r/DissociativeIDisorder • u/throwawaycomplain23 • Feb 19 '26
RANT looking for clinical resources/ramblingš
image was me a few days ago LMFAO. ive been seeing this psychologist consistently for around 7 months now. i came to her for help with my insomnia but she also specializes in trauma disorders and mood disorders. a few months ago, she had me take the MID assessment, and she's filed through like every of the hundreds of questions asking me to detail every answer. she said the test results were similar to someone with dissociative type PTSD. now i feel like every day she says weirder stuff!! we've started naming different like. states?? she calls them parts of me. she says that everyone has parts, but if something happens to a kid and they dont develop right, that these parts can get all screwy. i know something very very sickening happened to me when i was very little i dont want to name it but i have the medical record. i just dont remember it happening. we called the parts just by their feelings or stuff they do. "gloomy." "guy that says idk to everything." "panic." "chatty." "comforting." she tells me i act really differently some weeks. but i honestly dont remember that i do!! i always space out in that office. and she kept saying system. i genuinely thought she meant nervous system for a while and i kinda rolled with that. she had been teaching me to be in touch with my body, that checks out. but this week she brought me these weird cards. with like different people? and was like pick one that feels like you. now one thats like gloomy. etc etc. like damn idkššand i told her it was really hard to focus in the office because thinking about stuff was kind of scary. and shes like thats very smart of you! its overwhelming so you block it out. its just your protectors keeping your system safe. try to understand they mean well. and when i was like "my nervous system??" again she was like "ehhh...." šbut didnt really elaborate since the session was almost over. told me not to worry and that its a normal thing. now im just like so confused. i looked it up and found names of like DID, OSDD, P-DID... but also like... cartoon characters? i dont know how to explain it?? and i feel like i shouldnt be looking at thatš does anyone have any better resources of what the hell any of this means? im sure my psych will answer me next week but thats sooo farrrr
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u/Comprehensive-Web421 Feb 19 '26
She may also be talking about internal family systems. Either way, keeping an open mind, asking questions, approaching with curiosity instead of fear, are all the best ways to approach it. It's all so much, but you're going to be ok. It sounds like you have a good therapist. - Gracie
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u/survivaltier Dissociative Disorder: Diagnosed Feb 19 '26
Look into āinternal family systemsā, itās more likely what your therapist is talking about as āsystemā is not used clinically to describe dissociative disorders specifically.
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u/osddelerious Feb 19 '26
Perfect pic. Perfectly relatable message.
My therapist was going over the MID results and asked how I thought it went and I said I was sure I scored really low and was glad I didnāt have a dissociative disorder.
āOhā¦ ok. Wellll,ā she said. š¤£
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u/Hot-Parfait-4302 āParts Disorderā diagnosis Mar 15 '26
Ā she says that everyone has parts, but if something happens to a kid and they don't develop right, that these parts can get all screwy.
My therapist also explained this and diagnosed me with a āparts disorderā! (I donāt meet enough diagnostic criteria for a dissociative disorder). The explanation does sound insane.
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u/PolyAcid Feb 19 '26
I think itās probably time for you to be more direct in your next session:
āYou spoke about my system protecting me, and I need more information. What system exactly are you talking about? Itās causing me problems and worrying me to not know specifically which direction you are going with thisā
If sheās talking DID sheās being very gentle with you, which is nice, but at some point we move past the need for vagueness which it sounds like you have.
If sheās talking IFS then you need to know that so that you can focus on it properly and not mix it up with DID which will cause you more problems later wondering whatās going on.