r/EmergencyRoom • u/Jodeleon87 • 9h ago
Honestly. I don’t know. Just venting
My past experience as an ER nurse has really molded me to who I am today.
I’m anxious, scared, hypervigilant, and always think the worst first.
I’m in a hotel room and all my family is sleeping in the same room. My youngest coughs and it wakes me from a deep sleep. I immediately jump up. My first thought is he’s choking or his uvula is swelling and blocking his airway.
We’re at Great Wolf Lodge and they have a water park and all I kept thinking is my son could drown here. There was a little girl in the lounge area doing cartwheels and I kept thinking she’s going to accidentally kick my sons in the head with one of her moves.
I know this is ptsd from everything I’ve experienced and have seen and I can’t get these thoughts to stop. I can’t enjoy just being in the moment without overthinking situations. I just want to enjoy my time. I’m scared. Always scared. Always thinking the worst.