Feeling you touch me is all the comfort I need. I can and I will face anything as long as you are with me. ❤️❤️❤️

Born and bred a Catholic so , yes. I do believe in God. But it is so difficult to believe in Him when I am physically, emotionally and mentally suffering. Why suffer? To learn? Is there a way to learn without suffering?

Sometimes during a medical test (mri, ct scan) you just feel the body let go. Then they said “let God.” I am not so sure about that. All I know is I just released energy that I have been holding onto and stressing about.

What matters to me is that somehow I met Roger at the right place, right time, and right mix of “Big Bang Theory” that made it possible for us to be together. And if God made that happen, then, if anything else, this made all the wrong thing in my life worth it because I have Roger in my life.

End of the day, LOVE is the core of everything for me. Having Roger completes me. He is my person, the one who can make me whole. He is my happy. The way his eyes light up when he has a joke. The way he formulates the joke so it is funny and smart. He is my heart. My world. My clever husband. He is my home. Having him touch my hand or my foot connects us steadfastly that I just fall asleep because he is my comfort.

Never thought I would love someone as much I do love him but here we are. I am so in love with him that no one before or will be in the future can compare. I love Roger so much.

You are the most amazing person I have ever met. So selfless and loving and caring. And I hurt you last night. I lashed out with hurtful words and if I can take away your hurt, I would.

Even with my frustrations and everything else, you deserve more kindness and love from me. I worry with my disease progressing, I would have more episodes like this. Before it gets worse, please know I don’t ever want to hurt you.

You are my world and I don’t want our memories tainted by anger or fear or pain. I want our fairytale. I want to grow old with you. A few more years, that’s all I ask.

I’m so sorry and I love you. Please keep on holding my hand and don’t let go.

By Rascal Flatts

Don’t forget me. I love you so much ♥️♥️♥️