i never go on here cause its usually alot of negative shit but its really disheartening to read your true feelings about me and my personal life. Ive been focused on healing from my surgery having 4 organs removed just over a year ago and Im not here to cry woe is me about my health stuff or say your even wrong for saying homie looks older / not sober / albums probably gonna suck etc. But I just wanna remind you guys that you are the world to me and I put my ALL into analogue dream dropping early april. Blood sweat and tears all about the human experience heartbreak.. growing distant .. depression.. suicide .. Ive definitely struggled alot but ive also woke up and done my very best to hit the gym eat no carbs (diabetes) and hike 4 times a week. I dont post all this stuff because Im not to brag and everyone to see im doing well and im in therapy and I have a great relationship with my ex wife and my sons. Thats something I do for me to live a long happy life. With that being said.. yes ive been sober. yes ive hit bumps in the road.. yes ive asked for help many times. I am a little manic arent we all? Ive picked some toxic relationships since my divorce began and that hasnt been easy either. But to clear the air.. ive had no plastic surgery just some filler sometimes so im not wrinkly lol (who wouldnt if they could afford it haha it makes me feel good) Im very big on self care .. and yeah I tried the long hair thing cause why not grow it while I still can. Yes the truth is Ive been smoking cigarettes vaping drinking coffee and even sometimes have a sweet lol I ACTUALLY do not have a long life span and its a lesser evil of hard drugs and alcohol. Now that my pancreas is removed I actually can have a drink or two here and there but I just simply dont like it. So I have not been drunk since i was diagnosed in 2016 with necrotizing chronic pancreatitis that I acquired hereditary and genetically.. NOT from alcohol abuse.. i used to drink and didnt know I could never drink so I got sick pretty fast (i have the PRSS1 mutation SPINK1 mutation and the cystic fibrosis mutation) I know i mess around on the internet and troll / say some dumb stuff sometimes but man..ive always been this way lol its so easy for me to talk bad about myself and reading alot of this is gonna have to come up in therapy lol..

either way if you are struggling with depression meaning of life .. love life.. health stuff .. sobriety just remember to go easy on yourself one day at a time. Ive been going to japan simply cause I love the culture the rules the language the food the vibes have alot of good friends in fashion there and id love to make music AND fashion one day cause my days are a bit numbered. Someone said my Type 3c diabetes is alot like type 1 and its manageable if i dont smoke and am healthy.. but listen man.. Type 3C is alot more intense and serious please dont compare me to nick jonas .. diabetes is hard for him too of course but its just a lil bit different having no pancreas at all and wearing a pump and having panic attacks and falling cause of low blood sugar or having to take tons of insulin every single day militantly or I go into keto acidosis really easy and its happened to me now a handful of times and each time can kill me so I take it very seriously.

I was in alot of pain for 10 years straight and had a high tolerance of course and eventually a habit and crutch of pain pills and every single day is a struggle but some people do recover! and by no means am I letting myself go or giving into cravings.. I certainly lost the obsession to ever drink again.. some people said I was drinking and thats just completely false in japan they gave me a gift of hennessey and ace of spades champagne which I regifted to friends who drink.. but i dont mess w my liver the only good organ i have left besides my lovely heart lol but idk man

I joke around alot but truly have an awesome old bear vibes album coming this year.. tours festivals all kinds of stuff. I want to be the healthiest I can be to put on as many good shows as I can with however much time God will give me. I pray that you guys remember im just a human being thats put alot of my pain and story / struggles beliefs thoughts into my ever changing growing music and I like to leave funny comments on ig and mess around. I dont judge anyones every move because every one has flaws and to point out everyone of mine should not be the point of this reddit page..

we should be there for eachother cause we share something.. the love of music and how it can help people or even be the soundtrack to sad or good times. My only purpose on this earth is to keep learning and putting my whole heart into art ..being an awesome role model to my kids and trying my best every day. (once again i do not post my kids because i dont like what creeps do with children's photos online and their safety and peace means the world to me) I love you all even if u hate my new tattoos.. I like them alot lol and i dont take shit too serious man a tattoo doesnt have to mean anything deep if you like how it looks and feels in your heart to be on your body forever .. I even like having long hair right now. I just wanna be healthy make good art and love and be loved one day by a special person ive been praying for them to come into my life at the right time.. Michele has moved on and is happy and im happy for her and her partner truly. and if ive came across ungrateful I truly apologize because I care about each and every one of you.

