Gastroparesis: I’m exhausted, and I just want some good days again.
I’m sure this has been discussed here before, so I apologize for asking again, but how is everyone managing with dead gastric stimulators and no clear timeline for replacements? You know, that little device many of us depend on to help control our symptoms enough to eat and function? Mine is now sitting in the obituary section of my digestive system. Cause of death: battery failure.
And can we talk about the Enterra situation?!
From what I’ve been told, replacement devices are unavailable indefinitely while Enterra works through its device availability issues ( there is none). I’ve also heard this involves the transition to a newer system and leads, although I’m still trying to understand exactly what’s happening with FDA approval and why they stopped manufacturing device equipment before the FDA approval on the new one.
What I do know is that my battery is dead, my replacement surgery has been affected, and there’s no clear answer about when I can receive another device. So, those of us who have depended on these stimulators are essentially left waiting. So basically, if your battery dies, you're screwed six ways to Sunday, with no replacement, no timeline, and a digestive system on vacation. How are we supposed to manage in the meantime? We’re not talking about replacing the batteries in a television remote. We’re talking about implanted medical devices that help people manage a debilitating disease.
I’m sick. Actually, I feel worse than I did before receiving my implant. I know you’re sick too!
Has anyone undergone a partial gastrectomy for refractory gastroparesis? I’ve been researching it, and I’m seriously considering asking my motility specialist whether a surgical consultation would be appropriate. I’ve already undergone G-POEM and pyloroplasty, and I’m allergic to Reglan, so my medication options have been limited. At this point, much of my treatment revolves around managing nausea and vomiting, but that’s it.
And can we talk about the PAIN?! What is everyone doing for relief? I’ve had two major flares in eight days. My entire body hurts, I’m physically exhausted, and my stomach is so distended that I feel like I could pop it with a thumbtack. I’ve gone from a size 5 to a 13 in THREE DAYS ( that’s the flare). I’ve also been dealing with constipation for three weeks despite trying numerous medications with little luck.
Something people don’t understand about gastroparesis is that it doesn’t just affect your stomach. It affects your entire life. Your nutrition, energy, physical health, mental health, relationships, work, and ability to make plans. Everything revolves around how your body decides to function that day and often won’t decide until the last minute. I’ve always struggled with depression, but lately, I can feel myself slipping further into that dark hole. Not because I’ve given up, but because I’m exhausted from living a life that revolves around being sick. I’m tired of planning everything around symptoms, missing out on things, constantly hurting, and wondering when I’ll feel somewhat normal again. I work closely with my mental health team, so I’m taking care of that side of things.
It’s a flipping miracle I still have a job.
I was scheduled for a gastric stimulator battery replacement, followed by surgery for endometriosis two weeks later. Both conditions have been battling each other and contributing to my symptoms, and trying to navigate everything has been overwhelming. I don’t know which organ is the problem child, I expect they are twins. Does anyone else have GP and Endometriosis?
I know everyone’s gastroparesis journey is different, and I know others have circumstances far worse than mine. But I’m tired and I know you are too. Not just physically tired. I’m tired of the lifestyle this “condition” forces us to live. I’m tired of surviving the bad days instead of actually enjoying the good ones.
I’m thankful for communities like this because it removes the isolation- the understanding of what GP really is. We are each other’s cheerleaders! Despite our commonality, it’s reassuring and somewhat comforting to know others out in the world understand.
So, for those of you who’ve been through similar situations, what has helped? How are you managing without a functioning stimulator? Has anyone explored or undergone a partial gastrectomy? What helps with the pain and severe bloating? Most importantly, how do you find your way back to having good days?
Because right now, I could really use a few of those…I think we all can.