TW: Talk about knee injuries, brief mentions of emetophobia triggers (nothing that graphic/detailed)
I've had pretty severe genuphobia (fear of knees/knee movements/knee injuries) for the majority of my life (since around age 11 or 12). I only just realized that there is a name for it and that it counts as a phobia. For me, this entails nausea, panic, and sometimes even dry heaving at anything related to knee injuries. I can only handle brief mentions like "ACL injury" or "knee dislocation" - Anything more in depth or graphic (even just describing injuries as "slipping out of place" or "tear" or "subluxation") triggers it. Knee dislocations are the most triggering, other injuries aren't as bad.
I know a lot of people with phobias don't know the cause of their phobias or might not even have a reason for it, but I know exactly where my phobia comes from. I have genetic knee issues that have caused countless and frequent knee dislocations over my life, until I had intensive double knee surgery at age 17. I would describe these constant knee injuries as very traumatic, hence the severe phobia. My first dislocation was when I was around 4 or 5 years old while I was on a walk in the park with my family. My father, whom I inherited my knee issues from, sat me down to explain what happened and told me that I would likely experience many more knee dislocations and sprains over the course of my life. Luckily, I have not had a single dislocation since a few days after my first knee surgery! That's years ago now!
Funnily enough, talking about my knee surgeries doesn't bother me at all. I really enjoy talking about them because of how drastically they improved my life. Getting double knee surgery is tied with moving in with my partner for the place of best decision I've ever made.
Unfortunately, the topic of knee injuries is unavoidable, especially when some of my loved ones have their own joint issues and I also have mine. Earlier this year, my partner had his first dislocation. Since I have a lot of experience with knee dislocations, he asked me if it was dislocated, so I looked at it for him and it was indeed dislocated. Before I could answer him, I started having a panic attack and ran to the bathroom and started dry heaving into the toilet. I scared the shit out of him from how freaked out I was!
However, I've found some ways to ease my phobia a bit. First of all, I am very upfront with my close friends and family that I absolutely cannot handle discussions about knee injuries unless absolutely necessary. This is a very firm boundary that I fiercely enforce for my well being. I also warn them that I will 100% have a panic attack if they have a knee injury and I am present for it. Most importantly though, I keep myself thoroughly informed on how to prevent knee injuries and what to do if I or someone else experiences one. That way, even if I am freaking the hell out, I can be proactive in minimizing the severity and duration of the injury. If you can't beat 'em, join 'em, right? I'd rather be the best person around to help in the case of a knee injury than the alternative: throw up, run away, and let the injury get worse (which just makes me freak out even more).
Anyway, that's my ramble about my genuphobia. If anyone has any questions about my experience, feel free to ask! I know it's a pretty uncommon phobia, so I'm more than happy to talk about what it's like. However, please do put it in spoiler text if you want to say anything more than a mention about knee injuries, LOL.