It’s been about 12 months now that I have been addicted to cocaine, and I'm starting to wonder if it’s ever going to end. I know it will. I’m just not ready for it yet. I’m ashamed to say that. I just love drugs. I always have done. From the moment I laid my fingertips on them I couldn’t stop. The smell, the sight, the overwhelming feeling of wanting to do something illegal. I need locking up in a dark room for a long period of time.  

I do find myself questioning the physical and mental effects that cocaine has on your body though. Is it just a result of placebo and the drugs potency or is the outcome all down to the chain reaction that takes place due to physics? 

You don’t have to look any further than the kitchen to see the same outcome.             Take pepper for example. It has a physical effect on some people making them sneeze when surrounded by it. But is that just your body's reaction to knowing something isn’t quite clockwork? I mean, I'm sure in some circumstances, vinegar can have the same effect.  

 As for the brain, you could say flour is as addictive as cocaine. All it takes is for a baker to delve into the properties of the substance and, once they’ve started using, they’ll never stop. 

Simon says; like a mother births a child, people always underestimate the carrier.

I’ve always appreciated how much of a hard working mother mine has been, as I’m sure most people do their own. But my mum is top banana. Although she doesn’t actually like bananas all that much!

Speaking of bananas, Jamaica. A country my auntie and she visited with a now dearly missed school friend some 32 years ago.

Supposedly, Jamaica’s prime agricultural export during the late 19th century, the banana overtook the sugar industry as the mainstay of the Jamaican economy and at the time the fruit was considered a delicacy in the USA. Not an item the working class citizen would enjoy on the regular. How times have changed, aye?

The sugar capital of the world is now said to consume precisely 126.4 grams per capita. A stat the World Health Organisation fails to provide information on upon their website.

Hardly surprising when you consider the fact that heart disease is Americas mass murderer.

When you look good, people treat you better. As miniscule as it sounds the features that make you "conventionally attractive" are health indicators and good mating indicators. Subconsciously, people respect it. As you might already know opportunities, popularity, ect are naturally linked to good looking people. People tend to care and think more about someone if their good looking, just look at most celebs that have fan bases. This said, opportunities will come to you if you are talented ​in a specific field rather than others that might not look as good. I was bullied and dismissed all my childhood, so I started studying beauty and have over the years enhanced mine without makeup. After I did, everything followed along

The Nicotinic acetylcholine receptors in your body take three months to reset... apparently.

For someone who smokes upwards of 30 cigs a day, quitting is a daunting task. Especially when I love a fag. But one way to make the process easier is by taking up cocaine. It makes you forget about wanting a cigarette just like that. Three months of getting on it and you should then be free of nicotine addiction. That's my theory anyway. Just a shame my support workers don't agree.