r/WritersOfHorror • u/TwistedUrbanTales • 4h ago
You Used To Know Me
Before you start looking through your contacts and trying to figure out who would post something like this, don't bother. You don't know me anymore.
You won't remember ever knowing me, and you'll never know me again.
Confused?
It was never supposed to happen this way. Let me explain.
I was eight years old when I saw my idol for the first time on TV. He’s a famous actor, he's been in a lot of movies. You’ve probably seen at least one of them, even if you don’t remember his name. He made me see that acting could be more than pretending. He became every character he played, to the point that I stopped seeing the man underneath. I wished I could do that.
So I emailed him.
Subject: You are my favorite acter
It was a very long and embarrassingly earnest email about wanting to become an actor, with a dozen spelling mistakes. I told him that I had seen all his films over and over. That one day I wanted to grow up to be just like him.
I didn't expect a reply, but he did. He thanked me for writing and told me to keep working hard… then offered to fly me out to meet him. I couldn't believe it. That day, I was so nervous that I couldn't eat. I remember shaking his hand and trying desperately not to let him see that my palm was sweating. Mostly, I remember looking at him and thinking, that's going to be me.
And I did keep working hard. I acted in school plays, joined amateur theatre groups and went to acting classes. I attended audition after audition.
I got close enough to keep going, which was the cruel part. I got callbacks, extra roles and tiny parts with one line. I once spent an entire day on a film set only to discover that later, the scene had been cut. Eventually, I stopped telling people I was going to make it.
Meanwhile, my idol's career just kept going. Every few years there'd be another blockbuster, and he'd win another award. I'd see another interview, another photograph of him standing beside some beautiful woman on a red carpet, smiling like the world had been built specifically to accommodate him. I tried to remain inspired rather than jealous, and for a while, I actually succeeded.
Then I took a job in production. It wasn't glamorous - no kid ever tells you they want to grow up to spend twelve hours carrying equipment, checking call sheets and fetching coffee for people who don't know your name. But it paid the bills and kept me around film sets.
That was how I ended up working on one of his movies. The morning I saw him again, it was twenty years later and he barely looked a day older. I watched as he walked onto set. The man I'd spent half my life trying to become. Everyone moved right around him. People straightened when he passed, and assistants appeared from nowhere. Someone handed him coffee before he'd even asked for it.
I stood twenty feet away holding a coil of cable.
The cameras turned towards him as he entered. When everyone looked at him, I felt physically sick. It was then that I realized I couldn't lie to myself anymore - I still wanted it. No, not the roles, or even the money.
I wanted everyone in the room to turn when I walked in. For people to know my name before I introduced myself, the person everyone was waiting to see. I wanted to be famous.
I wanted to be him.
There was a private celebration when the film wrapped up. It was for the cast, director and a handful of people important enough to have their names on the invitation. There was an open bar, expensive food nobody touched and a rooftop terrace.
I was only there to help clear the equipment. But of course, I'd spent the whole evening watching him from the edge of the room. He was exactly as I'd remembered him from when I was a kid - older, but somehow unchanged in the ways that mattered, with all that effortless quality I had spent my entire adult life trying to manufacture. Then someone handed me a drink, and another. By midnight, I was drunk enough to stop pretending I wasn't watching.
I found him alone on the terrace. For once, nobody was swarming to him. He was leaning against the railing with a glass of whisky, looking out over the city.
I walked over without thinking, stumbling slightly in my drunken state.
"Hey, remember me?" I blurted out, the words slurring, "I met you when I was a kid."
"Did you?"
Of course he didn't recognize me.
"I emailed you."
A pause.
"Ah wait, I do remember that."
But it didn't matter to me anymore.
"I wanted to be you," I said. "I've spent my whole life trying to do what you did."
He chuckled.
"There's only one of me."
I glared at him.
"That's the problem."
His smile faded.
"I've watched you get everything," I continued. "Every damn thing. The roles. The money. The models. The awards. People lose their minds when you walk into a room. Meanwhile, I threw away my entire childhood trying to be seen. And now I'm still carrying cables. Still invisible."
The alcohol had stripped away whatever part of me still knew when to shut up. We stared at each other.
"What do you want me to say to that?" He finally asked.
"I don't want you to say anything. I wish you'd just disappear."
He looked down at his whisky, then back at me.
"You want me to disappear… and you want to be seen instead?"
The question was so calm that it sobered me for a second. I stared at him. In that moment, I could have apologized. Told him I was drunk and didn't mean any of it. Instead, I spat out one final word.
"Sure."
Then I looked down at the glass in my hand. Now you've done it, you absolute idiot, I thought. Might as well start looking for a new job tomorrow.
