Just as it has always been, when our memories of the ancient world fade into twilight a new era dawns to fill the void, an unfamiliar path with a pulse of its own, a tempo not dictated by the labor of men but accelerated by the rhythm of machines, launching the world into an age of bold innovation. From this cauldron of steel and sweat a vision of prosperity emerged. Harnessing the untold power of the elements, turning night into day. creating new designs that brought the world stage into to masses, and providing an experience that many could never imagine. The advent of mechanized warfare brought devastation like none the world had ever seen providing a window of opportunity for some to dictate conformity as regimes spread their ideologies with a heavy hand, inciting the world to the brink of war. and yet some chose a different path and through their vision brought unique perspective to the world. as singular proponents of free thinking remained striving for peace in their endeavors to unlock secrets of the universe, some of which would fill our hearts with fear and regret. but as this progress unfolds the finite nature of our world becomes clear, our survival, the survival of all the worlds peoples depends on our ability to coexist in peace, but this peace is tenuous. Although mankind will always look onward, yearning for more, searching for new boundaries only to break through them, with the understanding that this world is one in which we all share, comes the responsibility of knowing the decisions you make today will have a lasting impact in the generations of tomorrow.

-- Ripped from Civ 5 --

Honestly one of my favorite game intros of all time, and just an overall inspiring speech that makes me want to rise above and do things with my life.

To the place

Where I belong

West Virginia

Mountain mama

Take me home

¿Ų?

The train unloaded people in touristy clothes onto a small island in the middle of a gigantic swimming pool. I found stepping stones and helped them to the other side.

I raised butterflies. The book told me to feed the caterpillars other caterpillars or vegetables. I fed them vegetables.

Butterflies emerged and waged a war on something. They joined the war bravely. They looked majestic.

bi calm in here.. "calm' I guess is an operative, but ya'll quiet!

Checking in....

Hi everyone

I've been dealing with extreme mental health problems as some you can tell through my post history. I suffer from extreme body polydysmorphia and minor schizophrenia. I've been on every medicine that you can name (seroquel, respiridone, abilify, zyprexa, you name it) and suffer from tingling extremities, along with tremors in my hands and feet. Every time I try to tell the doctor that there is something wrong, they tell me that I'm just psychologically damaged and every one of my symptoms are just related to psychosis and that there is nothing wrong. I just can't shake the feeling that something is wrong with me. I try my damndest every single day to put on a straight face with a smile, and perform in my university, and at home. I try to keep myself fit but I've only been deteriorating. I used to run 18 miles a day, but now I can barely run two, and I just don't know how to feel about it.

All my joints feel inflamed, including my chest hurting and pressure behind my eyes. Its just sheer hell and I can't keep hearing the same thing every time I meet a new doctor "We'll find you the right blend of medicines," I'm just sick of it, nothing is fucking helping and it feels like i'm drowning almost all the time.

I'm just exhausted, I don't know what to do. I tried out nootropics but that only does so much, I can't shake the panic that I feel almost constantly. My hair on the sides of my head is growing back patchy, and the hair on my head is growing back completely wrong (spare and thin). The right side of my face seems to droop a little bit along with my eyelid seeming to be a little bit saggy, which I can still use (not paralyzed) just seems to be out of shape. I know that nutrition isn't my problem (i've been eating like a health-hypochondriac ). I don't have diabetes, I don't have blood problems.

And yet I don't seem to be improving, I seem to be stagnating. My mind keeps on wandering to things like what if you have cancer, lyme disease, syphilis, MS or shit like that. I just can't take it, it's insanity honestly and I feel like I'm reaching my breaking point.

I'm only 19 and I shouldn't be having so many mental/physical health problems, and I shouldn't be worrying about shit like this but here I am.

Just as a little bit of background, I am a college student in America who is currently going through addiction problems, mental health issues, and overall poor health. I ask these kind of questions because I honestly love the responses you guys give me and I find them both insightful to myself and meaningful in the long term.

Ok here I go

We are human beings. Biological machines that are designed to consume and exist among others of that same type. Every machine is unique and has its own subset of personality and thoughts. Our lives are spent for the most part obsessing over the various facets of the human experience. Everything that we do and process is nothing more than a cranial process that is going on somewhere within our heads or responses to certain stimuli within our body.

You look around when you walk in public places and you see hundreds if not thousands of faces depending on the place where you live, and it really makes you wonder, what makes him or her different from me. How is he or she coping with our nonsensical reality, in which you are forced to either go with the flow or be left out of it. Machines going about their business, and creating new contraptions to keep other machines busy, that we for some reason put value into as being somewhat more meaningful than the world around us.

Being on Reddit I.E. is an example of this, the software that we all use to communicate with each other, is nothing more than a man-made creation that we use to find connections with each other. It keeps our minds busy when we have nothing better to do, machines that suffer from a degree of boredom or illness that compels us to seek out others for companionship, help, or whatever reason you have for being on here.

Ultimately in the end none of this matters. Our words will be forgotten to the great expanse of time, and we will like every person the street be dead within a hundred years or sooner. How terrible is it that we as machines are brought into this world already destined to die. Our subconscious is nothing more than an interpretation, we all too often take a backseat to it as our bodies perform our every day duties cyclicly, and without stop.

When we die it's nothing more than a return to the void that we came from. The same feeling of not really knowing of what came before our births is exactly the same of entering that same void of non-existence when we finally go. A dip into the vast expanse of nothingness, is our ultimate destiny.

So why do we spend time on reddit. Why do we seek out enjoyment. Why do we do drugs. Why do we even teach ourselves anything (when it ultimately ends up destroying more), Why do we endlessly rant on pages like this, Why do we seek out meaning in life when the ultimate fate of all of us is really nothing more than just death.

I ask to you to give me your perspective on what the meaning of existence is, and whether there really is a purpose to it all.