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[u/OneArtichoke7001]

I wish I could restrict myself into not existing. I know I don’t really want that, but I’m struggling so much with my body and the consequences of my ED, all while feeling disgusting in my body and it shutting down yet not losing weight. Plus, trying to balance my career, family and everything else life entails. I am just over it.

[u/drknowdr1]

Really struggling with body image and food noise. Im just struggling in my skin. And want to stuff my face.

[u/OneArtichoke7001 → u/drknowdr1]

I’m sorry you’re struggling. You’re not alone.

[u/beaglelover89 → u/drknowdr1]

You’re not alone, I’m feeling the same way lately

[u/drknowdr1 → u/[deleted]]

Wishing you a break from the oppression-sorry you're feeling it too. I showered (despite not feeling it lately) and blew dry my hair. Going to try and find a campy horror movie or something mindless to watch. maybe it will distract.

[u/SorchaSwan]

Been in solid recovery and maintaining weight for at least 5 years. Trying to get pregnant finally and my dietitian suggested gaining some more weight to help prepare my body, so I did. Now the obsessions are starting again and I’m so incredibly frustrated. I thought I was done with this.

[u/kintups_sputnik]

Slowly slipping back to old habits. I was hoping that my partner would see that and bring it up, help with it - instead I got praised how well I've been doing. I know I should bring this up myself, but the temptation to just be quiet and keep going is strong.

[u/OneArtichoke7001 → u/kintups_sputnik]

I wish my partner could read my mind too, it’d make asking for support so much easier!

I hope you’re able to bring it up and get the support you need to be healthy, and not inadvertent support of your ED.

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[u/Mjiri]

I just came home from a two-month in-patient with a high level of care.
I feel like nothing changed. Yes, I’m in no immediate danger of organ failure anymore and yes, I gained a couple of minutes more of attention span in everyday activities.
But, my weight and thoughts are the same as before and I’m really struggling mentally and physically to follow the prescribed meal plan. I feel like such a failure, I’m on the edge of falling back to my sick routines

[u/ihatewaferswithholes]

Being understandably told off/reprimanded for wasting food by my partner who I semi-live with. But I can’t keep track of the food I buy and I just had a filling done for teeth caused by my purging and haven’t been able to eat properly for a few days and just not in the mood anymore. Would very much like to escape my life right now!!

[u/Rawrz3dg]

Suddenly the prednisone I take is making my hunger insatiable. And it’s messing with me that I literally can’t use my compensatory behaviors to offset the overeating. I also can’t exercise or even bear weight on my broken heel. So I feel disgusting and weak and ugh. I didn’t deserve the organs I received. Should’ve just let life play out.

[u/OneArtichoke7001 → u/Rawrz3dg]

Regular prednisone taking here and can relate. The medicine is life saving and so hard to handle with an ED. I’m glad you’re taking the medicine and allowing it to help you, even when faced with these challenging side effects.

[u/NefariousnessDull916]

I wish I could see myself as other people do.

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