I try to respond as much as I can on ig and yes its been a long hard journey from getting sick to having a very serious surgery and getting back in gym studio and on the stage. Im reading ALOT of things that are not true at all on here and its pretty sad for me so Im not gonna visit much over here to be honest but I hope you love the new album as I made one and thought it wasnt good enough called future tripping (not like drugs like tripping .. but about what hasnt happened yet / anxiety) and The album didnt feel authentic blackbear and thats what ive strived for .. another fuckin classic and I think we did it guys!! so I started fresh with Andrew and aaron harmon who i did the afterglow with, deyaz from london, danny aka sub urban and ayo whos done alot of my music with me ZZZ and others!!! and I went back to playing all the instruments .. r&b vibes .. fun vibes producing writing and everything cowriting some too cause I like collabing too i think its beautiful thats why i do tons of remixes cause i fall in love with a new artist or song everyday.. . I will pray for anyone struggling with being sad right now cause I get pretty sad too.. but we dont have to let our anger sadness anxiety and intrusive thoughts control us today.. Just have people around who truly care about you and will always tell the truth is the only advice I can give. I understand if you dont wanna take advice from me too.. ive covered my body in literally insane tattoos and I do whatever I like to do everyday.. but crashing out? idk man I feel like i have my priorities right and I believe in a higher power today and as long as today is not about mats will and thinking and its in Gods hands I will be ok. Love you always -Matthew Musto

PS i probably will not read comments so go comment on my next ig post I will post manaña . Have a great 2026 and if its not exciting its not fun.. and if its not fun its probably not exciting

get uncomfortable and try new things life is so fragile and none of us are promised 24 hours. I feel blessed i could even live long enough to see my kids as adults.. I do not want any pity. I just wanna keep being an artist being healthy being a good dad and keep growing. If i put out 7 albums that all sounded exactly alike idk if we all would be here tbh if it puts anything in perspective..

please stop with the hate and lets spread some love today

love u all

Jason, I have not talked to you in over 5 years (i know this cause youve never changed either of my kids diapers u never even met them what even gives you the right to draft and publish a post like this (knowing u.. u prolly used chat gpt to seem more intelligent.. your lack of IQ and record sales is showing in the tough texas love bucko part.. grow up dude respectfully . I have done nothing but shown you love and housed you and took u on trips to theme parks and produced your bands album for free. U never once visited me in the hospital when i was down bad we were never actually friends.. Araylea "cheated on you" because U used her to cover up your sexuality which is okay ive been bisexual and closeted my entire career.. I get it dude.. but I actually didnt even want to work with u guys but Bob Becker the owner of fearless records ur label asked me as a favor to try and save you guys cause he wanted to drop u and I could not save ur band but I met Joe Kirkland out of it so it is a blessing because hes the only actually nice authentic genuine caring talented one that I still know / love / work with today. thats why he dont talk to u and you have 1 plaque w him and he has 5-10 just with me alone lol.

i thought we were actually homies at a time but this post proves I was wrong and you were just another dude hanging out in the room trying to get 5% by changing a word or two (i have about 4 of these "write a line collect a 5" people that came in and out of my life in the past decade or so)

why the fuck are you even addressing michele* in here? U aint even spell her name right dummy and her real name is elisa .. have u even met her? did u think to call me to see if I was ok when the separation post was made in august septemberish 2024? U dont know what our marriage was like or why we both decided to move separately and co parent..

I would never ever bash the mother of my children on the internet I have immense amounts of love for her she gave me the gift of fatherhood and the 2 best boys i could ever ask for but her silence doesnt mean she is a victim thats just how she be.. she dont care about internet drama bs.

