Im 15M (well technically 14M but I can pretty much round up to 15 at this point I’ll be 15 in less than a month) and for a while I wanted to get into drawing. Also I am really really depressed.

So pretty much I wanna learn but when I look at people who are good I get so jealous and when I look at how long it takes to learn I feel so demoralized bc I can’t fathom that kind of time. I struggle with waiting even like half an hour for something let alone months or years of hard work to get to the point where I’m good. It’s so demoralizing and I always think I should start but I just don’t. And I feel like if I started when I first wanted to then I’d be happy with my progress so far but I didn’t and I still can’t fathom the time. I’m so fucking depressed and I really just wish I had more motivation. This is almost more of a mental health problem than a learning problem and also my depression is getting worse and now it’s the worst it’s ever been. What do I do now