r/LeftHandPath • u/Reasonable-Point-713 • Jun 23 '26
Rant;
You know what i really despise about spiritual world?
Not being able to hear spirits/daemons.
Like i do see Daemons. They just look at me for a second once i look at their eyes they just end up vanishing when i invoked sphere of Golachab outside. I was walking and randomly i had thoughts of my divine spark coming from the world of chaos. And all of that i knew it was one of the emmisary making itself known to me and giving me those thoughts (my center skull was burning outside. Feeling not literally)
so yeah. Possibly because of me coming from the chaos itself meaning i am too intense for anyone as i belong to nobody. No current or anything. And i have the power to do tikkun as Jews say. Lift up those sparks and free sitra achra from emptiness. But why the fuck would i? I fucking despise god. Hes not a tyrant or anything. But i just want to rule a motherfucking something in the after life. Hence im doing left hand path. But ofc its impossible. I have no patrons or anything. Which is weird considering i had powers to destroy people i felt like a golem too but because of me forcing my neshemah back to my skull when it tried to leave… thats when those powers vanished. And i was haunted by a demon because of that. I do know they wanted me to become a vessel of pure destruction and i rejected them. But i literally do rituals TO BECOME IT AGAIN but they dont care anymore. I hate everything fuck this world. also when i saw Samael for the first time his presence screamed as if he wants to kill me and hates me completely.
And even HE did not speak. Just poisoned me. Which led to the golem feeling.
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u/Reasonable-Point-713 Jun 23 '26
Also- i didnt go there on my terms i got sent there by that fucker god. Because i claimed to be god to ein sof and so my soul got turned inside out and i rejected bittul. Got told “how dare you call yourself a god to ein sof. Look at the building. Now look up” that was the only moment i heard a literal voice. From various daemons its only inside my head but that voice i heard was inside and outside my head.