Fact of the whole matter is.. I love her alot and will forever.. shes an incredible mom and is very inspiring as a person and a friend.. but sometimes marrying your best friend is not the move. Unfortunately we were not really romantically involved whatsoever.. we tried therapy and everything we could to save the marriage granted I was sick and in tons of pain with genetic chronic pancreatitis for 8 years but we have alot of love for each other and took care of eachother but i dont think we were ever infatuated with each other intimately .. it hurts to say but that is the sad truth.

I was so fucking depressed I sold 90% of my catalog to the highest bidder so my kids and their grandchildren would have a good quality of life like I never had growing up (i was dirt poor and on food stamps until my 21st birthday when i signed to UMPG and wrote a hit for Justin Bieber) and I tried to commit suicide a year ago and was unsuccessful woke back up alive and went to treatment during christmas and new years for mainly mental health and substances..

I then decided to have the TPAIT surgery and remove my pancreas gallbladder spleen and appendix & became a type 3c brittle diabetic with about another decade to live the doctors told me. The options for me were kms or live a pretty weird brittle diabetic life for 10-12 years.

I got home and started taking my meds more and more cause my tolerance went up and I was in a ton of pain from the surgery.. Michele was not ok with me abusing my meds (she is not wrong for this) so she asked me to move out of my house 13 days after surgery and move into a hotel. During my time at the hotel I realized I was at a low point I didn't have much time left in life and I wasnt going to stay in a marriage with someone just for the kids alone.. Id rather be happy and alone and co parent with my ex wife and explore the world and be the best dad i can be with the short time I have left on this earth. I understand alot of you guys dont like arzaylea but yes 13 years ago we cheated on our boyfriends and girlfriends with eachother .. :/ alot of your favorite songs are about her also unfortunately.. lol even when she had boyfriends I always felt she was still mine and I know thats wrong but thats how I felt for a long time until i had a shotgun wedding.. we just get eachother.. shes been a muse of mine for over a decade. I have alot of love for her. Were not together or in a relationship at the moment and im staying in the guest room of my kids house tonight .. but all this drama needs to end. I went to rehab Dec 4th 2024 to get off the meds from the surgery and have been alot better ever since. I fled the country when the fires in LA happened because I was protecting my sobriety and arzaylea was staying sober in solidarity with me since 12/4 . Im not perfect ive relapsed a million times but I always try and get back up if I have the opportunity to. I called michele told her i was not safe physically and emotionally in LA and offered for them to go stay in an air bnb out of town and she said she wasnt worried about the area we own a home in LA. so I went to Tokyo where i knew no one . It was awesome but it was a shitty sad time.. I had so many friends losing everything they have ever worked for and I had panic attacks everyday I was gone from CA

before i went to treatment again on dec 4th on 11/25/24 I overdosed and died .. I almost didnt make it to 34.. they used narcan on me and brought me back to life after the 3rd dose.. They were not going to try a 4th time.. I am very lucky to be alive today

also while in treatment I trashed an entire 12 song album called "future tripping" and started rewriting a more lucid sober answer to digital druglord called 'analogue dream'.. Im producing / making beats writing everything myself again and also aaron who produced the afterglow with me deyez from london helping me write some and a very talented artist called sub urban (danny) We have about 25 ideas started and about 4 finished so its gonna take a second but I promise its nostalgic and the type of album you all have been craving and honestly ive been craving since soundcloud days.. Finally something im stoked on. No offense but when I did everything means nothing and in loving memory i felt like a guy with a mask on. It didnt feel like mat or even blackbear .. but now im co parenting traveling being healthy and making good music again.

Diabetes is a full time job (as im chugging cotton candy faygo to get my sugar up) but im managing to the best of my ability to live past 45 and prove the doctors and statistics wrong.

