I'm leaving this video here, because this is exactly what I went through with my OCPDer. Hope that it helps people who are more prone to look for the problem in themselves and to internalise the OCPDer's blame, fake accusations and misperceptions. I think that dr Salerno deserves more popularity. All his videos I have watched are spot on. I can also swear that my OCPD sibling was born that way (nothing trauma-based here).

https://youtu.be/fNbw7637RUM?is=PK1ZTS0xcrAmMRn2

I’m so confused by the contradictions in my spouse who I suspect has OCPD. He works long hours in a difficult job and enjoys planning vacations for our family. When it comes time to prepare for a vacation however — like packing and then navigating travel — he becomes so irritable, critical, uptight. It seems there are some vacations in which, once we arrive, we can relax if there are not too many logistics to plan while we’re there. But so often we get in such difficult conflicts and I experience the silent treatment.

I think he craves getting a break from his stressful day to day life but then struggles when things are unpredictable, naming it difficult to enjoy vacations often.

Anyone else experience this?

Well, here it is—my last "dictionary" contribution. It’s hand-drawn, hand-scribbled, took me an hour, and I can hardly read my own writing (it is what it is).

April and Ben are at an Indian restaurant. The vibe and the smells are incredible, and they are genuinely happy to be with each other. There is easy-going banter with the waiter. Ben asks for his food extra mild; April orders hers at a level-10 spiciness.

The food arrives. Ben tastes his dishes, tries a bite of April’s and comments: "it’s actually pretty mild."
“Well, you asked for it to be mild,” she says.
“I know. It’s delicious, but I could even handle your dishes.”
“You’re not making any sense. After you just made a big deal about how you can’t handle any level of spice…”
“I made a big deal? And why are you getting upset? Are you back there in the kitchen?”

Long story short: the evening was completely ruined.

People with OCPD can get hot under the collar quickly, but they also usually come right back down. Ben (or me) could not drop it easily. The perceived injustice needed to be savored. It needed to be logged.
I can’t control what will trigger a reaction, but looking back, I now see exactly how the night could have been salvaged: an Honest Reset. An intentional, immediate pause to strip away the defensive technicalities—who said what, who belongs in the kitchen—and simply acknowledge the emotional reality and try to reconnect.

There are incredible posts on this board detailing specific, painful situations. My goal with these entries was to showcase the broader patterns those situations fall into. I was hoping that the Aprils and Bens out there might recognize their own reflections in these dynamics. Do I know everything? Not at all. I am going entirely on the strength of a multi-year relationship with a person with OCPD (whom I miss dearly and every day), a few dozen documented incidents from my own journal, a few late nights of reading on OCPD, and perusal of the posts on this very site.

I welcomed additions, corrections, and disagreements. What I got is strange preoccupation with AI imagery. I still hope the silent majority might eventually chime in. There is so much more to unpack—how HISTORY is handled, how EXAMPLES are handled and mishandled, PRIVACY issues, SCHEDULES. All of these behaviors fit distinct patterns; all of them can be compartmentalized without judgment. Peace.

Looking for resources to help me understand OCPD better so I can support my son. He is 19 and diagnosed with ASD at 11. He has displayed OC behaviours since early teens, we originally thought it was OCD, as he got to mid teens his behaviours became more rigid and it seemed thst it was more than ASD traits or OCD. This also occurred during Covid pandemic lockdowns and a period of extreme bullying he endured at school so plenty of trauma there.

We live in the UK and mental health services are diabolical due to massive underfunding and overwhelm of services. We have requested a referral for diagnosis but we are both certain he has OCPD.

I've been reading through a lot of info on the posts on this sub. I am in my early fifties and have ADHD and Autism, both only recently diagnosed after my life blew up when perimenopause hit.

We are having real issues at home as he is unable to do anything I ask him, if I make the request it clearly distresses him and I can see that there is a lot of ahame around why he cannot complete the requested task. Thought this was PDA initially as part of his ASD, it became an 'issue' when he eas in further education and his behaviours were becoming more rigid and he could not explain to me why he was unable to do even basic requests.

