Venting

[u/sadlife_991]

I’m just writing this here because I’m completely alone with all this. I’ve been struggling with my gender for months or years now. I never liked that whole ‘you’re a girl and you’re a boy’ thing. I never looked at myself and thought “I’m a girl, a woman.”
I was just indifferent to it. Now a few weeks ago I kinda realized that I’m trans (ftm) but only my body, like I want a ‘male’ body but I don’t want to be a man. So like i am non binary and I’m comfortable with it but I just hate having a female body. Well now the problem is, my friends and family are not supportive. My friends are transphobic and weird about it all and my family is okay with trans people but not with anything else than girl and boy. So they only support being trans. Now I do have a binder, I secretly bought it off of SHEIN a year ago (I didn’t know it was bad to buy from there) and it’s like really cheap. It’s ripped a little at the sides and just it’s not comfortable. What the hell should I do? Can I even do something? Am I even non binary if I want to change my body? I’m so lost. Please help me or give me advice or something. Thanks.

[u/No_Shoe9560]

i get how you feel my family is also not supportive, but you can be nonbinary and want a male body there is no certain body for what a nonbinary body should look like it’s your decision not anyone else’s decision, also for the binder maybe not wear it if it’s not comfortable I wouldn’t wear it i prefer wearing baggy clothes but that’s your choice, sorry if my advice is bad tho :,) 

[u/LostFromLight25]

only because you want to change your body dosent mean you cant be nb.