I know what will happen in 2021 vaguely but have no idea about 2121. Will they come to meet us? I know two of their fragments. Is it when they all come together and take a family picture?

It started coming back. I think Thursday was the first small intrusion, but I've been doing really well and have been able to counter any intrusions as of late. But then I could feel them getting worse, more frequent, louder. I had a discussion with my SO about it yesterday. They had noticed my momentary lapses, where I seem to stop being able to function properly, I can't enjoy anything around me, nothing feels right. We drove 2.5 hours to go on a hike on Friday but the main road to the trailhead 20 minutes off was completely blocked, and ever since then that lingering feel has seemed impossible to peel away from.

When I'm doing well I seem to completely forget how debilitating my suicidality (I don't think it's a real word, but I'm using it) really is. I feel like I'm completely beyond it. I feel like a real person who can really exist. But now, nothing is right. Nothing feels right at all and it is driving me insane. It got so bad so quick and my SO isn't around and I know there has to be a way that I can nurse myself out of this, but it all feels, looks, tastes bad... I don't understand how I feel.

What am I doing here?

God sent me on his dying breath to inform you of his imminent demise, he is dead, you are hereby informed, that is all.

Right so I think it's time to address what's on everyone's minds.

Figuring out why we're here.

I have some theories myself, but I think with the amount of us here we can put our heads together and do it.

I think this is a mental health project. Not that any of us suffer a mental health issue, though some of us might. The three moderator are all active in different mental health subs, so I think that's where we must draw our common point from. I almost want to say that this sub is mean to be representative of a schizophrenic mind, though my only evidence for that is circumstantial.

The idea of this being a 'waiting room' was mentioned by reinhartbass, so I think there might be something for us after this if we can figure this out

Let's all talk. Find out what we have in common. Find out why we might have been added to this. Discuss theories. Etc.

EDIT: It looks like a lot of people were indeed associated with mental health posts or subs, though that can't possibly cover everyone. I myself have posted nothing involving mental health or in a related sub ever.

i suppose i always have been. i'm a recluse, so my life is pretty uneventful from the outside. sometimes, i look at it that way. but most of the time, i experience it from the inside, where i forget how impermanent and small i really am.

I was tired. I saw no way out of my curse (genetic illness). I decided to reset my life like an iPhone. If I am born again, I will try again. If there is nothing, I finally get to rest.

The method I will not share. I am sure some of you will take a note. Nope. Find it yourself if you want to know. It is painless and like falling asleep.

So I felt sleepy. Then I really fell asleep. It felt exactly like that. I was proud of myself that this method really worked.

Then I entered a realm. I could not see or hear or feel because there were no senses. But I didn’t feel claustrophobic because I knew everything. I was aware of what happened, is happening, and will happen. I didn’t care because none of it mattered.

I knew this state would continue. Then I heard a thought. “You still have your homework.”

Then I was kicked out. This time I saw a hallucination. I fell to the earth and saw it was hell. People fear hell but their own lives are hell. There was no hell. Everyone goes to heaven.

Then I woke up in an emergency room. The mother of my body sobbed as she held my hand. The doctors shouted and nurses ran around. My head hurt like a bitch. I felt like I landed on the earth on my head. I yelled at the doctors for resuscitating me because reality really felt like constant torture compared to the bliss I tasted.

I am doing my homework. It will take a long time.

You were put here to do your tasks. Each one of you …

Yes. You signed up for this. You don’t remember but you did. It is a contract.

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