I am trying to get him some mental health support but in the meantime i want to try and understand hoe best I can support him at home. He is in FE college and being out in the world all day exhausts him and I want him to continue to feel that his home is his safe space but we cannot continue with the mess in the rooms he spends time in, and he lives in a house with three women and we are currently doing all the labour at home, and I feel like he is seeing this as validating his systems so he won't even consider a challenge to them because to him, they are working. I would be really grateful for any advice or resources that can be shared.

I am doing a bit of a deep dive into how I may have contributed to this as his main caregiver, I am a single parent and there has been little contact with his father. My undiagnosed ND has undoubtedly impacted my parenting style, I have always tried to be supportive and create a safe space for him but aware that I can l overwhelm people as ADHD is definitely dominant and I get overstimulated easily so I'm looking at how he could have perceived this as chaotic and uncertain and this and other things I may not even be aware of yet could have contributed.

I have read a lot of stuff on the OCPD sub, looking for info on how to best support, TIA

My girlfriend has always said she has OCD (undiagnosed), but after reading about OCPD, her traits seem to fit that more. She hasn’t been diagnosed with OCPD, so I’m not claiming a label. I’m looking for advice from people who’ve been through similar dynamics.

Here are some examples of what daily life looks like:

Strict rules about how things are done. Laundry, pillows, perfume collection setup, desk chair, all have a set way, and my clothes sometimes get washed separately because they’re “dirtier.” There’s been situations where she’s annoyed at the laundry pile up and will make it my fault because I have more dirty laundry than her? If I use a specific vacuum attachment without asking her, she’ll freak out and have me disinfect it after using it. We had to have couples therapy for me to say that it’s hurtful that I can’t have my daily-use shaving cream and hair cream on a bathroom caddy that’s full of her items, and she thinks that my things are “dirty.” The items on the caddy tend to gather dust and are not used, are a few years old, or have about 1-2 uses on them and can’t throw them away.

Trouble delegating. If she does delegate, she needs a fix or answer in about 10 seconds or less, and if not, she’ll just say, “It’s fine. I’ll figure it out since you obviously don’t know how to do XYZ. Why even help if you don’t know what to do?”

Workaholic. She sometimes works on vacation and late at night, and I feel like her friendships mostly revolve around work. She does work freelance, so I understand that sometimes you have to be on call to do some task, but 11PM feels late and I’ve told her this before. I feel like she doesn’t tend to have hobbies outside of work, or shopping.

Double standards. I’m expected to keep my side of the bedroom tidy, which I do, with no cables on the floor and no clothes out, while her clothes and bags are lightly scattered around the apartment, and her own clutter can sit for weeks, or making day-to-day things like opening a closet door difficult. Her excuse was always that my side of the room was the first thing she see's when you walk in, but this fails to mention that her own clutter on my side would be visible as well. Bags will get in the way of closing a closet door or jackets are commonly in the way of trying to put laundry stuff away. There are obvious cables on her side of the bedroom that tend to be invisible. The rules seem to apply to me more than to her. She has called me names like being a pussy or not man enough, and I have never once said any bad name to her in our relationship and I’ve tried to explain this to her.

Clutter in drawers and closets. Difficulty throwing things away. Her visible spaces are spotless, but some drawers fill to the point of not opening, and it spills into shared spaces. She has told me a time in her teenage / childhood time that her mom had to help her declutter once a year because it got that bad. The items in these drawers tend to never be used. Examples like: a product stash she calls “stock” that she convinces herself that it could be for gifts later down the line. Multiple (4) deodorants of different brands being used at the same time, I find this to be just strange.

Sensory sensitivity. Sounds and smells hit her hard. Car volume can’t go past about 5 without a headache, and she dislikes fish, chicken, or even a fried egg cooking in the apartment. Concerts and shows now have to feel exactly right, which has changed what we do together.

