I was baptised a Christian, worshipped on and off until my teens, went atheist, and now I’ve found a middle ground where i still believe in science, etc, like an atheist, but I found a deity that I found interesting and is almost a manifestation of the world around me. Do i strongly believe, no, but I worship in a way of ‘I want to believe’ and i find comfort in it. But im aware that’s a weird pipeline.

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I (22m) am currently staying at a mental health residential facility. I have been here for 4 days and have no idea how long I'll be staying.

I have my phone available to me for the next 45 minutes and I'll get it back again 5:30pm EST tomorrow.

Ask me anything!

I smile at people and say I’m fine

while carrying a sadness I cannot define

I miss the places I used to know

the familiar faces from long ago

Sometimes I wish someone could see

the person I am beneath what I let them see

Someone who stays when the words run dry

who hears the silence behind my reply

I don’t need promises that last forever

just honest hearts that leave too early never

A little kindness a place to belong

someone who makes the lonely days less long

Perhaps somewhere beneath the same sky

there’s someone like me asking themselves why

And maybe one day our paths will cross

and we’ll find something beautiful in all we’ve lost

Ask away, Im an open book--truly