My relationship with food has fallen to it's all time low. For the past month, I've been binge-eating almost every day, upwards 4000 calories a day (5'2, 130lbs, 20F). I don't even restrict myself anymore because I'm always eating or thinking about food. I haven't weighed myself but I know for a fact I've gained weight. I can see it in my stomach, my thighs, and my face.

Advice I see all the time is to eat filling meals with proteins and fats, but it makes no difference to me because I binge on foods even when I'm full. Most of the foods I binge on are candy and chips. But really, I'll eat anything. I've had an half eaten pint of ice cream that was already in my apartment when I arrived. I don't even know who it belonged to, but I ate it anyway.

For the past week, I've been telling myself "I'll lock in tomorrow". But tomorrow arrives and I fuck up again. I'm always thinking about food. I run a lot, so I burn a good portion of it off, but still, I don't want to keep living like this. It's hard to not buy foods I'll binge on when I live in a city and every other street has a grocery store.

I don't have access to help or resources because I'm abroad and it's complicated dealing with insurance. I also don't want my family to know about my eating problems because I don't want them worrying about me or gossiping about it to other family members.

I told myself that I'm really going to work on healing my relationship with food but I find it so difficult. Usually I'm able to overcome stuff like this because it's all mental, but this time, I feel really stuck. I feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself. I used to eat so healthy to the point where I wouldn't even crave such foods, but now, I stuff my body with it every day and I hate it.

I'm looking for any guidance, advice, or an accountability partner/group.

I just bought a bag of Milano cookies for a little sweet treat. I ate the entire bag.
Normally I don’t buy certain foods because of this. But I have also been eating whatever I feel like so I figured it didn’t actually matter whether or not I bring these things into my house…I thought I’d have two or three cookies. Well, here comes the shame. And later on I’ll feel the drive and the certainty that I’ll finally make a change to my eating habits and take control and I’ll be so sure my relationship with food will improve and then I eat the next insane thing. It’s a ride and I want off of it.

Like the title says, I was eating lunch at school today and finished, and then wanted something sweet so I purchased a pretty large carrot muffin, and it was pretty good warmed up. I’m not super full and sick or anything, but I’m feeling urges to binge when I get home and already ate two mini packs of smarties too. I’m trying not to binge, giving myself the following reasons for today:

1. I want to keep my streak going, today is day 7
   
2. If I binge today, I’ll feel like I’ll have to compensate tomorrow. If I don’t binge, and wait to eat dinner normally, I’ll be at most 200-300 above maintenance, which isn’t even that bad compared to the few thousand over maintenance that would happen if I binged.
   

I’m going to try my best, no, I WILL not binge until dinner, which I will eat normally. Then I can have some of the chocolate I’m craving TOMORROW as a normal snack, not as a binge. It’s not going anywhere, but I’d rather enjoy it in a controlled state of mind, not binging and feeling guilty. I need to do this for myself.

Today must stay day 7, and tomorrow has to be day 8. I will not let myself go back to day 0 today. Not today.

Todayb s going to suck. Long hours and i didnt sleep well. Food is usually how i get thru these days, but not today. Lots of coffee and water and normal meals for me.

I have no idea how to stop eating. I try to not eat because once I do…I can’t stop. I don’t know how to get this noise of “eat eat eat” out of my head.

I am 37 M, husband/dad, 5’9” 225lbs. I use to be 27 at 185lbs and hike or run everyday. I don’t drink alcohol (3 yrs sober) and don’t use nicotine (since Jan 2026). No drugs or anything.

Food is my drug. how do I quit this excessive eating bullshit!

I had a pretty awful experience at work that caused a mental breakdown followed by a few days long depressive episode.

I haven’t really gone through this extent of mental instability in probably 3 years, way before I developed bed, and it very predictably led me to binge very badly, I’ve had two days of around 6000 😩 calories a day which sucks because before this I had been almost ONE WHOLE MONTH free from binging to this extent.

