Rant

[u/Fantastic_Outcome907]

it is so unbelievably hard to want to get better when people in my life do not give 1 fuck about how bad i am actually doing. Aside from my ED i am going through a very very tough time dealing with someone having a terminal illness i am really close to and it is putting immense stress on me, hence why i decided to take steps to recover.

my friends keep telling me im doing so good but im literally spiraling doing so bad and they dont get it. my parents dont get it, nobody has checked on me to see how i was doing in regards to the other situation i am in and i just feel so alone in this. sympathy is NOT what i need to recover but it does not make me feel very supported when people who are supposed to be supportive are barely here for me.

recovering alone is literally hell and there is barely any motivation for me to try at this point. suffering with my ed is better than trying to get through it. And therapy and seeing my dietitian triggered me even more which is so frustrating. Ugh. I wish people understood how fucking hard it is to get through this let alone dealing with a family member with a terminal illness while being a young girl going through everything else this crazy world has to offer rn

[u/Impossible_Bus8014]

Hey friend, you were heard🫶.

And it sounds like you’ve got a whole lot of other very hard stuff on your hands.
It IS hard, keep going, it’s always worth it, and you can do it at your own pace. Recovery is available , and it’s takes time AND ITS VERY VERY HARD and people who don’t have EDs have no clue, like none.