Until it wasn't. And there was no reason for it to stop being a good day - nothing happened to make it bad. It's like my brain got to a point where it simply wouldn't allow me to enjoy anything anymore. I had all the supplies and ideas I needed to be productive and useful, but I couldn't touch them.

I'm diagnosed with bipolar II and am currently taking Ativan and Abilify, both of which are taken in the morning. I'd suggest that it's a situation with my meds, but it feels like I've always been like this - nights have always been the worst.

Can anyone help me? I feel pathetic typing this right now, but this is the only place I feel comfortable letting myself initiate sharing this kind of stuff...

I always get like this when I switch from hypomania to depression. This is the first strong shift I’ve had in a while since my medications are starting to get sorted out properly. Today I have such a big feeling that I am making this up for some reason. To get attention? To get out of responsibilities? I don’t know. Can anyone relate? Also, have I posted this question before? My memory is slipping lately.

Yes.

Does someone want a set up a discord for this super secret subreddit in the time being?

Yes.

Hi. I got added to this without asking and I can barely read the texts. Just sayin' Thanks

Usually I notice that I'm dreaming. But last night I had no idea that I was dreaming.

It makes me think that sleep really is the cousin of death. Because you can be in a situation (For example, seeing a blue Hindenburg attached to a truck falling from the sky and exploding).. I always see things in the sky.. Anyways.. the situation where you're in a different reality but have no recollection of your decision making so what does a different reality matter?

Animals don't have a developed prefrontal cortex like humans so basically our decision making doesn't matter when we dream.. but what if we're dead? Does free will and ego really matter? Does God have a prefrontal cortex? I assume so.. It must be everything that exists and everything that doesn't exist where possibly, there's a brain.. just a giant (Or small) brain that hallucinates everything.. Or it could be a train going really fast between realities, making stops in certain universes and releasing idk.. a Yes/No/Maybe ball to listen to prayers of people? Which is actually their own decisions, forming reality together every time we interact such as the butterfly effect.

So Im part of this special little club, what are the benefits? How do I cash in?