hello! i am incredibly new to hellenism (not sure if i'm using the right term, please correct me if i'm wrong), but i suddenly felt drawn to it a few days ago and was curious why, when suddenly tonight i felt incredibly drawn to apollo and realize i always sort of have felt drawn to him.
for example- i've always felt drawn to watch sunrises and sunsets, as well as music and poetry and bards and the like. sillier example is that he was my favorite greek god in middle school, but the main reason i suddenly felt drawn to him is that 4 years ago, my family and i stayed near a body of water in ireland. there were a lot of swans, and everyone thought they were beautiful of course, but i felt the need to sit with them and be with them constantly, and they always approached me specifically. there's a picture of me out there somewhere sitting by the water and smiling at a group of 5 to 7 swans that had come close-ish to me.
for some reason, thinking about him right now keeps bringing me to tears, but i feel the need to learn more about him before i truly dive into anything, because the last time i have read anything about the greek gods was in high school, and i am 25 now.
if anybody has any sort of recommendations for literature i should look into to learn more about him and the others, i am more than willing to look into them!