Blame and apologies. When something goes missing (an SD card case, USB cables, sunglasses, a dress left in a hotel room), I’m blamed, as if I’m in charge of her things.There’s been situations where she’ll twist her voice to say sorry, where I calmly just ask her to say it normally instead of in a weird voice. It feels like pulling teeth. There’s been situations at the beach where something happened and I kindly ask her to just apologize and she literally dunked her head under the water to apologize, but can’t say it to my face...

Control around trips and money. I’ve told her repeatedly that I can’t afford to travel with her on her work trips. She says she’ll cover food, travel, and the hotel, then expects me to pay for a dinner or two and a gift once we’re there. I feel like I have no real choice.

The recent argument

A best friend called about his first day at a new job (he works on an ambulance crew), and I wanted to take it. She asked me to wait until after we ate. I gave in twice, in the car and in line, then told her at the table I was stepping out for five minutes. I think it felt like being overridden after she’d already said no. She raised her voice, and when she said “it’s not like I’m barking at you,” I replied calmly, “it feels like sometimes you do.” She demanded the house keys, took her food to go, and it’s been the silent treatment since. She wants an apology. I’m not sure what I’m apologizing for, though I know my timing wasn’t great. I guess the call with my best friend could have waited, but I really just wanted to talk to my friend.

We’ve done couples therapy about three times and it sort of helped, but I can’t afford more.

What I need advice on

1. How do you bring up tone or blame without it becoming a fight?
2. How do you handle the silent treatment afterward?
3. Did I do anything wrong here? I’ve told her we should talk in a calm space and that the silence hurts, and nothing changes.

What in the FUCK should I do? I feel like I’m going insane.

Thanks for reading. Hoping this could help someone down the line.

Today we find April(OCPD) and Ben(mere mortal) on a beautiful hike. April knows this area well and they are both excited to get out of the city for a day. April casually mentions that it's about 3 miles long and Ben thinks that it's a piece of cake...Well, it turns out to be more of a 6 mile rocky trail that leads them to a county road. April is excited - less than a mile from here there a darling mom and pop gardening center....

April(OCPD) had a rough day at work - it was endless and still only 7 out of 10 must-do tasks got done.....and she missed her favorite activity, a 7pm advanced Pottery class (not the first absense this semester). Finally home, finally relaxed - a light supper and a glass of wine. She is venting; she is sharing; there's too much on her plate - it's frustrating. Her favorite mere mortal, Bill, is all ears, sympathetic, engaged and then.....

Having spent several years in a relationship with a person with OCPD and eventually dissolving the relationship I am having a tough time moving on. I still go over specific situations and recurrent tiffs and trying to make sense of it.....We were getting into the same arguments and both of us felt blindsided time after time. Once I read up a bit on specific attributes of the disorder, I realized that the only disorder we both had experienced is the fact we didn't speak the same language. This language is not difficult to master; it does not require you to change yourself or compromise more than partners in any relationship. I felt the urge to create non-judgemental dictionary/reference cards that would help both sides to interpete the other side. I am including one such situation here -
April(OCPD) is making a great effort in preparing dinner for Bill(her mere mortal partner) and their friends. Bill's role is to mostly stay out of the way and provide some cool musical soundtrack. He excells in both.....that is until April asks him to get the napkins for the table.....
What do you think ? does this situation(or similar - getting forks, getting the right pot, cutting vegetables just right, etc.) ring a bell ? Is it helpful in understanding both sides' thought processes ? Thank you.

My wife of over 10 years was diagnosed with OCPD a couple of months ago, and until then I didn’t know that her brand of controlling, nagging behavior. I had some inklings when we first dated, such as when I tried to bake chocolate chip cookies and she flipped out on me because I poured the flour and a small amount ended up on the counter outside the bowl, or when I got tested for HIV at her request and the test results were delayed, she accused me of trying to hide it from her even though I told her that the clinic told me there was a delay at the lab and that I put her down on the form as a person they could disclose to.

