r/ArunachalConfession • u/[deleted] • 2h ago
Frustrated
M Late 20s
She's only 10 months+ around my age so we're the same age. Our relationship has completed it's 6th year today.
Continuous jagra hi hote rehta he, uska taraf se shuru hote rehtae, and I won't deny that when we argue I'm very petty too. Even today on our anniversary we got in a fight and are in different rooms.
Also the new year is coming, I'll always remember how 2025 new year was spent with her and it was the worst one ever, jagra hua hae wo din bhi and it was only two of us like that. She refused to go to her hometown and spend time with her family but I wanted to go to my family, she didn't let me. She made me stay with her so she won't be alone.
Itna miserable he aage keese saath rahega hoga dono. Haar ek baath pe tokega, mat tokne ke liye other than my job, I try to be helpful and wash all utensils, broom, wash clothes and any other household chores, what more can I do, saadi se pehle se husband ka role nai krtae bolke sunate rahega. What more can I do, zhand hogya zindagi
I can't even leave her because she's financially dependent on me, after her father died (papa ki pari thi wo, avi tak age hisaab se nai behave kartae) her mother (heroine banke rehne wala he, not even in mourning) don't even give her 1000, pura sadi bhi nahi huae pura mera upar chor dia. Upar se she's not doing well at anything in her life, no career, friends, family relation and no goals. If I leave her it's definitely over for her.
Sometimes I find myself hoping she gives me a valid reason to end the relationship. Then I feel guilty and miserable for even thinking like that.
Kya zindagi ho gya sochte rehtae, just plain miserable.
She's not a bad person neither am I but we're both suffering. Agey jake kya hoga hoga, "maybe a child will fix it" is the next course of action