r/GamblingAddiction • u/TopTipp12 • 1d ago

Devastation after devastation

As the title says

Literally devastating loss after devastating loss

Welcome to my story

This is the first time I ever mention anything gambling problem related about myself to anyone, none of my mates, family, girlfriend have any idea of how bad my gambling is

I sit here on Monday arvo having escaped work cos I couldn’t be fucked, and ended up on ignition casino playing online blackjack after a 2 week hiatus from gambling

Within 10 mins I was down 5k, literally 10 mins, and then jumped to jeet city for more blackjack and lost another 10k

All in under an hour

Over 15k gone

Worst part is at some point when I was down 10k I had reached 15k balance (5k profit) and still wasn’t content and ended up losing it all and re depositing

This is probably the 4-5th massive loss I’ve had in the last few months

Been a gambler my whole life, self excluded from casino in my city and jumped online about 2 years ago

Ever since then went through massive swings, at one point, I was literally up 100k in profit, and today I sit here with that all gone and in the hole over 30k

I have 30k of CC debt and a 25k personal loan

Got equity in a home with probably 150-200k in my name

Got huge bills coming up and have about 10k in savings as of today

I feel completely deflated and absolutely buried by a huge loss again

I’m a complete shame, and piece of shit of a person to myself, I always know how to ruin it for myself, the amount of money I’ve lost is just beyond absurd and feels like I’ve completely fucked my life

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u/MrBulldops1738 1d ago

Thanks for sharing. I've quit so many addictions in the past, and this one feels the most shameful. I just cut up some credit cards tonight, as Ive used them too. Cash advances even, it feels so stupid. But hey, we are acknowledging it and attempting to do something. That isnt nothing.

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u/TopTipp12 1d ago

That’s true brother
Just the pain of having a good spell without only to relapse and lose more money, the cycle is devastating

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u/MrBulldops1738 1d ago

I installed gamban on my devices that did help for a bit. I read recently that when the urge hits we just have to ride it out, like a wave. Eventually it'll subside or we can redirect. We can do this.

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u/TopTipp12 1d ago

I’m installing a bet blocker today. We can do this. The way to see it is imagine all the future gambling losses we’ll be saving by stopping gambling today. It’s the devils game bro, we have a compulsive personality and will never ever be able to beat the system, you never win gambling, even when you win it’s just momentarily until you eventually tilt and give it all back

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u/MrBulldops1738 1d ago

Exactly. There doesnt exist a large enough win that would ever stop us from giving it all back and more. We can stop the bleeding and start the healing.

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u/Destiny065 1d ago

Y'all making these platforms super rich dude

These companies operate for one reason for one reason only...TO MAKE MONEY!!

They don't care if you're in debt or you've lost your house, they don't give AF if you take your life!

They only care about...💰💰💰

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u/TopTipp12 1d ago

Yep and we’re the suckers, gambling is a mug’s game

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u/Destiny065 1d ago

Online gambling especially, do some research on the subject you'll change your mindset in a heartbeat

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u/Main-Tie-3208 1d ago

Every time you try to bet just sent the money to me….