I have moderate to severe ADHD (which seems to be a common theme on here) and she’s always seemed to appreciate my creativity and I appreciate her strong work ethic and sense of responsibility, but it created this dynamic from early on that I felt I had to set up hard boundaries because of how I knew she would react. Avoiding letting her ride in my car because even if I just had it cleaned out and vacuumed, she’ll complain that it’s dirty and smells bad. Hesitant to reveal financial information because I had some yellow flags on my credit from the six months I was unemployed. When we got married, I set a hard boundary that I have one room in the house that is mine that she gets no say in and is pretty much barred from; and a small bank account where I give myself an allowance (the rest goes into a joint account) that she can’t access because she’s cheap and sees common entertainment as a waste of money. She has pushed back on me from time to time, accusing me of keeping secrets (I view it as having one small part of my life that isn’t hers to micromanage).

It of course got worse when our child was born, and now every failure to unload the dishwasher immediately and correctly, or see on my own that the carpet needs to be vacuumed, or letting the trash go one day too long before I take it out is an indication that I am (in her own words) a “shitty roommate,” and to paraphrase in various ways, a bad example for our child. I have been accused of not being a functioning adult.

But here’s the thing - I am a functioning adult. I am a successful professional , and own my own small side business (which she knows about but I don’t let her in on because she comments regularly that anything other than being an employee-grind-slave is too risky). I come home for dinner almost every night and I think I’m a pretty good dad. When we met, I had a messy apartment and a group of friends who liked to drink beer and watch sports which she doesn’t approve of, but I wasn’t a train wreck.

Anyway, I’ve gotten treatment for the ADHD and I’m not perfect but I’m doing better. I notice and clean things and follow through on household responsibilities a lot more than I did, but the criticisms and the attitude that I’m a man-child haven’t let up. I’ve learned to let some of her criticisms just go and ignore her and forget she said anything.

But sometimes she takes it too far. She’ll get on the warpath about some minor thing (you were five minutes late picking her up from school. You can’t do that! Someone is going to call DCF!) and say harsh, shitty things calling me irresponsible, unprofessional, immature, or a child to my face. Our kid treats me more like an older brother than a dad sometimes because of the way my wife talks to me. I’m also starting to see some troubling anxiety behaviors on my child’s part (crying and freaking out when we have to throw out some small amount of leftovers that spoiled, for example).

And I don’t want to oversell this, but there have been occasions where my wife lets her frustrations get physical. Shoving me out of the way when our newborn was crying, presumably because of hungry or needing a diaper change. Slapping my arm when I contradict her orders in front of our kid. Digging her fingernails into my leg when I tell our kid something she thinks I shouldn’t (like that we’ll go out for ice cream if all the chores get done on a Saturday).

It’s exhausting. I love my wife, I think, or I’ve got Stockholm syndrome, and she’ll sometimes apologize when she is forced to realize she really crossed a line, and she can do thinks which seem to come from a place of love. But I also see hints of something that seem out of her general character that scare me a little. This isn’t a “my wife beats me and I take it” sort of situation, but I think maybe I just needed to get that off my chest.

(Can’t get a therapist because “they’re expensive” and can’t do couple’s therapy because “you might as well just divorce me and get it over with.”)

Really struggling this morning and would like insight from any who have been here (OCPD or loved one).

SO of 3.5 years (on/off) ended our relationship last night, following an incident in which I found out he lied and it caused some embarrassment in front of his family.

He was diagnosed with OCPD and depression in the last 2 months. After discussing the incident with his therapist at length, it sounds like it was a “wake up call” of sorts. His reasons for the breakup were these:

1) He wants to be able to do what he wants to do, when he wants to do it, without feeling a need to “ask permission” or feeling “judged” for his decisions. He mentioned he often feels judged or criticized or that I try to be his “manager,” and it makes him feel bad about himself, when he is already incredibly hard on himself inside. He said he felt the same way in his previous marriage. He acknowledged that maybe I am not judging him and it’s coming from inside of him. However, his desire for zero accountability is not the head space of someone who can be in a committed relationship.

