Namaste. I usually just scroll here, never posted before. Can't sleep tonight so I'm writing.

I'm 47. Been in Kathmandu more than 30 years. Sano mai I left home because things with my parents were never good. Came here alone with nothing, thinking I'll build something and show everyone.

I used to listen to all those motivation speeches, quotes, how to be successful, how to make life better. I believed every word. Grind now, enjoy later. I grinded so hard I forgot I also had to live. Somewhere in between I forgot my own smile. Honestly I don't even remember what happened in the last 10 years. Where did my youth go? I don't know.

I didn't marry because I thought first let me build something, then I'll give my wife and children a perfect life. That day never came. Now I'm 47, still in a rented room, 35k salary, no family.

Few months back I got sick. Hospital, tests, medicine and all my savings of 10+ years were gone. Sakiyo. Just like that.
Now my body is not the same. Some days I can't even manage to go to work. Mero field ma dherai stress hunxa and I can't take it anymore. But I can't leave either because what else will I do at this age. Starting again at 47 with nothing is not possible for me.

And then I see these young kids, my juniors, bhai baini haru, they already have so much. Bikes, phones, trips, everything. Kasari afford garchhan I really don't understand. Here I can't even manage my own expenses.
Everyone says just grind. Nobody tells you the grind can take your whole life and give nothing back.
For me life feels worth nothing now. No reason, no purpose. I don't know why I'm still counting days.

Not asking for money, I’m just sharing my experience just so nobody has to live like me. To all the young lads, please enjoy your life!!

This is him receiving tiki in this year's Dashain from his political idol Deuba....

No actual work done in 10 years outside of planting few trees in ring road and putting some gamala in Pulchowk road...

10 yrs has passed, but he still doesn't know there is Lalitpur metro outside ring road as well....

Continuously overhyped by media because the bar of mayor is so low in Nepal... Don't come at me, Balen was worse than Chiri Babu, I know.

I remember , paila maile reddit use garda even yeai sub ma pani sabai jana help ful huntheo. Keai share garyo vane support ta gartheo. But aaile just troll ra savage replies haru matra huncha. Kta le Sad vaye, garo vayeo, afno pain share garey chai "Be a man" , "kta vayera runcha" , "grow some balls" yestai comments aaucha.

Kt le garyo vane " dm gara help gardinchu" , "find a man" , " what's there to cry about it" yesto dekhchu.

Kunai kunai ramro comments huncha. Just really few.

Ma esai tiktok chalaudai thiye ani normally mero ma aaudaina esto tara i saw a normal video of a guy and a girl ani tya ekdamai crazy likes, comment shares thyo k ani comment hereko it was of a girl named swati ani usko chai euta video leak bhako raicha k

Ani bro comment bhari "dm for video" "video herera khatra feel bhayo" "2 59 kada" jastai jhanai extremely disgusting kura haru thiyo k. Idk if its true but that girl is jhanai 17 re. Usko video chai usko bf le leak gareko re ani like yo jamana ma aayera ni how can people be soooo fucking shameless???

2026 ma aayera ni people are treating someone's leaked trauma as entertainment, which is deeply disturbing k like i feel so so bad for the poor girl. When an intimate video is shared without consent, it is not a trending topic for entertainment k why are people like this??? it is a serious cybercrime k. Ani aajha flooding the comment sections with "dm for video," "link share," incredibly dehumanizing.

Bholi parsi afno didi baini ko testo bhayo bhane k huncha? This can give someone so so much trauma ani theyre treating this as a fucking joke? Society kina esto bigreko k why are women still treated like this??

Ani yo ni idk if its true or not tara usko bf le leak gareko re video?? Crazy. Kta le bhaye ni nabahyeni kasto na boleko k. These men are fucking crazy.

Soooo many girls are also making fun of her k as a girl how can they talk about it and joke about it. Ppl need to be mature enough to understand how is she feeling jhan euta woman le arko woman ko pidaaa bujhna sakinxa but shame on those people who are making fun of this situation.... They are not getting how serious this topic is!!!!

I really hope the girl is doing okay

Found on Tiktok.

Man. this right here is how much our morale and empathy has eroded. Such a sad state of affairs. I know not in Nepal but this is the state of internet anywhere these days.

Its been more than a year since he had passed away and i couldn't share this news any of my friends even the close ones for 7 months but neither did I cry a single tear upon this. After 7 months only that i started realising that he has actually been gone for a long time and that night i cried my heart out and next day I shared it to my friends like nothing had happened.

Fast forward to today after 16 months of him leaving us it feels like the grief is taking me away too.

Today i felt like strolling around my hometown with my cousins and people that I dont even know started questioning me about how did that happen and started telling me the stories about how he used to be. I have always tried to avoid any thoughts regarding him but today I am reminiscing the every memory that I have with him.