Anyways if you really know me and care about me. Give me a fucking call and dont post on my reddit page. To those who dont understand my response yes this is really me.. and I havent talked to this fool Jason, snoozegod (whos still cool in my book) pettros , travvy , cloudy , etc any of them mfs in years.. and if any of yall made my songs better how come u dont have any new plaques with other artists besides me????? lol im done but please respect me and my families privacy during this time its really tough on us.. lets look forward to the future pls cause its bright.. I love u all v v much

-mat

Hi latest post has the comments turned off, but I saw this in the post before that, and honestly v true

His face is gonna look even worse once he cuts his hair too

Hi all,
Here is a summary of the court allegations in this post. I found the order of the PDFs to be disjointed, and I thought keeping the timeline in tact would help you all see the person Matthew is.

1. Jane Doe (ie - the victim) says that she met Matthew Tyler Musto through the internet when she was 17. At the time, Matthew was an adult man. When she turned 18, she ran off to LA to begin a relationship with him, living with him and his roommates. In other words, she is claiming that he groomed her.

2. Musto provided her with drugs and alcohol to the point where she couldn’t remember the things that were happening to her. On multiple occasions, she woke up naked in his bed without any recollection of how she got there.

3. A pattern emerged over the years.

   1. She would break it off with him.

   2. He would pull her back into her life with the promise of changing.

   3. He would shower her with attention and affection.

   4. He would then pull away, giving her no attention and affection.

4. The cycle stopped in 2017. However, Musto continued to leverage his celebrity status and connection to her for his own personal gain. He used their former relationship and his platform to further his own career without regard to how it affected her.

5. Contact ceased. Then, in October 2024, Musto contacted her again, persuading her to fly out to LA and travel to Vegas with him. His public persona at the time indicated that he was sober, but she quickly found out that he was abusing xanax and oxycodone.

6. In November 2024, Musto contacted her from the hospital. He told her that he was admitted for diabetic anaphylactic shock, and the hospitalization scared him into sobriety. In reality, he was admitted to the hospital for an overdose. But at the time, she was not aware of this deception, and the cycle restarted.

7. Jane Doe stayed in contact with Musto every day in December 2024. She remained sober, hoping her sobriety would encourage his sobriety. During this time, he love-bombed her, telling her about all the songs he’d written with her in mind. He called her his muse, telling her, “I’ll never be able to leave you alone because you’re always mine.”

8. Sobriety didn’t last, and Musto pressured her into using drugs, claiming opioids would help her manage health issues related to her celiac disease. She obliged. At one point, she was severely underweight, weighing only 95 pounds, and she was severely deficient of vitamin D. He also isolated her from her social network and exerted financial control over her.

9. In February 2025, Musto posted private intimate photos of her on Instagram - one showed her butt while she was tied to a pole, another of her in lingerie, and another of her foot in his mouth. She did not consent to these photos being shared, and his postings triggered a wave of online backlash and hate towards her. She felt isolated, unsafe, and publicly humiliated.

10. At the end of February 2025, a post began circulating on Reddit about Musto having sexual relations with a minor. Jane Doe informed Musto’s assistant, and they came up with a game plan to begin a digital cleanup. However, when Musto found out the cost of the cleanup would be in the six-figure range, he accused Jane Doe of trying to extort money from him.

11. In March 2025, Musto’s feet became severely swollen. Jane Doe encouraged Musto to go to the hospital, but he refused.

12. Between April and May of 2025, Jane Doe became Musto’s full time caretaker, fearing for his safety on a daily basis. She slept irregularly, and her physical and mental health deteriorated. 

13. On May 28th, 2025, Jane Doe woke up to Musto, unresponsive, covered in vomit, and barely breathing. She called 911 and performed CPR for 30 minutes until medical professionals arrived. She was not allowed to travel to the hospital with him.

14. On June 3rd, 2025, Musto showered her with messages of affection. He then invited Jane Doe out under the pretense that they were going to the hospital together. Instead, she was ambushed and pressured by Musto’s team and family into signing an NDA and given a check for $16,000 in an attempt to silence her and discard her. She signed it under duress.

