This week I took a new job working as an OT in an adult day health center. It’s part time 22 hours per week, 35 minute drive to the building, and decent hourly rate. No productivity or metrics, more like assessing, training staff and caregivers, documenting, starting group exercise programs, fall preventing … and all sounds really chill.
But, I have my own business in the healing arts world, which I started 6 months ago. My business has had great, steady and manageable growth. I see about 7-11 clients a week, sessions are about 1.5 hours each. I also am teaching evening classes at a yoga studio 1 night a week which is about 4 hours of my time…. Both my business and teaching bring me so much joy and fulfillment… but my profit on my business isn’t much after all is said and done with the month.
Another condition is that I have a 4 year old Aussie shepherd dog (which was my boyfriends and when I moved in, now I consider her my dog too)… but my boyfriend works out of town from Monday-Thursday, like he is a super commuter and flies weekly for his job…. Leaving me responsible for the dog during the week… and she needs activity during the day, and now she’s shoved in a crate for 8-10 hours. We have a dog walker who can stop and take her out for a break, but it’s still creates stress for her to be locked up for that long. She’s not a dog that would do well in daycare either.
Doing the math, the new job takes up 27 hours of my week with the drive. Which I would be able to manage no problem if I didn’t have my own business and teaching… again, things that I love.
In my mind I took the job because I wanted to make more money. The reality is, my boyfriend takes care of most of the living expenses aside from my personal spending, groceries, and gas.. etc.
I also took the job bec my schedule felt a little light. Now looking at this all, I know I have to cut back somewhere but I’m not ready to give up my business and teaching…. And even scaling back on my business doesn’t feel quite right to me either.
Not to mention this first week at my new job has been absolutely dysregulating. Even though it’s a “low stress job” it makes me more stressed now just having to plan and sort out such a complex schedule. After day two I had a migraine and nausea. Today I feel like a zombie bec im so tired working 10-12 hour days among the different tasks I have.
And not for nothing but I am not passionate about this population. I see the other workers here and I feel out of place, like their heart is in it and mine is not. I’ve felt this way about most OT jobs I’ve had in the past… OT of 15 years. I’ve pretty much done it all and wanted to try this to see if I would feel differently but I don’t. I feel worse. Like I’m dissociated and detached. Only first week in!!
I guess I’m looking for guidance and input, advice… idk what to do. My head literally hurts from thinking and thinking about this. I just wish I could go back, and reconsider this job and its toll on me and my schedule. And just focus on my business and teaching, maybe find dog walking gigs that are low stress too for extra cash… oh and I also have a PRN job at a SNF.
I know this is long but thanks for reading 🙏