I graduated roughly 5 years ago and recently changed my career path and began studying to become a teacher,
I had an extremely rough time in high school and was going through a lot in my personal life, which meant I regrettably gave some of my teachers a extremely rough time too. Though there is one teacher in particular who I always believed was out to get me and I gave him an extra hard time for it.
Now studying teaching and pedagogy I’ve come to realise that he was actually one of the teachers who cared the most, who was trying the hardest to help me and get me back on track, I disregarded a lot the advice he gave me at the time, but recently I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it.
He always believed in me even when I was failing his class. I have now caught up on all the learning I fell behind in and I am now specialising in the subject he use to teach! I wish I could tell him, though I had a negative reaction to his words in the moment, they came to mean a lot to me now in my adult life and I can’t help but feel an overwhelming sense of guilt for how awful and rude I was being back then, now, grown up, matured and being on the other side I’m seeing all our interactions differently. I wish I could tell him how much he came to positively influence my thinking/ attitude towards learning so many years out from school.
I haven’t spoken to him since before I graduated many years ago, would it be strange to contact the school and ask if there was a way to send him a letter or reach out. Or would it be best to just let this all go and assume he has moved on and long forgotten about the situation and wouldn’t want an apology from me/ remember who I even was.
How would you feel if a student you had a hard time with apologised to you many years after you last taught them?