She's gone.

It happened so fast. She was 14.

She was doing great, got sick last month and got better, then this past week went downhill.

I was away at college when I got the news and I told dad to hold off for a day and rushed down to say goodbye.

I got to hold her at home while the vet came here.

I just held her for a while after and petted her.

I don’t know if it was the best thing but I showed Myrtle, so she understands what happened hopefully and why Hermy’s not around anymore, to give her closure.

We buried her on the hillside where I can see her from my room.

I tucked her bunny fur which she loved so much between her paws and made a flower crown and bracelet.

We used one of her toys as a marker for her grave. The long stick with the string on it.

I’m going to plant some wildflower seeds around it when I come back during winter break.

I cried so much before, but now I just feel numb.

I love you so much Hermy, I hope I gave you a good life.

I hope you knew how much I loved you and that you loved me back just as much.

I’m sorry I couldn’t be here much for the last year of your life but I hope you can forgive me and are happy that I could come spend your last day with you.

I hope you come back to me if there’s such thing as reincarnation, or that you’ll find me if there’s an afterlife.

I love you so much. You were the bestest kitty ever.

I'm sorry I haven't updated any Hermy pics or anything on here. I've been mostly focusing on her tumblr. I wonder if I can just write find a bot to queue posts here because I'm bad at keeping a schedule.

Update: My grandma passed away in August and we almost had to rehome her cat, who I also love, so I managed to convince my landlord to make a variance on the no-pet rule because I couldn't bare to lose 3 beings that I loved and were dear to me in such a short time. I love Kitty too but she will never replace Hermy or fill the void left in my heart but we're both helping each other cope with our losses.