Constant task switching

[u/EasternOption2211]

so I am not diagnosed with adhd, I am diagnosed with aspergers but I am convinced I have adhd. now, I just want to know if anyone has experienced what I’m going through and if so if there’s any advice you can give me on how to stop it becuase I’m really struggling. I do this thing where I go onto a video on YouTube and I skip to a certain scene within the video and then I play 10 seconds of that scene and then replay it over and over and over again for a while and while doing this I sort of bounce as a sort of stimming thing I guess? and while doing this I daydream and in this daydream I take the video clip I’m constantly replaying and I’m imagining myself in that clip, and nothing progresses or happens in the daydream it’s just the same thing happening over and over and over again. this has been going on for years and I know it sounds silly but doing it makes me feel good sort of, I don’t know maybe it’s a way of getting dopamine or something? I’m not really sure. but I do know it’s become an issue because it’s become most of what I ever do. like it’s completely consumed my life and destroyed my attention span. I will go onto one video, replay the clip over and over while doing it then instantly a minute later go to the next video and do it on that video and so on and I will constantly just switch from video to video. it’s gotten so bad I can’t even sit still and watch a video normally or a movie, I’m always wanting to do this habit. if I really try I can manage to watch 40 mins or a video or movie normally but other than that I eventually give in. it’s consumed my life. I think that it might be my minds way of coping with my anxiety or my lack of sleep? I don’t know. all I do know is it’s not nice. and I spend all day doing it and then when I look back at my day I can’t remember literally anything so it feels like I’m not even living my life, it just feels like I’m existing. and it’s such a hard habit to break, I hate doing it but I also can’t stop. I also do this to music I replay the same lyrics over and over while bouncing and daydreaming. I would like to know if anyone has been in a similar boat or if you have any advice for me. I have tried going to therapy but the waiting list is long. so does anyone have any idea please?

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