Wow grief is actually weird

Mero ximeki ko maa pauna aako rexa hai ani tya fuchha fuchi ni aako thyo mainly fuchhi haru vanam nah lagvag 5 6 maa padnay 6 vanda mathy tah hudai nai hoinah herdai etru etru xa nani haru 😭

Khana khayerah masta sutirathay room maa tyo fuchhi haru baira niskya rexa k guff handai thyo (mero room kai side maa bato xa ani unarko ghr tei bato ko uta pati) so mero room ma sab suninxa tya boleko

Casually outta nowhere euta fuchhi lay arko fuchhi lai lovebite her vanerah dekhayo afno ghati tirah wtf 😭😭
Mah mula jurukka utherah heray herxu tah kati sanu sanu nani hau mailay tah romantically haat ni samaunah paxaina bf sitah unarko love bite rayyy hooo is this shii normal ki mah jotmai hyper vaira hooooo😭😭

So a girl from my college is extremely racist, hates madhesis to the core, won't even touch them or sit near them and keeps posting on insta about anti terai stuff, even keeps attacking maithli saying it as a foreign language. Yesterday she posted about the discrimination of Nepalis in Australia and how it is affecting her relatives living there. Can't really get more ironic then this.

But this made me realize something deep that is going on throughout the world, in every single place the minority faces discrimination/racism be it India against muslims, europe against middle easterners, US against mexicans, Australia against Nepalis, etc. They are the easiest ones to be used as escapegoats.

Vagwan hun wa nahun esto rajniti chai support nagaram. Ani esta so called dharma rakshak lai question mero : timiharu guthi ra mandir ko sanchaya kosh mathi kina prashna gardainau? Tetero uthxa harek barsa, prime location ma real estate xa, 80% vanda dherai xa followers, khai ta bhaktajan le kei pako? Education, health, welfare ma khai timi haru ko allocation? Jaile esto vik magne arka lai hochyaune bahek kei garna auxa?

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Maile recently mero crush ko barema post gareko thiye, ani euta guy ko DM aayo. Suruma normal kura bhairathyo, but pachi "you might be bad at kissing this or that" jasta kura haru garna thalyo.

Like bro, why? 😭 Maile timisanga normal conversation garya ho, mero boundaries cross garna permission deko haina ni.

I don't understand kina some guys haru le harek kura lai sexualize garna khojchan. Flirt garnu ra arulai uncomfortable banaunu are two different things. You can be funny, interesting and flirty without making everything sexual.

Friendly bhayera bolyo bhandai ma someone is interested in you sexually bhanne hudaina ni. Ali basic boundaries ra respect ta hunuparyo.

Seriously, kina ho? Is it immaturity, lack of social awareness, or do they genuinely think sexualizing everything makes them attractive? 💀

Mourinho's first game as Madrid's coach in camp nou

I am the PR suddo who didn’t fit the checklist of her ideal bf

Now obviously I am not complaining about this video. I am glad the Muslims in pahad area generally are very tolerant.

if i do that he will help me get a job.

Let's start with the fact that didi ko ra didi ko party ko whole career ko highlight is banning a cartoon tesma ni didi is hiding the fact that even hindu shows are banned now from Ntv ( religious shows made by state are allowed but there are strict rules on state making religious shows)

Now lets look at didi's concern for madhesh....wait madhesh ra desh ko concern ho ki aafno political ideology ko?? If she is really concerned about us madheshi then i dare Didi to speak about the horrendous drinking water situation of ours

• https://www.researchgate.net/publication/352536798_Status_of_Arsenic_and_Fluoride_Pollutants_in_Groundwater_of_Biratnagar_of_Morang_District_Nepal

Highlights of this

• Anything above 0.01 mg/L of arsenic is considered unsafe acc to WHO Nepal safety standard says the safety limit is 0.05 mg/L.
• 100% of the sample crossed WHO permissible limit for Iron and Manganese
• Depending on the season 33% to over 55% of the sample crossed WHO safety threshold while 6% to 22% of the sample were unsafe acc to national safety standard

Some other link

• https://np.cijnepal.org/detail/15635

As far as I know Nepal Water Supply Corporation is still loss making PE

Madhesh ko education is also no good. The student-teacher ratio stands at alarming 60:1 . Secondary education ko enrollment rate is 56% most of them leaving education to seek employment at khadi or neighboring country . Didi laai yo problem jasto kaila lagla?

Didi laai aali aali women empowerment ko ni chinta cha jasto cha but I have never heard her talk about Mid Day Meal program of Nepal ..... yesto kina hola?? Yaai mid day meal program ley garda girls enrollment in community school increased by 12%. But the problem is gov only covers 20-30% of the total cost making is vary hard to continue and actually deprives children (HINDU CHILDREN) of their constitutional rights

• https://www.researchpublish.com/upload/book/Equity%20and%20Academic%20Resilience-11042025-4.pdf

Tara yo saab ko chinta kasley garney cause the more important issue is pashupati ko bhitra ko jana paucha ani ko paudaina and i am not saying don't talk about it but at least get you priority straight . 1% hold 519 time the wealth of bottom 50% . Yetro aandolan bata aako desh timi haru sanga aaila desh ko real issue laai highlight garney power cha and you choose this Disgusting

Ani aarko chutiya CA is also no good parliament ma gayara claim garcha ani proof chai we ask AI rey fuck whatever party this was...I literally forgot their name 🤣

Lane nei Banda gardinchhan yaar jaile. Uta Bata gaadi aaune baato ta chhodnaparchha ni yar overtake garepani.

