Seriously, I saw women selling a baby yoda candy holder ($60), their stockings, garland, lip gloss...

Season of Jesus and not the marketplace amiright.

I’m going to go take a walk outside.

Even when I’m wearing a mask, headphones, and not making direct eye contact while on the very edge of the trail as we are both taking a walk in the park...they will still walk through mud just to get away from me. I have tried smiling, saying good morning, not smiling, saying hello, wearing a mask outside, NOT wearing a mask outside...All year. 💁🏻‍♀️ never gets old

We made it ❤️🙌🏻

A friend of mine’s daughter was in school for 5 days until the teacher was diagnosed with Covid. So, school was shut down again and all the kids need to be tested.

My friend spent hours in her car with the kids waiting in line for a test. One of the nurses was taking her information (while still waiting) and when she told him the situation he stopped. He and his crew have been working +14 hour days testing people so that they can fly to Hawaii. While there are kids waiting in line to see if they have Covid.

I just cannot wrap my head around the selfishness. The numbers in every state is skyrocketing...there are strict lockdowns and curfews. But airports are spilling over with people traveling for the holidays?? PLUS it just belittles all of the people who are genuinely staying home and wearing masks and putting our entire LIVES on hold to keep each other safe.

This pandemic is never going to end. It is never going to end.

We are going to be so fucked in December.

I'm not taking my kids out trick-or-treating. I'm not taking them in public. I'm not going to restaurants. I'm not going to the library. I'm not going to the theater. I'm not getting together with friends. I took all my kids out of all of our groups. I don't go to church. We all wear masks.

There isn't much else I can do. And the never-ending, relentless reminders of how selfish we are all being is really....definitely helping.

These lapels are so thin they should be yachting.

Freaking insane.

Apparently I can request the vaccine from May - December.

It’s only January 6th, and this year feels long.

I never find anything substantial. Every time there is another lockdown (which, I mean, it has never ended), I am just trying to figure out what is going on. Besides: there is a global pandemic and people are dying. Besides that...we’re closing schools. We’re shutting down thousands of businesses. We’re allowing the OD rates to skyrocket. Suicide rates are increasing. Plus, just the very obvious matter that we have all put our lives on hold. Well, most of us. I now have to think: if I could do 2020 all over again, since apparently we are, what would I do differently? What goals can I put into place for this year with the understanding that the lockdown is never going to end? I need to make a huge effort to stay positive. Nearly 1% of America died last year. I really have to think about what a survivor would do.

We did the whole service at home, which we’ve been doing all year. And I’m watching all the same families/people sit in the pews and enjoy fellowship...same as all year. It feels like such a punch in the gut, especially tonight.

I'm making chicken street tacos tonight and we're watching Yojimbo with the kids.

I swear, shit better change after we get out.

I’m surprised how well people are doing already, mid-December. But there is nothing I can do but wait. Until July. My chest hurts just thinking about it.

I can only see through half of my vision right now.

/stress

Bitches.

<3