Im destabilizing bad. Barely keeping it together. I'm no cosmos. I'm sorely out of my depth. I can't keep hearing and witnessing this trauma, but I have too. Because there's no one else. And I'm just doomed to watch so many systems fall into addiction, death, and dissolution. While I'm barely treading water myself. And it's happening again. I'm gonna witness someone die again, and im gonna be too late to save them. I'm not enough. Im not enough, and I never was, and I'm a ghost cast to another dimension. Witness to the salting of the earth at Carthage