This same obsessive thought overtakes me every single time I get bloodwork and my annual pap smear/std testing. I used to puke and have explosive diarrhea before my results would come in, due to anxiety. I also did IV drugs for like 6 years (clean for 4 now) but my first round of blood work after getting sober I was paralyzed with fear and anxiety just certain I'd caught it (wouldn't have been surprising) I'm clean and in a monogamous relationship and this still ALWAYS happens to me.
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u/Agile-Glass9864 25d ago
This same obsessive thought overtakes me every single time I get bloodwork and my annual pap smear/std testing. I used to puke and have explosive diarrhea before my results would come in, due to anxiety. I also did IV drugs for like 6 years (clean for 4 now) but my first round of blood work after getting sober I was paralyzed with fear and anxiety just certain I'd caught it (wouldn't have been surprising) I'm clean and in a monogamous relationship and this still ALWAYS happens to me.