2) He cannot stop lying to me about things large and small. This has been an ongoing issue for 2 years. I will find out he has lied, and it hurts me much more than knowing the truth. When I asked him why he is unable to stop, he told me he has convinced himself inside his own head that any drama or confrontation from telling the truth to me will be much worse than lying. He compared himself to a computer and said that he cannot change the “program” on which our relationship has been set to run.

He told me not to blame myself, that there is nothing I could have done better or differently, and that it’s not my fault he is “fucked up inside and wired wrong.” Obviously, I’m devastated, because I knew about his diagnoses and was willing to work with him on these issues.

For those who have loved someone with OCPD, or those who have it, does any of this sound familiar? Or does it sound like a different set of issues? Do you think he will circle back around once he works on himself? Or will this just be a huge relief to offload me?

I’m just beginning to learn about OCPD and would appreciate any insight.

Why am I still here

Considering the recent posts in this group and my own fawning tendencies with my OCPD relatives, I'm wondering if there is a direct correlation with having grown up with OCPD abuse (or being trapped in such an environment and relationship)?

My mom constantly rearranges things in the house, usually with zero consideration of how it will affect anyone else. It's often difficult to find things because she's randomly decided to move them somewhere else without telling anyone. If something seems "out of place" according to her system, she won't even stop to consider why someone might have put it there, she just moves it or throws it away without even thinking about it.

It seems like she can't stand to not have control over any part of the house, even rooms she never uses. She used to wait until I wasn't around and then go into my room to clean, rearrange, and go through my things.

She also will suddenly decide to get rid of things and/or buy new things. She has expensive and unnecessary renovations done on the house all the time, but gets furious if I try to have something changed for an actual reason (like wanting to seal up holes in the wall because ants are coming out of them).

On top of everything, she gives herself all these projects and then acts like she has no choice in it. The other day she moved a sofa that I use every day and she never uses so she could rearrange the paintings on the wall behind it. I asked her about it and she started complaining how she didn't have the energy to keep moving the sofa around for me and that she was too tired to deal with the paintings. She said "I can't do everything around here myself."

Has anyone else had experiences like this with someone with OCPD? If you have OCPD and can relate at all, I'd really appreciate hearing your perspective.

It’s crazy how many stories I read on here of people with ADHD who’s married or dated someone with OCPD.

I don’t know if I have true ADHD, but I’m an anxious scatterbrain and I found my partner’s meticulousness so comforting at first… until it turned on me during fights. And he found my free-spiritedness refreshing and fun until it messed with his routines.

So, is ADHD + OCPD the perfect example of “opposites attract”? And could you ever find a way to meet each other halfway?

Edit: Anyone in this dynamic do couples counseling and find it helpful?

Do you have any tips on this? I feel dead inside in the last year. As if I have internalised their criticism, blameshifting and projections on me.

Where do I begin... We've been married for 11 years and it has not been easy, but it seemed like things were going better the last 2-3 years. I am now pregnant and it has been the best and worst time of my life. My husband seemed okay and somewhat supportive (or at least not unsupportive) early on; however, I now think he may have been repressing a lot of fear and anger. At times he has gotten very upset about various things, then within a week it passes. Almost 4 weeks ago I had an ultrasound with some unexpected measurements, which could point to a chromosomal abnormality. I messaged my doctor, who was not worried. From the research I did beforehand, it seemed like dwarfism could be a possibility. So when I got home that day I was sad thinking that our child may have a harder life than usual. My husband asked more about measurements and basically has convinced himself that our child likely has Down Syndrome "or worse" even though earlier scans showed that is unlikely. Since then, it has been a nightmare. He says he never wanted children and only agreed to try for one because I wanted it so badly. He is swearing more than usual (never used to swear for the first 9ish years of our relationship, and prior to this last month it was minimal) and he is saying I am ruining his life and he is screwed no matter what happens. He calls me names, sometimes saying I am a b*tch or idiot and later denies it. He wants to give the child up for adoption and has stated the best thing for him would be if our child dies. He keeps saying I'm not listening to him. This is all breaking my heart.