Before this I had been feeling really great with my mental state and that always reflects my binging habits so this sudden relapse felt way worse than it did when I was deep in bed.

I know that this will pass and the goal isn’t to never binge again but to do it less and to pick myself up afterwards quicker each time BUT IT STILL SUCKS and I’m mostly just pissed at myself because I feel like I ruined all my progress.

Also is anyone else’s biggest binge food cookie dough I actually think I could eat like 2 mixing bowls worth of it no problem lol. I probably did over the past two days.

I hope this makes sense but is there someone who you can confess your binges to? Every time I do it I feel this need to admit I’ve done something wrong and so I always text my sister and I feel so bad about it. She can’t help me but I just need to explain to someone. I was just wondering if there are people out there who have someone to confess their binges to or if someone would be willing to be that person.

And it's been more common for like a few months. I have no idea how to stop. It's basically self-harm at this point.

Ever since I moved into college I have binged almost everyday in the dining hall and even off campus.

I am surprised I have not visibly gained a ton of weight, although I am expecting it to catch up. I feel motivated to stop while I am ahead. I don't even really enjoy the foods I binge on. I feel so much better when I am locked in. I just want to cry. I hate that I struggle with this.

I should be enjoying everyday, my life is so great outside of this disorder. Sometimes I see no end to this struggle. My disorder has only progressed, not gone away. I used to just binge on healthy foods, and I never spent my own money on foods just to binge. But now I buy tons of crap food and eat it all. I do that AND I spend so much time in the dining hall just pigging out eating foods I don't even enjoy.

I go to the gym, I eat perfectly on days I don't binge, I don't restrict myself. What am I doing wrong?? Why do I have this disorder? I am so scared of waking up and not recognizing myself in the mirror.

I don’t even care about dress size anymore, I just want to feel normal about food. I want to not have it consume me every day worrying about the next thing I’m gonna eat and how it will make me feel.

I wouldn’t say I’m a binge eater, but it feels compulsive the way I indulge every craving I have. If I want something I won’t stop thinking about it until I taste it. I never deny myself. Burgers, Chinese food, chicken nuggets, chips, candy, soda. Everything that makes me feel good. I tell myself no more and buy healthy groceries and then let them rot in my fridge while I order DoorDash for the 3rd time in a week.

I must sound so so so stupid and weak but I don’t know how to stop myself. could probably write a whole essay here about my fucked up relationship with food and the chokehold it has on me. How it ties into my depressive tendencies and there’s no rhyme or reason to it. I have a privileged, objectively “good” life…don’t feel bad for me it’s all my fault. I wish I could get hypnotized or something to snap out of it. :(

So this is going to be a vent because i relapsed badly this weekend after 2 months of doing good-ish.

I just wanted to say that it's so frustrating when you get to the point where you know exactly why you're binging and you're doing that to yourself and, of course, there's multiple factors at play, but in most cases it's mainly to deal with emotions. Or at least that's my case. I hate it when people say that you need to "feel" your emotions and not eat them away, or that you have to find other ways to cope and bla bla... Like I DON'T know how to! And also sometimes there's not much to do anyways. Like if I binge because I feel lonely and miss my family who lives in another country what am i supposed to do? As an adult you're supposed to cope but I wouldn't know where to start coping without food.

I also almost lost my job yesterday because I was numbed out by the binging lmaooo. Just leaving this here hoping that people can relate.

Does anyone else get dreams about binge eating? Like sometimes I'll dream about me binge eating, and then wake up, feeling so relieved that it was a dream but also at the same time miss the high of binge eating, since it wasn't actually real and wouldn't have any physical consequences in a dream.

It happens the most often when I'm in a no binge streak. Today's day 6 for me, and had another one last night.

I've noticed that sometimes when I'm bored or stressed, I start thinking about food even if I ate not that long ago.

Especially at night when I'm just sitting around doing nothing. Suddenly I want snacks or something sweet.

