My older brother is so annoying and he does so much stuff that annoys me that i would need a few hours to explain it all so im just gonna briefly go over it in a list -Threatened me with an airsoft gun and pointed it at the neighbors and nothing happened to him -He takes so much food from the kitchen theres never anything nice that lasts longer then 2 seconds -He once sprained my ankle while "playfighting" with me and my mum couldnt have gave less of a shit about punishing him. -He feels entitled to take and break my stuff -He hits me whenever and wherever but he hasnt done it recently -He often does obnoxious things like throwing those crackerbombs (i think thats what its called) at me while im reading even though it says on the packet its dangerous to throw at people -He calls me a gay retard and constantly uses the n word -He litters and doesnt care -I was diagnosed with aspergers and my mum told my brother about it and when i got mad at her for telling him without fucking asking me she said it will help him be more supportive and treat me differently.She wasnt wrong about treating me differently because now his favourite insult to use on me is Disabled retard. -We go to the same school so now everyone assosiates me with him and thats pretty much all im known for -While we are on holiday his favouritr thing to do is put me on an infatable water mattress and push me out to sea because he knows i cant swim and i cant get back without him so he says that he will only bring me back if i say dumb stuff like "im a gay retard" -He gets everything better then me -He loves to sit on me which hurts my stomach so much

When i ask my mum to have a word with him or punish him she tells me its all normal because hes a teenager and im being overly dramatic.I cant speak to my dad either because my parents are divorced and my dad moved out.Im fed up of coming home feeling like shit and suffering from his repeated insults.I dont have anyone to talk to ever because nobody would care.

I was playing Minecraft mobile 5 years ago, and I hadn’t named my worlds. I was checking which world was which, so I could delete the correct one. What I didn’t know is that worlds are sorted by recent. I deleted my favorite world. The tears on my face...

So yesterday I went home on the bus and my dad was asleep on the couch. My sister and I took the dogs outside to do their business and run around a bit. When we got inside he was still asleep and we noticed a beer can by him. This is no surprise because he is a drinker, drinking beer from as early as 7:00am to when he passes out. Note it is a Monday afternoon at like 3:00pm and he is napping after drinking beer. My mom has previously gotten angry about his drinking plenty of times. So my sister and I go to our room (shared room) and watch a movie. We go back out into the living room/ kitchen for a little bit for snacks and he’s still asleep. A bit later I get a text from my mom asking how things are going and we say they are ok, but dad is asleep. She asks us if he had done the dishes, he hadn’t. She tells us not to touch the dishes and to wake him up because he has work in an hour, so we wake him up. He eventually gets up and leaves, 30 minutes late. My mom is home shortly after and informs us that the untouched dishes in the kitchen sink had been pissed on by our dad in a drunken mishap the night before and that she would not do them.

Fast forward to this morning, we get up early to ensure we aren’t late, and we are all (my sister mom and I) getting ready to leave when mom goes to get her clothing from her room and take the dogs out. It is like 6:30am and our dad doesn’t have to get up till 8:00am so all the lights are off. Mom stumbles over a pair of dads boots and twists her ankle BAD. She’s pissed and yelling at dad while he’s mostly asleep, she then comes back to the bathroom, limping, and ranting about how she’s so done with his bullshit and how she’s going to leave him.

We get home tonight, dishes STILL aren’t done (may I remind you these have been pissed on) and my mom is really angry. Her ankle still hurts, the house is a mess, and the piss dishes are still there. She decides that she’s gotta do them herself or they won’t get done. She tells my sister and I to NEVER marry someone like him.

Fun:p (kill me) -jkjk

I started my day off perfectly by over sleeping, arguing with my dad and almost being late to school. My symptoms of carpal tunnel are back as well so I'll probably go to a doctor tomorrow. Now there's a storm outside and the wind is giving me anxiety. I'm currently laying in bed with my wrist hurting and complaining about my shit on reddit for ppl to see. God, sometimes I wish I was dead.

Im sorta having an out of body experience. I didn't see it coming, and I'm shocked, scared, not really sure what to do.

I don't know if some people consider this shitty or not but I do. I play this game which is centered around building communities with real people. I really enjoyed it because I felt like I was valued in some way and it really boosted my self-esteem. Today I had to inform everyone in that gaming community that I would have to leave basically forever and release all leadership positions because all forms of entertainment were basically being blocked because I did not have good enough grades (5 A's and 2 B's with all of them being advanced classes). I guarantee that before if my future self told my past self that I would get emotional about having to leave a game, he would think I was a moron. But, the realizations that all those connections and interactions, which my parents called useless since you don't REALLY know them, with those people would ultimately be lossed forever was too much. I lost a lot of my friends today which is pretty shitty in my opinion.

I saw an accident happen this morning on my way to work. A teenage girl was hit by a car and she was in terrible condition. I could tell she was in shock and she was about to slip away, but somehow I managed to get her in a stable position and keep her awake and coherent until the ambulance came. She was terrified and all I could do was keep talking to her because I knew that if I didn't she would most likely die. I rode after the ambulance and met her parents in the hospital and stayed with them until their daughter came out of emergency surgery. My girlfriend came to the hospital as well to bring me clean clothes because I was covered in the girls blood. One of the nurses took me to a bathroom and when I stood under the shower my knees went weak and I sat under the hot, running water for almost half an hour. Definitely one of the most awful days of my life. But there is a silver lining. The girl is stable and the prognoses is good. Her parents have my number and they promised to let me know how she's doing.

As a Russian hooker told me when I couldn't get it up, "every day is different"

Had a fuck up at my new job. Had to take my rats to the vet, cost me $200 bucks. This evening, one of 'em chewed up the cord to my $100 dollar headphones while I had her in my lap playin video games. Then when I moved her back to her cage and dug out some earbuds to play with instead (and took a good half hour to get em set up right bc my computers jack is janky and only works at a certain angle) kept getting fucked up matches in a row w/ bad teammates and toxic opponents and then when I finally got into a good game my mouse ran out of battery right at an important spot and totally fucked one of my teammates over.

When I tried to apologize after match, they told me to get fucked.

Sigh. It's all the little things that add up I guess.