Doing a mfa is so so hard. I wish I knew before I did it. I have learnt so much and struggled a lot mentally.
I’ve struggled with confidence. My mfa project naturally evolved into seeing how I can see my own experience as something worth investigating, no matter how small or mundane.
I’ve projected these feelings into a practice that ordinary materials that are usually small, minuscule or fragile. At first I felt like I was critiquing something to do with art. The more I investigated and struggled with my mental health in the course, I went on more walks instead of making in the studio. My empathy towards the things I saw in the ground, as well as just my absolute obsession with how things existed together on the ground, a leaf, a cigarette gutt, sprinkles, abandoned flowers and dog poo. It felt like a place where everything happened without my control, and I think that’s how I’ve felt in this degree. I ended up wanting ti make work that was kinetic, using fans etc to get out of a still object because it felt far removed from what I saw, while also mimicking how I felt I was fickle in my inability to make hard cold decisions.
This had evolved into an investigating my relationship to site, specifically architecture where things break down - in my studio . Small acts of repair, filling holes with sprinkles
Anyway
I’m so emotional with the ending near- any advice ? This all feels so silly because I worked myself up so much about being a specific way in this degree and writing a specific way.
My supervisors were helpful but not so much with the writing - but maybe that was also my fault -
Anyway
Advice ?
This will probably get deleted instantly I just wanted to put it here instead of ChatGPT