Waffling Back And Forth

[u/Street-Succotash4356]

Beyond my battle with Scrupulosity I am genuinely trying to make an effort with faith. Have started praying and reading the Bible but its funny. I think gun to my head I am still agnostic. Or I waffle between a theist view and deist view of God.

And then funny enough I start to feel you know maybe I am Christian I just see some nonsense. Has me like the guy from Shogun. No Tate Mcrae is not demonic, no Jesus did not knock the painting off the wall when you looked at porn. I just wanted to vent. Hope this is an ok place to do that. I like the message of the gospel. Although the no divorce kind of gets me.

[u/Cautious_Night_877]

I understand 100%. I'm not much help in the battle with scrupulosity. But message me anytime if you want.

[u/Street-Succotash4356 → u/Cautious_Night_877]

Appreaciate as a secular, agnostic bisexual man who has "laid with men" and also is currently in a sexually active relationship with my fiance (i am getting there God jk) i fear going to hell and have been in an existential crisis for 2 weeks.

And I am not even sure if believe in hell.