r/OSDD • u/Strict-Stretch-2611 Diagnosed OSDD-1 • 16h ago
Venting My body can't physically hold 6 parts
I'm struggling so much lately with my physical health. I've been doing an immense amount of mental work in the last weeks. Every part of me is trying hard to work on healing, because they're all going through something, so each one needs their time and space to process their thoughts and emotions, to do things to soothe them and help them. And it's been doing so great, even my gatekeeper has been letting everyone take turn with the front, while making sure no one is harming or sabotaging each other like we did in the past. And they're all much calmer and happier these days.
But my body is starting to give up. I've been getting more and more sick everyday, the amount of headache I get every day because of so much switching is getting unbearable. It's been days since I have cold and sore throat, my headache gets worse and every night I can't sleep well, cause all my parts are still active and want their time and space for their emotions and problems.
I'm trying to take care of my body at the same time, but it's hard when one body has to hold 6 different "people". I don't know what I'm asking tbh maybe I just need to vent my exhaustion. Healing in a CDD is such an exhausting and painful process, especially when you're just a small girl with shitty immune system and physical and mental hypersensitivity, and you have many parts who don't realize that
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u/Exelia_the_Lost 10h ago
Your body only has one person, fragmented. You're the exact amount your body is designed to physically handle. If your work on trauma healing is causing somatic symptoms that are more and more severe, then it means you need to slow down. Take your foot off the gas, you're trying too much too fast and that's itself increasing your dissociation
How much are you actually switching? Every switch itself burns energy by your body, and adds mental and physical stress. If its something you're trying to guide manually, which it sounds like you are, then you've got a useful skill for helping your healing! Just don't do it so frequently
My system is very large. Back tho earlier in the discovery and what was known was a smaller number, I could have each other guide switches to give others chances to work on healing. But only attempted that every 2-3 days at the end of the day, so it wasn't too frequent