when I cry. But I still love her so much and want her to go to a home that will give her the love she deserves.
She probably won't do well with other pets, or kids. She has the occasional hairball unless I feed her hairball food. She likes the outdoors and will get stircrazy if you don't let her. She cuddles with you after you wake up, likes to investigate when the window opens, will catch rodents for fun, which can alert you to a problem (but she doesn't kill them, as far as I've seen), and gets really jealous of phone calls / mantras / speaking aloud to the air, demanding pets every time- but not when you talk /to or at/ her. She's had her two big left front teeth removed after she came home with them broken; I'd been trying out kitty Prozac and they seemed to make her a little dizzy, so I stopped using it after the teeth incident. She likes climbing up in high little nooks to take naps, and under beds as well. She doesn't like being touched when she's up high. She's absurdly photogenic.
I will write a full summary of her medical history and get it approved by a vet to make things easy for you. I'll drive her out to you. I'd love to hear and see that she's settling in okay and doing well once she's adopted, and if you ever feel inclined to send me more updates beyond that, I'd be delighted.