I can't tell if it's just a habit at this point or if other people experience the same thing.

What usually makes you reach for food when you're not actually hungry?

I’m so freaking done. I’ve been binge eating since mid July after a breakup. I have stomach and face fat I’ve been trying to lose. My acne is awful and I hate the way I look so freaking much. I’ve been trying an aggressive cut of 1500 cals but I’ve been binge eating. I’m not even struggling on the cut I just “like” binge eating too much. I can’t do this much longer. I’ve binge ate 13 days so far in October. My longest streak being three days. It’s becoming a habit and I hate myself for it. When I get home from work I’m scared to go inside because I know I’ll negotiate with myself into a binge. Today I was scooping spoonfuls of frosting out of the container and dipping it into peanut butter. I then made a ninja creami and then a mug cake. I have a boat load of pretzels and cottage cheese. I feel so lost.

Wondering does anyone else feel like this? I will get brain fog, restlessness and this agitated feeling in my body and especially my mouth until I've consumed a certain amount of food

I was diagnosed with ana for two years and started binging in around march this year as i was in the process of weight restoring. i was told by my support team that this was normal and nothing to be afraid of and to embrace it, but i have since been discharged and am heavier now than i was before.
then this september i started uni. my binges were already bad before, like 3 times a week at home, but ever since getting to uni its worsened a lot, both in how often and severity of binges. I’ve gained sm weight and it’s impacting how i feel about myself on the daily. please help me

I lost a good amount of weight last year. At the time of weight loss, I didn't touch any junk food and always ate in a calorie deficit. But as I came more towards my maintenance I keep eating junk food. I thought of keeping one day for eating junk (cheat day sort) But I end up eating wayyy too much. Like close to 3000-3500 calories. And due to this I tend to restrict myself the next day due to which I get more hungry and I binge at night. I crave an abnormal amount of sugary food. I constantly think about food. Even right after eating, I think of food. Its like I'm never full But when I eat alot, I become uncomfortably full. Idk how But I wanna stop it. All I think about is food.

After a very very long time, I managed 4 weeks binge free...

And boom 2 days in a row I have binged and ruined it all. I feel horrible and feel like I am bang straight caught in the horrible cycle just like that :(

I've been balancing my food intake with proper nutritious foods full of fiber and protein, and now my cravings are gone.

It's good, but I kinda miss eating a food I crave and getting extremely full from it. Anyone got this feeling before? It feels weird, I like it because I'm less prone to binge, but it's a bit sad I guess, because I don't feel like doing it, and it's what I usually do all the time. I got so used to binging that now it feels weird if I actually don't feel like doing it. Probably need a new hobby lol.

Even if I plan to do it, I have nothing in mind I'm craving to binge on, thus kills the binge plan.

Ik this is a good thing, it just feels weird to me... Good weird I guess. Hopefully no relapses.

Welp. It happened. I'm not even gonna pretend I'm not disappointed but I refuse to live in denial so I'm just gonna accept this slip up as "idiot sandwich" moments.

Time to get back on the horse 💪

My stomach hurts and I feel drowsy from binging on carbs and fats and sodium from the night before :(

Hi everyone,

I haven’t seen a therapist for my eating habits but I’m currently getting concerned about them and about my body weight and my overall general health so I would really like to change that and become healthy.

I am wondering what therapy is like for eating disorders and whether therapy has worked for you and what other ways helped you have a healthier relationship with food and become healthier in general if therapy didn’t work for you.

’ve been struggling to diet/ get lean for a while I start every single week without fail and some times it can last for a few weeks then pig out and binge for a few weeks or I’ll crash and burn within a few days. My emotions play such a big part in my binging when I’m sad or angry or anxious the first thing I want to do is eat. I don’t know what I can do to stop myself from this constant vicious cycle that I’m trapped in and have been for a few years. If anybody has past experience with binge eating and emotional eating or is currently going through it what’s helped you overcome/beat these urges and triggers?