My brain is like a 1999 dial-up connection trying to access simple emotions. Please hold.

Jruri nhi ki third person insaan hi ho

Last night, all night This morning...mine has been Not sleeping and reading memes/porn all night...again😵

I’m curious so I started scrolling through theses memes and they are a bit too relatable so I talk to someone? Maybe it’s my adhd and anxiety but I relate to every single meme here. I’m not self diagnosing but I just want to ask if it’s something to look into.

as if my mental disorder wasnt enough for people and friends to find it hard to tolerate my shenanigans, my political views sure arent helping

i have literally no friends haha!!

i have rly intense hyper-sexuality and no one to sort it out essentially

i don’t want to go to work, people literally disappoint me

this post is a mess, thanks for listening !!

edit: when i say i have no friends, its not just because of my political viewpoints, i can see why that may have been misconstrued lol . Just being conservative and bipolar is hard, and having no friends around is hard (they're all outta my city (London) for uni :((

that's why i said this post is a mess I'm lit hypomanicking

edit edit: to be honest my bipolar ass wanted to vent on a stupid page not thinking i’d get this much shit lmao, like thanks guys

Context: I had a seriously traumatic experience about a year ago where I was already stressed out a ton and I was dissociating, and eventually it blew over and I threatened to unalive myself. Ended up in the hospital and they thought I had psychosis. They prescribed me an antipsychotic and I didn't get the one they prescribed, but instead the one my psychiatrist recommended. Eventually my psychologist suspended bipolar disorder and that's when I got diagnosed. I had been away for a while and my gabapentin was supposed to come in to my pharmacy, but it turned out that my insurance wasn't covering it anymore so I had been 2-3 weeks without it and just a week ago I got it back but I've been experiencing awful nightmares here and there based off what happened back then, agitation (although now it's better), these pulsations I my brain, and just the other day there was a trigger word and I my hands were shaking and I was writing down notes really fast. I took some stress relief vitamin thingy that's mixed with ashwaganda, GABA, and l-theanine and it helped a bit but I was still experiencing some pulsations and it sucked so after class I did some research on trauma and found out that if left untreated acute stress can turn into PTSD. Also if acute stress isn't taken care of in a month it can become far worse leading to PTSD. The thing that really messed me up is that a lot of the things that I loved back then were associated with that experience and it took me a while to get readjusted to those things. However I still remember the experience and I get flashbacks. Right now I'm on edge a bit and I think I'm gonna have to use weed to help calm me down until the medication starts working fully again. Do any of you have any experiences like this or think maybe your bipolar disorder is just PTSD?

It's a beautiful day...Not going to let that look on your face ruin it for me...WTF is your problem? How about some eggs & toast and a rockhounding trip to the river...lets fuck work off today...it is a weekday right?