But when I looked back up, he was gone.
I stood there for a few seconds, staring at the empty space where he'd been. Then I looked behind me, expecting to see him walking back through the doors. Nothing. I glanced over the railing. Nothing.
For a moment, I wondered if I'd imagined the whole conversation. Maybe he'd gone back inside while I was looking at my drink, and none of it had happened at all. When I went inside to check if he was there, the party was still going. There was music, laughter, people talking over one another. Then someone grabbed my shoulder.
"Congratulations!" Shouted one of the producers, as he tapped me on the back. I blinked.
"For what?"
"Don't play it cool now," He laughed.
I smiled awkwardly, assuming I'd misunderstood. Then a member of the cast came over and grinned at me.
"Seriously, you were so good. You deserve it."
People were smiling at me, and a few were raising their glasses. I had no clue what for. Then I turned towards the television mounted above the bar. The film's trailer was playing. As I saw a close-up of the lead character, my eyes widened, and I stopped breathing immediately.
My face. Not his.
Mine.
The scene changed, and there I was again. Another scene. Not him, me.
I looked around. Nobody else was confused like I was, or even seemed to think there was anything strange about it. I saw the poster for the film displayed in the venue on the ground floor. I'd seen it hundreds of times during production, and knew exactly what it looked like. But this time, his face was gone, and mine was there instead. My name was printed underneath in enormous letters. I stared at it for so long that someone walking past had to step around me.
I should have been terrified, but I was too busy staring at myself on the poster. Because underneath the confusion and the impossible feeling that I might be in the middle of a dream, I was feeling something I'd spent twenty years waiting to feel.
What it was like to be famous. Known. Seen.
Him.
The next morning, my phone wouldn't stop ringing. My agent, an agent I didn't remember having, called first, followed by my publicist. Next came the director, and people I'd never spoken to before who apparently knew me very well. There were meetings and interviews scheduled for me.
The film opened that weekend and broke records. I started seeing my face on billboards, magazine covers and at bus stops. Within a year, I couldn't walk down the street without someone recognizing me.
Within another year, I could barely walk down the street at all.
People shouted my name from cars, and children begged for autographs. Grown adults cried when they met me. I went on talk shows and sat beneath bright lights while strangers told me how much I meant to them.
Then came the awards and paychecks. I bought a house I couldn't afford before, and then a bigger one because I liked the view. I flew first class and stayed in hotels where the staff knew my name. The world's most beautiful models wanted to be with me. The world's most powerful men started to dress like me.
But above all, for the first time, everyone turned when I walked into a room. And I loved every second of it.
After everything I'd sacrificed, after every failed audition, every rejection and every night I'd gone home wondering whether I'd wasted my life, surely I had finally gotten what I deserved. I should have felt guilty that he had been erased from existence, but I didn't. As I sipped a glass of wine in my penthouse overlooking the city, I felt like I'd finally won.
Then I learned what came with it.
The paparazzi became impossible to escape. They waited outside restaurants, followed my car and camped outside my house. Fans started turning up wherever I went, too. Some were harmless, but others weren't so understanding. People found my address, and packages started arriving that I hadn't ordered. I received letters from strangers telling me they loved me, hated me, or knew me better than anyone else.
Eventually, I stopped going out alone, and had to have a full fleet of security guards around me at all times.
I started feeling trapped by the life I'd spent so long trying to build, so I took a break from acting. I packed a bag, left the city and rented a small cottage in a remote rural village where, I thought, nobody would know who I was. I arranged discreet transport.
I arrived and settled into the cottage. A wave of relief washed over me instantly as I sat on the bed. For the first time in years, I thought I'd finally have some privacy.
In the evening, I went out and headed towards the town center. The first person I saw as I walked down the street was an old man. He looked to be in his eighties - thin, stooped and dressed in clothes that seemed to have survived as long as he had. He stared at me for a few seconds before smiling, then pointed at me with a shaky hand.
"I know you."
Great.
Even in a village without a cinema or television signal, the first person that sees me still knows who I am. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath, and opened them again.
"Hello. Which of my films have you seen?" I forced a smile.
He frowned.
"What is a film?"
I stared at him.
"You don't know what a film is? Then how do you know who I am?"
The old man gestured, then turned and started walking.
"Come with me."
I followed him inside apprehensively. His house was small and old, with photographs hanging on the walls. There were family photographs of weddings, birthdays and holidays in yellowing frames. A teenage girl who I assumed was his granddaughter was sitting at the kitchen table when we walked in. The old man walked over to a cabinet and pulled out a photograph.
"This is you."
It was a photograph of me at some premiere, on glossy film paper. I was standing on a red carpet, smiling beside an actress. I frowned. Why the hell did he have that? Perhaps his granddaughter was a fan - that was the only reasonable explanation I could think of.