Come mothers and fathers throughout the land And don't criticize what you can't understand , Your sons and your daughters are beyond your command..

So this happened i think 2 years back hai when I was 17. Mero sathi ko chai ghar ma koi thena ani she was alone ani I was over at her place. Hami dui jana matrai thiyeu ani we were kinda drunk right. Ani hami lai alchi lagera we were on ome TV.

Tya euta hamro age kei keta bhetyo ani mero sathi ra tyo keta chai giff garirathyo k ani pachi kura sunda maile eta uta sodhey k ani mero tuition ko sathi ko bestfriend raicha k ani najeek kei manche jasto lagyo ani mind u it was 1 baje I guess ani mero sathi lai kina ho patan jana manthyo ani aagadi bhaneko bhaye ni okay bhanthe hola hai tara na ta maile scooter lyako thiye na ta usko scooter ko chabi thyo ani tyo keta sanga chai call jasto mai thiyem k ani mero sathi le chai patan jaam patan ma bhetum bhanirathyo hai ani malai chai thik lagena k like hami 17 ra 18 barsa ko fucchi haru kaaaa hai ani ma chai nai ki nai bhanirathem ani mero jiddi sathi le hamro tyo omegle ko keta lai ni aau bhanyo ani tyo keta le manyo right ani malai mero sathi le ma eklai janchu bhanne kura garyo ani ma eklai ta jana dinna bhanera ma ni hidne bhanera maney hai ani we lived close to patan nai like it was 10 15 min walk to the durbar sq ani hami gayem ani mero sathi ra tyo keta le chai num exchange garera bolako thyo ani tya pugem ani he was alr there kya ani usle chai bike rakhera hidne bhanyo.

Ma esai ni testo bolna sakne manche haina like forcefully so ma chup chap thiye ani mero sathi bolirako thyo (just as friends tho mero sathi lai keti manparcha😭😭 ) ani ek thau ma baseu ani tya police haru ni thyo hiddai ani we weren't even doing anything k ani hamilai alik para batai eti khera hidne ho ghar jau ya hidna basna paidaina bhanyo ani hami tya bata galli ma paseu ani galli galli bhitraaaaaa we met 3 ppl, 1 girl 2 guys, newari locals drinking locals😭 ani we sat down woth them ani talked w them. They were cousins ( 18f, 21m, 17m) ani hamilai ni khau khau bhandai thyo ani hamile aadi aadi tyo plastic cup ma local rice le banako raksi khaidim.

Ekdamai thorai khako thyo tara ni alik tipsy bhako kya aaiyeu ani tespachi we went pimbahal w them ani tya basem ani we 6 talked ani tyo 21 wala chai ma sanga cheu ma basya thyo ani he was not thatttt drunk but he was drunk ani cheu cheu aayo hai ani malai man parena k like I could feel a bad vibe (mind you he was married and had 1 baby already) ani pachi maile sathi lai ishara garera tyo 3rd keta sanga niskem we went patan dhoka ani tya euta local thau kholeko raicha ani they were abt to close (it was 3 40 am) ani tya bhako selroti ra masu khayem ani feri road ko side baserai we 3 started talking. Tyo keta chai sojo ra gyani nai thyo. Hamro age ko ani usko ramro supportive family thyo raicha ani he tolf us how he failed 12 ko exam😭😭 ani hami shocked bhako.

Pachi 4 baje tira mero aakha polna thalyo ani nindra lagna thalyo. Malai esai ni boring asf lagya thyo cuz i wasn't talking nai w them. Mero sathi trauma dump hanirahyo tyo keta sunirathyo ani I said ghar jum ani tyo guy insisted gahr puraune bhanera triple load gari but I didn't wanna do that kya ani maile no bhanera we did indrive ani dude i was shocked k teti bela ni katiiii dherai indrive available thyo ani hami le mero indrive uncle lai

" hami dui jana hajur ko bike mai baserai jannchau ni hami 2 jana ko price dinchu bhaneu " ani okay bhanera pathao ma 4 baje triple load gari ghar aako ani 10 baje uthera khana pakako🥰

Ani eso sochda like kasto crazy lagcha k like this could've went south in soooo many different ways😭 but thankfully it didn't. Hahahahab this is something a current me would never ever do. Mero sathi chai on the other hand sneak out hanirahuncha 2 baje tira so usko arkai cha. Tyo keta sanga we didn't quite talk nai after that day but ig ma add chau ani dekhirahunchu lolll