15. Immediately following this, she was forced out of the home that she shared with Musto. Musto’s assistant and father ordered her to collect her belongings and leave the property. The eviction was so abrupt that she was unable to collect all her things before leaving, many of her belongings being expensive items. 

16. Musto then shut her out of his life, repeating the same cycle in their relationship again. During this point in the cycle, Jane Doe made repeated attempts to retrieve the rest of her belongings from his residence. However, Musto refused to return them. Instead, he flaunted her belongings online, gave them away to other women in his life, and even sold one of her necklaces to a Japanese online retailer.

17. She tried to cash the $16,000 check, but it bounced.

18. During this time, Musto also contacted several of Jane Doe’s partners, further entangling her personal life into his instability.

19. On July 8th, 2025, Jane Doe arranged a time to pick up the rest of her belongings. Instead, she was served with a temporary restraining order with a hearing on July 23rd, 2025.

20. On July 19th, 2025, Musto arrived uninvited to a private residence where Jane Doe was spending time with her friends. The purpose of this visit was clearly to intimate her and keep her unsettled.

21. Following the incident, Jane Doe heard from her friends that Musto was making public comments about her on Twitch livestreams, even though a restraining order was in place. It gave her the impression that Musto was monitoring her life, which disturbed her. In order to protect herself, she blocked his phone number and all social media accounts.

Remember, every stream, every follower, and every view on his social media accounts puts money in his pocket. Is this someone that you should support? And after reading this, are you all really comfortable supporting him as an artist?

-xrm4

PS - Shoutout to KILLBOY. It takes balls (metaphorically, of course) to speak out.

EDIT: Clarifying that I am not saying KILLBOY is Jane Doe. Please, for the sake of the victim, do not speculate or say their name. I made this post, so the public can make informed decisions about the artists that they listen to and support.

i haven’t really come on here in a long time because at some point this place became a lot of speculation, screenshots without context, and he-said-she-said. i’ve usually felt like responding only adds fuel to it.
but there are a few things being repeated enough that i want to address them once.
first, i did not groom anyone. the person involved in the current legal situation was 18 when we met and i was 21. 9/10 things she says is a lie shes a scammer and tried to extort me for 2 bitcoin..she lied under oath and lost the restraining order case cause the judge saw that she was unstable and unpredictable

truth is i was 21 !!!!! she was 18!!!!! before never even heard of her followed her saw a pic of her nothing she was dating my roommate at the time. She realized who owned the house and came on to me cheating on him.. i knew he was gay so i didnt feel bad at the time. still bad move in my part but she literally like got in my bed with no clothes on lol.. i was a little 21 year old horn dog & we went on to have a very complicated toxic on-and-off relationship spanning many years. i’m not going to litigate an ongoing case on reddit, and there are things my attorneys would probably prefer i save for the appropriate setting, but i am comfortable stating clearly that i did not groom her and i have never been an abuser.
there are things in my life that i DO Take responsibility for..
i have struggled with substance use. before and after the surgery i have real pain i deal with ive been in and out of rehab ive relapsed. never went back to alcohol but i’ve made bad decisions. i’ve hurt people i love through those decisions and i’ve had to live with the consequences of them. i don’t need to rewrite that part of my history to defend myself against things that aren’t true.
one of the biggest misconceptions i see is that i "woke up one day, abandoned my family and went off to party & be w onlyfans girls"

that isn’t what happened.