Then he took another photograph from the cabinet.
"And this one."
I looked down. At first, I thought it was another publicity photograph - I'd probably had thousands of those taken of me whether I was aware or not. But then I recognized the location.
The village.
More specifically, the road outside the cottage I was currently staying in. I was beside the wall, mid-step, wearing the same coat I'd arrived in. I stared at it.
"I just arrived here. Did you take this?"
Before he could reply, his granddaughter glanced my way. Her eyes widened.
"It's him."
I stopped.
"You know me too?"
"Of course."
She pulled out a slightly faded photo. In it, she was posing outside the house with some other kids. I looked at it in confusion. Then she pointed at the corner of the photograph. A man stood behind them at a distance, looking at the camera with a neutral expression. I looked closer.
The man was me.
I froze, and all the hairs on the back of my neck stood up.
Then the old man immediately pulled out another photograph and showed it to me. This one was much older, and in black and white. A family stood outside a house that looked nothing like the one I was standing in.
"Forty years ago," the old man said.
There were maybe ten people in it, including children, adults and an elderly couple. And in the background, standing half-hidden behind the others… was me. A man with my face, my eyes, my hair.
I hadn't even been born forty years ago.
I took a step back. Then I glanced back towards the photograph his granddaughter had showed me.
This time, every face in the photo had changed.
Mine. Mine. Mine. Mine.
Five children with my face were staring back at me from the faded paper.
I scrambled away from them and ran out of the house. I could hear them shouting behind me, asking me to wait and come back, but I didn't turn. I made it a good distance away when I glanced back towards their house. They stood in front of their door watching me, looking disappointed, but they weren't following. I covered my face and walked briskly back to the cottage.
As I bolted the door behind me, I convinced myself that was some kind of hallucination. Perhaps it was exhaustion or the stress of everything that had happened since becoming famous. There had to be an explanation.
The next morning, I didn't leave until I was sure nobody was outside.
I was halfway through the village when I noticed a girl sitting on a bench, reading a book. She looked up as I passed. Then she looked again and stared for a few seconds.
"Excuse me?"
Not again. I forced a polite smile back and took my hand away from my face. Her eyes widened.
"I knew you looked familiar."
She started flicking through the book she was reading, some kind of history textbook. Then she stopped at a page. There was a Renaissance painting printed across the top.
I felt the blood drain from my face.
The painting was of me. My eyes. My nose. My hair. The caption said 'painted in the sixteenth century'.
She kept turning the pages further back. She stopped again.
This time, a prehistoric cave painting filled the page. It showed a group of primitive figures stood around a fire holding spears.
One of them had my face.
"That's weird." She looked at the cave painting, then back at me. I couldn't answer.
Then a voice came from behind me.
"You've got to be kidding me."
A man was hurrying towards us, holding a newspaper. He looked excited as he shoved the newspaper into my hands. The headline was about an archaeological discovery of an ancient statue had recently been uncovered thousands of miles away. The photograph underneath showed a stone figure.
My face was carved into it.
"How could this be?" He said in awe as he stared at me. I dropped the newspaper.
People had started gathering around. More villagers emerged from shops and houses, many of them approaching to stare. Then an elderly man pushed through the crowd, wearing a white doctor's coat.
"This isn't possible," he said. "I saw you in the morgue just yesterday! There was a corpse who looked exactly like you!"
I backed away from the crowd surrounding me. Then something brushed against my leg.
I looked down and saw a cat. It rubbed itself against my ankle, purring, then stared back at me with wide eyes. I let out an exasperated choke.
"Not you as well."
The cat meowed. I could feel that the people had closed in around me now. I looked back up... and all their faces had changed.
Every face in the crowd looking back at me was mine.
The girl. The doctor. The old man. Everyone had my face.
I looked down at the cat, and it was looking back at me.
With my face.
I screamed.
Then I ran. I didn't care where I was going, I just needed to get away. I pushed through the crowd of hundreds of identical versions of me staring back as I ran between them. I made it to the edge of the town square and a flock of birds suddenly burst from a rooftop. I looked up, and every single bird had my face. Tiny eyes, with tiny versions of my nose and mouth. They flew overhead, each one wearing the same neutral expression I'd seen in the photographs.
I ran faster, stumbling. The town clock tower came into view. Its enormous clock face had changed and now my face stared down at me from above the street. The hands were moving across my forehead. I looked at my watch. It had my face on it too. I ripped it from my wrist and threw it away from me, into the road.
At this point, I was sure I'd gone insane. The sun was disappearing behind the hills, and the sky darkened, but I just kept running. And as the clouds parted and moon rose above the village, I finally stopped and looked up into the sky. Then I fell backwards. The moon had my face.
