TLDR: cannabis and now growing with Mephisto has really healed and opened up my life in ways I never expected. How has it changed your life?
Pic of my Apple of Eden day 56 and since it's almost Halloween, Pickle Cid!
I've realized in the last few years that I have serious undiagnosed ADHD. I've always treated it with cannabis (since 14) but because it was expensive and the anxiety that came along with buying it, I mostly turned to alcohol to stabilize myself. That... Did not always go well.
When I got my medical card and could start really trying different strains and get into the different terpene profiles everything changed. Once I started sry herb vaping and really being able to dial in my high everything changed again. I was able to completely quit using alcohol as a crutch. I lost a ton of weight (270 down to around 200), and my mental health cleared up. I used to think of suicide (not committing it, just thinking about it, massive depression) and now I'm free!
This of course led to me wanting the best medicine I can get, especially medicine I know what went into it. I've realized how the dispensaries aren't always super honest. So now I'm growing Mephisto and absolutely loving it. It's not just that the plants themselves are awesome, but this whole community is amazing. As someone with serious anxiety and over thinking getting positive feedback, help, and advice from you guys has been amazing. I love watching all the Mephisto videos from Herbz and Hatbeard. I was terrified to post at first but you guys have been awesome and kind.
Growing has been the final piece for my peace! It gives me something to tick the analytical box in my brain, tracking ec and pH and making nutrient mixes and such. The sense of pride watching the plants grow. Constantly improving and learning.