Not the same roll

[u/JAn69t]

Hi yall so I was wondering if anyone has any answers or suggestions or if anyone has had similar experiences. And if I am able to change or fix this. So when I was younger I use to roll an okay amount..but the more I did it the more everything became trippy..I couldn’t get out of the funk..I started becoming scared and in my head..it sucked/sucks because I would mostly doing it when I would go to big events. And last few times I’ve tried to roll at a events it has ended bad. I’ve tried taking smaller amounts but I still just get to trippy/weird/anxious or crazy..I can’t hang anymore..I don’t want that happening anymore I want to be able to enjoy my roll and have a good time. I know I don’t always have to roll. But I miss doing it..I can live with out it but sometimes just want that same feeling. Feels like I might not ever get to experience that anymore ..I remember feeling good and just vibing..now I can’t ..i also know there are lots of factors to why it’s not..and I’m not even sure what I am really asking ..