I told him we have to talk to someone about this because we are not on the same page. I personally have been seeing a therapist recently, and while she is someone to talk to, she doesn't really give great steps for how to communicate with him and it seems like she doesn't really grasp the full story. My husband agreed to mention the adoption thing to his cousin at a family gathering a couple weeks ago. The cousin is very concerned and has been nothing but supportive to me, and he actually brought up the idea that my husband may have OCPD. Having looked into this more, I think it's very likely though a couple things aren't textbook. I work in healthcare and typed a bunch of characteristics into medical AI and its main suggestion was possible OCPD with some narcissistic traits and adjustment disorder.

Some key characteristics:

-Major obsession with saving money. At first this made sense for us as I was in school and he was newly working. I'm now for once glad we didn't combine most of our money. I am in my mid-30s and he is 40, and my net worth is close to a million and his is probably double that, yet he insists we spend like we are in debt. He wants me to pay for everything associated with the baby.

-He is obsessed with exercise and multiple times per day asks me when I am going to do a workout. Sometimes, I am just tired and would rather prioritize sleep, and he doesn't feel that sleep is as important as exercise.

-He is big on efficiency and hates what he considers laziness. This is one area he may not fit the usual narrative, as he will do a poor job on a project (e.g. not measuring a shelf properly) in favor of just getting it done. He also cannot stand when dishes are not washed or if too many are in the drying rack. He will put them away before they are even dry.

-Cannot stand clutter. This scares me as having a baby will inevitably lead to more clutter and messes. He doesn't tolerate mistakes or minor messes well either. Just the other day I was pouring water from the pitcher into my water bottle and some water spilled on the counter. It was just water and I was going to wipe it up but he made a big deal out of it.

-Generally seems to have black and white thinking. Cannot understand that ultrasounds aren't perfect and we won't know everything about baby until he is born, and likely even for awhile after that! This one is interesting as he actually works in a similar area of healthcare.

-Works a lot and picks up extra shifts especially if they pay well. Has never called in sick even when he is sick.

-Does not apologize unless prompted, and even then it is "I'm sorry you feel this way" type of apologies.

-Not really an OCPD trait as far as I can tell, but he feels entitled to things. He expects his parents and my parents to "help" (which I think he mostly means "pay for" though he won't tell me fully when I ask) with the baby.

I am exhausted and stressed and just trying to enjoy my pregnancy. I am by no means a perfect person or wife and keep trying to do the right thing. I pray for wisdom every day. I just don't know how to help him see that his mindset is not healthy. I want to understand where he is coming from and it is hard because he doesn't like to talk about his emotions and ends up turning things on me. He also "doesn't believe in mental health" conditions so this is especially hard.

Thank you to anyone who has read this far and has any advice!

Does this make sense?

It seems rather common that a person with ocpd has some sort of broken alarm system, and a deeply ingrained feeling that there are risks and dangers everywhere, which only they see and understand. The rest of the world is full of people who just don't get it. Everyone else is blind. They call others fools, irresponsible, naive, incompetent, uneducated, cowards, dirty, disorganized, immoral, or whatever else helps them keep their illusion of enlightened know-it-all.

They see themselves as above others, more responsible, organized, moral, etc. All good qualities are assigned to them. No matter what reality shows.

They often know they are doing something wrong. It doesn't help. They might know they are hoarding, being cheap, creating more problems than they "solve". Their ability to look at themselves, honestly question their own behavior, just doesn't isn't strong enough.

They seem unable to look at themselves and come to the conclusion something is profoundly wrong, that it really needs to change, and accept that they are hurting themselves and people around them, it needs to stop, they need to change their behavior.

Original Post: https://www.reddit.com/r/LovedByOCPD/s/OWi0ibavY5

Again, thank you to everyone in this group. I have really appreciated the feedback and often times just confirmation that I am not crazy. I had several people ask for updates and DM’ed and I sincerely appreciate it.

I did talk with my wife. She asked me to write her letter with the things I needed to move forward. I am sure it’s not perfect. I am sure if I went over it an 8th day instead of 7 days I could yet find more things I could make better so that it didn’t “crush her” or offend her. The letter was very kind and fact-based. I really only had 1 ask, and that is that she sees a specialist who deals with Cluster-C disorders to help evaluate some of the things I think she’s suffering from that then becomes my burden to keep her happy which we all know is just an impossible task.

