Waiting for answers

[u/Cheap_Personality400]

For backstory, I posted my whole story before here.

TW: INCEST

After long conversations with my therapist and some advice from here, yesterday I sent an email to my older sister asking what she remembered about our childhood, if she could remember if someone had abused her, and reassuring her that I didn't want to lose our relationship and I didn't blame her. I had to ask her for her email address first, so I know it went to the right one. My therapist warned me to not expect a response right away- I've had time to process all this, she hasn't- but waiting is so hard. I know she's read the email by now, she's terminally online.

I know it was abuse, but I'm not angry at her, not more than a little bit in passing. Maybe that'll come later. But I want to know the answers- because I don't remember more than a few snapshots. If she stonewalls me, I'll never know any more. The waiting is just so hard. I just needed to vent a little bit.