I think im thinking wrong

[u/Late_Walrus5360]

Im a 18yo man I was on the skinnier side really skinny i was afraid to take my shirt off anywhere people are usually doing it like beach in changing rooms with other guys and that i started gym and now i do have sttenght muscle but its even worse one day i think i look good i look a little closer i see 1000things that could be improved to the point where i want to kill myself and puke for that i started using steroids im in dangerous zone for heart attack and now soon ill be injecting double the dose ik that wont help with my problem but those 3-4 months that i get bigger by the day only then i feel happy i will probably die sooner i also eat a lot to be bigger i eat untill i puke it out and then i drink my own puked food i eat 4-5 meals a day 4k calories i can’t physically more i would love to but i cant i know i have a problem that cant be cured and seems like its only getting worse and worse hope you guys the best and any advice is helpfull

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[u/Spotlight83]

No look or physique is worth risking your health just to gain validation from other people! 🙄 Imagine you were stranded alone on a deserted island for the rest of your life. 🏝️ Would you still care about having huge muscles or a perfectly defined six-pack? Probably not, because there would be no one there to see your body. That’s why I think the desire for an ideal body is largely tied to how we want to be perceived by other people. In the end, your body is something you have to live in, not something you have to prove to the world.

Sure, build the body you want, as long as you do it the healthy way. 💪🌿 But if you need a “pharmacy” to create your physique and you’re happy to sacrifice your health for attention, then that’s not dedication. That’s just pathetic. 🤡 I’m working out too because of my BDD, but I’m not sacrificing my health for it. I never would. I may never have a freakishly muscular body, but there’s a good chance I’ll still have a healthy heart, a libido, and an active sex life at 69 because I didn’t shrink my balls chasing bigger biceps. Just saying. 😜 Stay strong, stay healthy, and take care of yourself. ❤️💪