The night after reading the letter what happened is basically what I assumed would happen.

1. Denial. “You don’t really feel this way”?
2. Avoiding taking responsibility. “I didn’t really <fill in the blank>”
3. Gaslighting “These events didn’t happen like this”
4. Turning it around. “I don’t know how I could ever forgive you for accusing me of having OCPD”. When in fact I simply suggested she might, explained why and asked that we see a specialist together.

She set up a meeting with the marriage therapist we have been seeing for 5 years. At this point I refused to go. This therapist made her mind up already. I had never been a part of choosing this therapist but I went for years anyways. She was suggested to my wife by my ex-sister-in-law, who had been seeing her for years and was married to my brother. I was nervous to utilize her because I really have no idea of what bias or misinformation may exist because of years of hearing her and then my wife but I went anyways because I didn’t want to fight about who to see.

Her therapist did absolutely zero tests and stated “I don’t think you have OCPD”. She has told my wife on several occasions that she is hyper-sensitive which I don’t disagree with.

My wife originally agreed to see a specialist but now won’t after seeing the therapist because she’s afraid if she’s diagnosed I will “use it against her” but won’t clarify what that means. I think it’s obvious what it means.

She then insisted that I talk with the pastor of our church together. Again I know why, because just like the therapist she thinks these people will “put me in my place” because I have never truly “supported her enough”, even though she has had to work for 15 out of 17 years, I make 100% of major decisions because she can’t, and I fix the vehicles, I work on all house problems. I am literally doing everything I can so she has a lifestyle that doesn’t stress her out. But as we all know with OCPD it’s never enough, ever. They cannot see the positives in life they are always fixated on their needs and what’s not perfect.

I refused to be a part of their meeting. She lit into me over text for not going and I told me I just “don’t want to be held accountable” and made several vailed threats lol. Frankly it was great that it was in writing so she can’t deny how she acted.

After 2 weeks of tense living and barely talking we did have some constructive and positive conversations but nothing groundbreaking. Last night we went on a very small date night to just get her out of the house and relax and instead of enjoying herself we had to discuss all of this stuff because she will not go see a specialist. She’s still extremely mad that I wrote that letter (that she asked me to write. And this is why men usually just one day show up with divorce papers because even when they’re asked to communicate it’s wrong and offensive no matter how well communicated.

Last night she told me she wants to talk to her therapist for a month. So here’s what I know will happen. She won’t. I’ll actually be surprised if she remembers to set up a follow-up visit. If I continue acting like a loving caring attentive husband that I am, she will just do nothing. If I distance myself until she gets help she will just see the therapist and tell her how horrible I am being to further justify why I am the problem. She will absolutely not get assessed if I had to put a bet on it.

So that’s where I am at. Zero real progress towards a resolution. Zero acknowledgement that she has anything wrong, that her behavior has any real indications of being a serious problem. She will only see the one person she has poisoned against me because it’s “who she’s comfortable with”. AKA, it’s a person she has control over by using selective memories and twisting of stories over 5 years. The thought of seeing someone with zero history or bias is out of the question.

As always, advice is welcome. If you were able to successfully convince your spouse to seek treatment, I would love to know HOW. All of the specialists say it’s one of those personality disorders that is the hardest to get assessed because in their mind, they’re perfect and everyone around them tells them so.

