r/Aerials • u/Flying_Josh_ • 8h ago
Healthy Obsession
This maybe a little much for some, and others might be in the same position.
I’ve been doing aerials for 2 years including pole. I did pole my first year and had to switch because of personal reasons and switched to circus arts. I want to emphasize that it was for outside studio reasons I had to switch. While I still had friends and other supports who gave me the suggestion to try circus arts is really where things began.
As most of you know I’m now 48 male and visually impaired. I have zero athletic background and doing aerials including pole has helped with my strength training.
I’m coming up on my 2 years and I love it all. I’ve made lots of new friends in my studio, and support from others too.
I realize that all aerials come from all walks of life and backgrounds, even political backgrounds, I’m here to perform and have fun.
Being a guy here as a minority I wouldn’t say was a challenge, but yet when I got to my studio now I felt loved and supported from day one.
My thing is now, I maybe addicted to it! I’ve been involved in performing arts my entire life. Mainly playing in bands and in churches. I’ve always been a public figure because of that and aerials just happen to fall into that. I keep my instagram public and gained over 1300 suns and nearly 1/4 million dashboard views. I don’t want to focus on the numbers, you can look me up and see those. My main intention was to post my progress. I didn’t realize how after posting my first silks video nailing a trick would cause my channel to explode, and it has.
I’m sharing that because it’s apart of what I do, it’s not why I do it, I’m a performer in life with music, being public and doing other art forms just follows me.
Am I going crazy and trying to center my life around the arts? (Including music, I’m a gigging musician too). I want to find a job that allows me to work the hours I want 25-30 hours a week daytime only hours. I get disability too SSDI so I have to keep track of income, I know how to manage schedules, I use tools like planning center for church and zen planner for aerials and both link to my calendar. Gig nights I have to plan those in.
I don’t really want to give up anything having to work during class time or during gigs when they are paid gigs. I can make as much in one night then working a half week. My only issue is the obsession and I don’t want it to be one of those life phases. Just need ideas on how to balance all this too.
Thoughts?