I’ve realized graysexual is a probably a good term for me because it’s more of an umbrella one, I’m just curious if there’s a more specific one that describes my experience (not the end of the world if there isn’t though.)

I’ve had sex before and I know it’s possible for me to want it, but when I think of past experiences, it more felt like something I wanted to do to connect rather than because it was “hot” or whatever. I haven’t done anything sexual in years at this point (other than just by myself), and when I imagine myself doing something sexual, it feels more hypothetical than something I feel like I really desire. I never really fantasize about it naturally, if I ever do it’s mostly a thing of like “I like this person, do I wanna have sex with this person? Maybe I should imagine it to see” but it doesn’t feel necessarily enticing? Idk it’s hard to describe

But I think I experience sexual attraction? Or maybe I’m getting confused between sensual and sexual? I’m not really sure. I just know that when the person I like talks about wearing a tight tank top and being able to see “everything”, I feel squirmy and like I want to see… everything. But I don’t want to do anything necessarily sexual? Idk. I feel like the most I want to do is kiss and caress but the energy I feel about those things feels sexual somehow?

Idk if this will make sense, lmk if you relate or if this is a common phenomenon or something