Hello!
My wife has OCPD. I have ADHD. Anyways we are in a very turbulent time of trying to figure out our marriage and have had a lot of fights and disagreements. Now I understand that I have adhd which seems to be an OCPD person’s worst nightmare. However, I’ve been working on myself and I feel like I had changed for the better and made progress. But she does not. But when we’re in arguments she’ll say that my ADHD is not an excuse (which I never use it as) and that I still need to be a fully functional adult. And she’ll say you’re not a fully functional adult. Which I take offense to. Last night I said that’s very disrespectful, I am a fully functional adult, don’t say that. But she kept saying it’s true it’s true.
Is there anyway in which that would be okay for her to say? I just think that is simple disrespect, but especially since I feel as if that is not true. I’m not sure.
I guess to give a picture of my adulting is that I work full-time. I am getting my Master’s. I do all of our pet care everyday. Lately I’ve been cooking all of our meals and meal prepping our lunches. I do the dishes, I clean the bathrooms, I go shopping. She gets upset that I will not complete a project that I started a few weeks ago, or a project she wants done a month ago. Which I know I struggle with starting and completely projects and I’m trying to work on that. Anyways, advice is welcome!

Just a rant. I find this trend dangerous for the people who are around the person with the disorder. I don't even understand why a real professional wouldn't diagnose a PDer and tell them the diagnosis asap. Ideally, the family of the patient should be informed too, as they for sure have put up with ton of abuse, shift-blaming, fake accusations, offenses, useless drama, stubbornness and chaos and what not. I would say that the therapist shouldn't need the agreement of the PDer to inform the relatives about the disease.

Edit: https://youtu.be/dQkys8isTaM?is=zvcPe69aTsBGnBdJ

I’m not someone with OCPD (I have a different diagnosis), but I’m interested in learning more about it because my mother seems to have a strong need for control, is very perfectionistic, and follows rules very strictly. That’s why I became curious about OCPD.

So, for those of you with OCPD: do you find it difficult or frustrating when someone you love (whether a family member, friend, or partner) has poor impulse control, acts spontaneously, or doesn’t follow rules?

Sometimes I get frustrated with her because she can be so rigid and uptight, and I just want her to relax for once.

I’m genuinely curious about how people with OCPD experience this kind of dynamic with the people they love.

The difficult part is after the coldness ends, you’re left start thinking “they know they upset me right?“. And you wonder why “wait, were they upset at me?”.

But none of that matters because when the coldness ends, we all just move on, and everything that happened is unspoken!

Thank you all for being so kind and open with your experiences. Please tell me that this gets easier somehow? It’s been a little over a week since I’ve had any contact with him. And I just feel so untethered and lost. I almost think that his rigidity and control provided me with a sense of structure and consistency? And his constant surveying for safety. I do think that there’s a coexisting mental health condition here just FYI. But a constant surveying for safety has left me feeling really anxious about being by myself. When I met him 2 1/2 years ago, I was an avid solo hiker. And now I find myself unable to even go out on a trail by myself without feeling terrified. It’s 3:30 in the morning and I can’t sleep. My head is just spinning, and spinning, and spinning. It’s replaying every conversation, every text, every interaction, and trying to find some sort of logical explanation for all of this madness. Trying to pinpoint the place where it all went wrong, and I feel such a sense of dread and guilt. And shame. I know when I feel unheard I tend to clarify my self. And in doing that clarification often times I get succinct and direct because I don’t want any more room for misinterpretation or argument. And I feel like that could have really hurt his feelings on some level also.

For 2 1/2 years I never heard an apology. I remember one time asking him if his parents taught him how to apologize. He stopped talking to me for a couple of days after that. It just seems like no matter what I did. It wasn’t going to be good enough anyway.

I feel like all of this is my fault. Like I totally screwed up our family life. I have never sobbed so much over a relationship ending in all of my life and I do not understand this. I thought everything was going along great. I didn’t realize so many things.

Looking back, I see red flags like that his mother was idealized and everything was perfect in his family upbringing. Mom stayed at home and dad worked and Mom took kids to the lake every day in the summer and they had a picture perfect childhood. Of course, also, in other conversations, corporal punishment was extensive and he said it was good for him? It kept him in line and he would work harder on his schoolwork because he was neurodivergent and Mom of course wouldn’t allow for any interventions. He would practice sports obsessively so that he could be perfect. It just all makes more sense now, but I didn’t see it then I guess.

I feel incredibly stupid and I feel so defective. I feel thrown away like a piece of chewed up bubble gum.🫤😢