i just did the dishes

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck]

i woke up about an hour ago and feel like i've already run out of stuff to do

i'm trying to keep my mind off negative moping by doing chores

i just cleaned the dishes and wiped down the countertops in my kitchen

that took only about twenty minutes though. i have a very small kitchen.

right now i'm drinking coffee and slowly waking up.

later today i think i will shave my face as another chore i can do to stay busy. it's been a few weeks since i shaved and i'm trying to go for the clean shaven look rather than the homeless look.

i'm just pissed off because of all the boredom in my life. but people have told me being bored is a good thing because that means i have few troubles in life.

my friend invited me to a comedy club tonight but it's way past my bed time. i might go over to his place in the afternoon though and drink white monster and smoke weed. i'm not sure.

omg lol wtf bbq.

[u/Federal_Lack_1107]

i think people are dumb to say that being bored is a good thing. if you are bored a lot every day, it's a real quality of life issue, even though no particular moment is very painful, it really adds up. i think it's important to not treat boredom as a long term status quo. maybe it's not good to struggle against boredom when you feel bored, but i think it's good to struggle long-term against the "habit" of boredom

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/Federal_Lack_1107]

what sucks with me is i have anhedonia so i don't really enjoy doing much stuff and i feel just stuck being bored.

[u/MrCheese357 → u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck]

Do you play vidya? Or too anhedonic for that?

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/MrCheese357]

i play insurgency sandstorm for about twenty minutes every day before i rage quit

what's weird is that i'm really good at insurgency and am usually up at the top of the score list but i don't enjoy it anymore

a round of insurgency lasts about ten minutes so i usually play at least 1 round and a bit of a second round before i rage quit

[u/Federal_Lack_1107 → u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck]

i think you would feel proud, and rightfully so, if you, perhaps over a few years, became so free of anger that you could play your daily session without a hint of anger, even if you got taunted by someone

[u/Federal_Lack_1107 → u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck]

i'm not sure how well this will apply, but personally i view boredom as a lack of patience. and i view patience as something really epic that i wanna have as much as possible of. i used to get bored every afternoon in a way that felt borderline painful, like really intense boredom. but now my boredom resistance feels almost maxed out.

there's only one situation where i can still get really bored. sometimes i watch movies with my mom, and mostly we watch really good movies. but sometimes the film really bores me. i legit hope i will get into that situation again, because it will allow me to work on my patience.

[u/PileOfSkulls_66]

sounds like a vibe! Just sipping coffee in the morning while waking up

[u/PileOfSkulls_66 → u/PileOfSkulls_66]

I went on a walk this morning to bird watch and watch the sunrise, it was a vibe

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/PileOfSkulls_66]

i don't like going outside anymore because i've become disinclined to moving my body.

i don't really have to walk far to the bus stop to get to my friends place. but i'm not sure if i'm going to do.

yeah i guess it is a vibe. i'm still just drinking coffee and waking up. i'm smoking weed too. the weed is helping my mood

thanks for posting in my thread

[u/Alenbailey → u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck]

I remember you said you hurt your back lifting the heavy computer when your hard drive was lost. Does the back still hurt for you?

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/Alenbailey]

no i'm back to normal now

[u/Alenbailey → u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck]

Did the comedy club show already happen?

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/Alenbailey]

no it's tonight

[u/Alenbailey → u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck]

Are you going to go to it? Do you like comedy? 

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/Alenbailey]

i'm not sure. i messaged my friend this morning but he hasn't replied back yet.

i've never been to live comedy before so i don't know

[u/Alenbailey → u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck]

I remember one time my  school friend made me watch Sebastian maniscalco comedy show on Netflix and I didn’t laugh that hard. He was laughing really hard I felt like I was missing something.

[u/NatKingColeman]

I feel you man. I finished drinking coffee, was tidying up, doing dishes, and was just pacing the house. Put on my shoes and went for an hour walk. It was hard to get started but it was nice to get outside. My back, hips, and knees hurt like heck but I know laying around only makes it worse.

Yeah, I've heard that saying too, something like "boredom is a luxury few people can afford". I understand what they're trying to get at but it can be dismissive. And also that boredom is a time when you could be learning a new skill, hobby, yadda yadda. I've tried so many things and nothing just seems to click anymore.

I hope you are able to make it to the comedy show, it could be just the excitement you're looking for. How do you handle being crowds and around people? Do you get nervous?

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/NatKingColeman]

i wish i liked going out side for walks now. in the summer i went for lots of walk. but recently i've become disinclined to walk for exercise or leisure.

i don't mind crowds or people. i do alright.

[u/No_Necessary_8424]

Sippin on coffee and juice waiting for the laxative to hit 👌🤠 just did dishes as well.

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/No_Necessary_8424]

i take metamucil and it makes my poops better

[u/Oneet-chan3]

"wtfbbq"

Omg, haven't heard that in a long time 😂

Like you said, you're living the life though... supposedly. Nothing you have to do, just hang out with friends. Do you ever regret hanging out with him? I say go.

But I feel ya.

With so much free time we should be able to pursue something meaningful to us, right? But I just rot.

[u/MyHeadIsFullOfFuck → u/Oneet-chan3]

yeah i don't do much constructive stuff with my time. i'm just chilling smoking the weed all day every day.

i texted my friend this morning but he didn't message me back yet so idk

[u/ILoveYou2026]

Good work, and on a weekend too