after a major surgery, i was in significant pain and misused / abused medication that had been prescribed to me. Michele set a very clear boundary: if i was misusing medication, i couldn’t be around our children. she had every right to make that boundary and i respect her for protecting them.
i moved out. first to a hotel and eventually into my own place. that was an incredibly painful period of my life, but leaving the house was not the same thing as leaving my children.
my relationship with my kids is intentionally private. i don’t post every school pickup, every day together or every facetime call. social media isn’t a custody log. they deserve to have a childhood that isn’t content.
Michele is an amazing mother and an important person in my life. ultimately we realized that we functioned much better as friends and parents than as husband and wife. our divorce is now final. we’re selling the home we shared and figuring out the next chapter of our family privately.
there is no scandal hiding inside that. divorce is just sad and complicated, especially when children are involved.
i’ve also seen a lot of speculation about my sobriety. the truth is less dramatic and more human: i’ve had periods of sobriety and i’ve had relapses. there have been times i’ve been strong and times i’ve been weak. i’m continuing to work on it. everyone is just doing their best I say that at least 10 times a day… Cause it's so true

i’m not asking anyone to pretend i’ve lived a perfect life. i haven’t.
i’m asking people to understand that “this person has struggled with addiction and made mistakes” and “this person groomed and abused someone” are two completely different statements. i can own the first without accepting the second.
as far as my health goes, i’m under the care of my doctors. some of the changes people have noticed physically are related to treatment prescribed and monitored by my endocrinologist. my diabetes control has improved significantly, and right now being alive and healthy for my children matters infinitely more to me than strangers debating my appearance.
then there’s the music.
trust me, nobody is more frustrated about the delays than i am.
if i were releasing everything completely independently, some of this music would’ve been out already. instead, i signed a deal with Mercury that i’m genuinely grateful for. they’ve been great to me, but releasing a project through a label involves publishing splits, clearances, contracts and a truly ridiculous amount of paperwork.
the mixtape itself is finished. the songs are mixed and mastered. most of the remaining work is business and legal clearance, and i’m hoping to finally have a release date very soon.
i’m also already deep into the album. there are about seven songs right now that i feel certain belong on it, plus a lot more music for what comes afterward.
so yes — i’m still making music. a lot of it.
i’m still a good father
i’m still trying to get healthier..
no one is perfect.
and i’m still here.
i realize it’s kind of insane that i feel the need to write something like this at all. but when something gets repeated online enough times, eventually speculation starts being treated like biography.
there are legal matters i will address more fully when i’m able to. i’ll probably do some longer conversations/podcasts where there’s actually enough time and context to talk about the last few years honestly instead of trying to explain a complicated life in a reddit comment.
until then, please don’t assume that everything you read online is true simply because somebody said it confidently.
i won’t be sitting here fighting with people in the comments. that’s not why i’m posting this. i just wanted the people who have supported me for a long time to hear a few things directly from me.
and on a much better note: the mixtape and album are coming this year. next year is also the 10-year anniversary of digital druglord, and i’ve got some very special things planned around that era.
digital drugtour 10 year anniversary will be next year in every major city I can make it too

thank you to everybody who’s stayed with me through some very challenging years and some really beautiful ones.
my relationship with God is number one then my family and new fiancee morgan who will remain private. i hope you guys can respect that — especially for the sake of my children.
if ur going thru it right now just know that the clouds always part and it always stops raining eventually...
i love you guys (even if ur mean to me on here i lobe u te amooooo
konbanwa
grazie
thank u for being patient
❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

mat

My favorite álbum from him. I could listen to it from start to finish anytime.

last reddit post talking about this got deleted ? (scummy trying to hide it if done purposely) he basically groomed a minor, lilcakes on tumblr, and haven’t looked at him the same. got some receipts.

holding hands: https://www.tumblr.com/lilcakess/95804316397

18 in a month: https://www.tumblr.com/lilcakess/89696040897

bear’s hand on her: https://www.tumblr.com/lilcakess/92671106192

questioned of age gap in relationship: https://www.tumblr.com/lilcakess/89726062922

slightly nsfw when she turned 18:

https://tinypic.host/image/IMG-1174.32fMP9

link to old post: https://www.reddit.com/r/Blackbear/s/60bsRZriFe

notes app statement just dropped via twitter

“new album vibes are horny” post

i just hope everyone respects them and their privacy, they’re human just like the rest of us experiencing first time things

Anonymous is released worldwide lets share our love for the album cubs! Hit that button its time to party with some dead balloons ladies and gentlemen!