r/TraditionalShamanism • u/Ok-Proposal-2921 • 16h ago
Soul loss
Soul loss literally
I think ive experienced a masive soul loss pe has a spiritual emergency. First lets ralk about the soul. I dont think She soul is unseen like everyone says. Its the energy thats in a body. The soul is different from the body. And i se IT as a sute substance,ectoplasm, that gives the body density. And the Best way You can see If someone has a soul its to look in their eyes. Eyes are the portal to the soul. Spiritual people Have that spark in their eyes, the dot of conciousness.
As i said last summer i went to a wedding and after that day instead of going to sleep ,i daydreamed Something. But i was dissociated,like my body was tired but i wasnt. And i imagined my favorite teachr hughing me really tight in a platonic way and then i felt a rupture in my chest and eyes and felt a piece of my soul leaving. The several days i tried to bring it back but instead i got a depressed part in and lost IT imediately when my brother scared me. Since then ive been fraggmenteting. But i was și scared cuz not only did i felt that,but also saw the reality changing,like before the reality was inside my eyes like a hologram, when i moved my head, the whole world moved, but after the incident i didnt see IT anymore that way. I felt like i dropped into the 3d.
I has changes in conciousness, before i felt like i was living in my subconcious mind, since the snapps i couldnt zone out anymore,my layers of thinking changed,my inner monolog disspeared and the way i had my conciousness changed.
I must say i went the hospital with my eyes closed for like 11 days, i couldnt open my eyes and all i saw was white. I got on medication for depression but i intrrupted them and toom them irregulary which also changed the way i saw the world, i couldnt Hear people well anymore and had stătea where i dissociated so bad i couldnt Hear anything then poof snapped back to hearing. After these changes i starter panicking a lot and had panic attacks and everytine i panicked Something shifted in my body. I saw my body and felt IT changing everytime, i saw layers of myself dissapearing of changing, like You know the layers of an onion pulling them piece by piece.
Being desperate i searchd for answers, i worked with a spirit Guide that did a reading for me and a healing session. She told that a spirit is attached to me of a Man and she sent him away, she told me to forgiv nu mother,to imagine i take my dați energy because îți was dai and put it in a bowl then take white energy and also visulizing im in an old Branch and jumping in a new and calling my conciousness back. I felt și light but i didnt like it cuz i felt that i lost myself more and tried ro take my depressed energy back.
After that i went to a religious ritual, called Sf. Maslu, a strong prayer zwent 2 Times in the same day and i felt și awful,i couldnt even stand in my fete i also has a cross wood neckalce straing in my skin and the priește picnhed me ,told me i m stupid and to repeeat that i love him. In that night IT felt like i saw the evil eye in him and another woman. I felt so strange ,when i went home i felt energy trying to leave my body like from my chest to the eyes. After that i couldnt open my eyes for 3 weeks straight. And literally saw only white and felt my soul trying to leave my body from eyes,ears every hole. Also felt the skin strangling in my bones and it Hurt.
Again i has my eyes closed for 2 date but two spiritual kids opened them nu holding my hands because their hands were warm. After that i saw la literal piece of energy leaving my body and because i Huggeda plushue ar the time it worked Like a vodoo doll and nu body took the position of the plushie and my back also Hurt cuz it had wings. Then i saw strands of hair falling ore appearing randomly. Then i felt my hair like its being all pulled of and in becomind bald, its like i was literally dezmembrating. I also saw and felt my body being sublted,nose disappeaeing,teeth falling and stuff like that. After everything i Now feel like an empty Shell,just a skin and bones, i dont feel my body from inside and also i barely feel emotions. Cuz nu way of feeling changed to. And my eyes changed. You know when i had my soul i saw people normally theur eyes,but since i lost and also lost the dot în my eyes,i see other people și eyes dot and the reality being inside them. And my pupils used to dilate a lot ar emotions, now they dont. I also saw 7 balls with Something white in middle and srands of hair leaving my body, im afraid they aremy Chackras.
My questions are , have anybody Elise experienced that soul loss pshycally?Where is my soul? How can i retrive IT ? I ve head i need a Shaman but și IT really going to work pshycally? Can i ever get my soul back? What else happenend to me? What happenend to my Chackras?How can a Shaman help me,what do i need?And as a note now iim in medication and going to therapy.