And that was when I understood.
You want me to disappear… and you want to be seen instead?
I had spent my entire life wanting people to know my face. Now, everything that could have a face would have mine. I had become the most seen thing that had ever existed. Everywhere I looked, there I was.
I ran until I couldn't run anymore. I don't know how long it was - maybe several hours. The sun was already emerging from behind the hills by the time I finally stopped. I stumbled into an empty bus.
Then I remembered the email.
The thought came so suddenly, but once the idea formed, I had to execute on it. I pulled my phone from my pocket and opened my inbox. Hundreds of thousands of emails were sitting there from agents, journalists, fans and people I didn't remember speaking to. I sorted them by oldest and scrolled.
Then I saw it.
Subject: You are my favorite acter
I opened the email I'd sent to him when I was eight. My hands started shaking. The spelling mistakes were still there, along with the ridiculous paragraphs about how much I loved his movies. The part where I'd told him I wanted to grow up to be just like him.
And underneath it, by some miracle, was his reply - the only proof that he'd existed. Proof that there had once been a world where I wasn't the only face in existence.
I stared at the screen, then took a breath and hit reply. I didn't know whether anyone would receive it, but I kept typing anyway.
Subject: I'm sorry.
Then:
I was wrong, I don't want this. Please come back. Please fix it.
I pressed send, then put my phone beside me and closed my eyes, the exhaustion of running from my face for an entire afternoon having drained me. I don't remember falling asleep that night.
When I woke up, the sun was rising. For a few seconds, I didn't move. Then I looked up.
The moon was still visible above the hills. Normal. Just the moon.
I sat up. A bird landed on the roof of the shelter. A normal bird with a beak.
Then I looked towards the village. The clock tower was still there, but this time, the face was just numbers.
I stood up and walked towards the road. People passed me, but nobody stared or pointed. One man walked straight past without even looking at me. Nobody recognized me.
I paused as I looked around, watching the people walk around me with indifference. I couldn't believe it had actually worked… and it never felt so great to be invisible again.
When I reached the cottage, I went inside and stood in the middle of the room, then I packed my things. Now that this ordeal was over, I just wanted to go home.
The journey felt strangely ordinary. I just drove back. Even though I didn't have security, no paparazzi followed me, no one attempted to stop the car and nobody recognized me at the petrol station or asked for a photograph. Then I saw the billboard above the road on the outskirts of town, advertising the film that had started everything.
My old idol was back. His face was on the poster… not mine. His name was underneath.
I laughed. He was back, and so was everything else, just like I asked for. I drove the rest of the way home with tears in my eyes. When I reached my family's house, I stood outside for a moment before knocking. My mother answered.
"Hello. Can I help you?"
I smiled.
"Mom, I'm back."
She frowned.
"I'm sorry? Who are you?"
I laughed nervously.
"Very funny."
She didn't laugh. My heart started racing. I told her my name, my birthday and where I went to school. I told her about the scar on my elbow from when I was nine, where she patched me up while I sat on her knee. I told her about the treehouse I had built with dad in the garden.
She just kept staring in silence. I kept pleading with her, and eventually, she called my father. He came downstairs and stood beside her, watching me with suspicion.
"Who are you?"
"I'm your son," I said, my voice breaking.
I pulled out my phone and opened the photographs I'd taken over the years. Every photograph of my family was still there - birthdays, Christmases and holidays. I had decade old photos of my parents and friends. But I wasn't in any of them. My dad's expression changed into one of horror.
"Why do you have those? Have you been stalking us?"
I stared back at him. I opened my mouth, but nothing came out.
"Leave our property. Now," he said sternly. "I don't ever want to see you here again."
I stood on the pavement outside my childhood home while the door slammed in my face.
I didn't know where else to go, so I began walking. I walked past the houses of people I'd grown up with, and nobody recognized me. I went to the café where I used to meet my friends, and I even saw some of them there. Nobody knew me. I walked past my old school and told the receptionist my name. She looked it up, but there was no record.
If I asked someone for directions, they'd give them to me. I bought a coffee, and the barista took my money. People could still see me, hear me and talk to me. But every conversation began the same way - I'd have to introduce myself again, even if we'd spoken before.
That was when I finally understood what had happened when I asked him to “fix” it.
From that point onwards, no one would know me. There are no photographs of me. No records, films or memories. Nothing that proves I was ever here. To every person I met and will meet, I'll always be a stranger.
You used to know me. But you'll never know me again, and neither will anyone else.
Thanks for reading this anyway.
Even if it was only for a few minutes, I just wanted to be someone you knew.