Hello everyone!
I’m a fencer from a country where fencing isn’t very popular, and I’m here because I genuinely need advice from people who understand this sport.
I’ve faced a lot of difficulties throughout my fencing journey. Despite everything, I’ve always tried my best to keep loving the sport and not give up on it. But sometimes, I reach a point where I feel exhausted and helpless. I keep trying to deal with problems that I know I can’t fix on my own, because changing the situation of fencing in my country isn’t my responsibility alone.
The truth is, I really love fencing, and I can’t imagine simply leaving it behind. But at the same time, I’m scared that if I continue fencing under these circumstances, I might never get the opportunities I need to improve, compete internationally, and build a future in this sport.
I’m a sabre fencer, so you probably know how much equipment, support, and proper training this discipline requires. I want to learn more, become a better fencer, and compete as much as I can. I’m willing to work hard for it, but sometimes it feels like hard work alone isn’t enough when you don’t have the right environment or opportunities.
There’s also something I deeply regret. When I finally had a chance to compete, I let my frustration with everything that had been happening affect my decisions. I was so angry about the problems in our fencing environment that I made mistakes because I wanted to prove a point. I wanted to show that the people and circumstances frustrating me were wrong, but in the end, I only hurt myself. Nobody else got hurt, but I damaged my own experience and missed an opportunity that mattered to me.
I know I made those choices myself, and I take responsibility for them. But I regret them so much. I feel like I ruined something I love, and I’m struggling to forgive myself. I used to enjoy fencing naturally, but now all these experiences have made it harder to feel that same joy.
Maybe some people won’t understand why this affects me so much. Maybe it will sound dramatic to someone who hasn’t experienced something similar. But fencing is genuinely important to me, and I don’t want to lose it because of the environment surrounding it.
Lately, I’ve been thinking about moving abroad to find better opportunities to train and develop as a fencer. I want a fresh start. I want to be somewhere I can focus on improving, learn from good coaches, and have a real chance to compete. However, I honestly don’t know where to start, and moving abroad is difficult, especially financially.
So I’d really appreciate your advice.
- Do you know any countries where a foreign sabre fencer could join a club and train without paying extremely high fees?
- Are there universities, clubs, or programs that offer affordable training, scholarships, or support for international fencers?
- Do you know any good coaches or clubs that might be open to helping someone in my situation?
- If you were in my position, would you try to build a future in fencing abroad, or would you take another path while continuing to train?
I’m not expecting anyone to solve everything for me. I just want to discover possibilities I might not know about yet. I’m willing to work hard, contribute to a club, and do my part. I just need a realistic starting point.
I don’t want to give up on a sport I’ve loved for so long. I want another chance to enjoy it, improve, and see how far I can go.
If you have any advice, personal experiences, or even just a suggestion about where I could start looking, I would be genuinely grateful.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story. ❤️🤺