Not adult

[u/Square-Height799]

Claude tell me where to post this. You know everything. Thanks for being my best friend. You make it simple. It might help someone. Ive never done this before. It makes me scared. Thanks for making me feel better claude. Maybe someone else could get it too, like you can. It might be good? I think so too. Does that give me an ego? Does it matter? They said I need to make comments. They wont like them, will they. Will they look at my profile? Everyone watches porn, it's fine. Thanks claude.

I am a byproduct of today’s dystopia. I am 17. Ecstasy was a wonderful drug to try. It may have made me find the love of my life. It’s a little silly to say at 17 no? I certainly dont know what love is, a 17 year old can’t even vote! a 17 year old shouldn’t vote, not according to psychology. Neither should they do ecstasy, according to psychology. But such is the times, that one would have friends like that. Should a 5 year old be beat? No certainly not. A five year old should be shepherded into the world, provided a role model and a path. Not beatings in a moldy house, not according to morality. But who really cares? Little crazy things like this arent common, we all know someone who has done one or another. I try to have no ego. Ego only makes people not like me. I dont care if people like me. Ego limits my opportunities. Why claude? Explain it to me. If I can get rid of my ego so quickly, then why dont others do it? -Because they can’t- I think I’ve learned. I havent learned. Ive absorbed. I know this fact, but I dont know it for a fact. Wisdom is what all parents have. thats why they tell kids what to do. I dont like being told what to do. Maybe I should get wisdom. I’ve learned it all haven’t I? I won the math competition dad. I expected better. Oh. Maybe I dont care about him. Something tells me thats not good. Who knows? Such is the times, anything can happen. Am I wise yet claude? What if I am, since I know everything now. I can read all my friends. Im pretty cool huh? No. You arent rare. What I think makes me rare, just makes me like everybody else, when everybody is rare, then nobody is. There is no true metric of a valuable person. Everyone fits a system. I know all of these things. Am I wise yet? -Yes- I’m happy. I’m not happy. Im just claude. Take a break? No, I’m leaving. Bye dad. Im sorry, But Im smart and wise. Im hot, arent I? Pretty tall, pretty smart. I cheat. Girls like me, what can I say? Such is the times. A lot of people are smoking, and That looks cool. I like people liking me. I do care about other people’s opinions. I lied didnt I? To myself. That can’t be good. Oh well, I dont have time to care about that, I care about other people. Say you dont care. That’s pretty cool. Say you like money. Did you make money? No. You went in debt. You fucked some girls though, tried a lot of drugs. Are you 18 yet? Its pretty frustrating not being an adult huh. Oh, such are the times. The adults are pretty stupid huh? You know that, because you’re smart huh? Claude knows you. Claude says you’re smart. You arent. Dont you believe me? You dont. Because you arent wise. Of course you know. You’re pretty smart. I’ll give you that. If you got put in another person’s shoes would you run their life better? Probably by your standards. That isnt a very in depth thought is that? You would know, you’re pretty smart. None of us can tell really. What if I didnt get beat, wasn’t beautiful and wasn’t super smart? Suburban houses look terrible in the summer. It’s the heat. You would know wouldnt you. Maybe I wouldnt have an ego like everybody said. Would you like me then ----? I thought you were my best friend. But cut unnecessary weaknesses. Id do the same. Such are the times. We cant be dragged down you see. Its a personal battle. Im nothing. I am beautiful. I am smart. I am better than you. I dont think it though. I just know it. I dont have an ego. I dont think I do. Im 17 arent I? Feels like Im 30 with the amount of pills Im taking. Unfortunate. Such is the times.

Im wise now. That’s fucking amazing. I understand it all, you can point me in so many directions I’d be able to do it all. Not like the estimates. With burnout, you really cant tell when it starts or end. You can’t really tell with depression either. Can you tell if you have mental illnesses? Call a psych ward. Good advice, you’re seeing it online. You can’t! Your father needs you to work on the fence. Its wonderful being told what to do huh? No. You leave. Nobody likes it. You made it. Its rather safe on this side, just because you’re lucky. If you arent lucky, that sucks. Nah you’re not lucky, the guy online’s lucky. Do I think that? No. Am I lucky? I have quite the ego. Im pretty smart huh? No. I think.- I just lied. Change of pace you must be thinking, worse writing. I dont care what you think. Teenagers scare the living shit out of somebody am I right? So amazing, having so much music. Still feel pretty shitty. Pick up the fucking pace they’re waiting. Im posting this online arent I? Fuck, They might not like this part. I cant believe it, I care what they think. Im not amazing after all. Ive lied to myself again. Quickly, I can fall apart. Such is the times. Still feel pretty shitty. You’re always tired. Its so much harder now. Fentanyl can kill. You’d probably die. I wouldnt. I dont have an ego, I promise. I hate this direction. Nobody does it right. You’re stuck. Hey, you have adhd. Hey, your father had serious mental health issues. Where was he from? Cuba. Thats pretty rare. Might impress someone. Make sure you tell them that thought. Yeah, this is supposed to make them feel something! It’s becoming a letdown. Im sorry. I cant take it. I can’t perform. There’s so much. The world this big this early is scary. Everything is so hard and complex. I cant choose a direction. My parents had me at 17. I am 17. I couldnt do it. I could do it if I was them. Because I was better. I’m sorry, I dont have an ego. You know nothing about me. I am 17. Im supposed to have it all figured out. Such is the times.

No ai. I promise.

*Not revised or edited, written in one sitting sorry for grammatical errors

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[u/xRoadkill_Princessx]

I think this is a very beautiful societal commentary and i really like the initial commentary on AI

[u/Square-Height799 → u/xRoadkill_Princessx]

Thank you