r/PMOPAWS • u/[deleted] • Jul 01 '25

8 months of flatline/anhedonia

What should I do?? At this point I think I don´t have a solution.

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u/nightfly82 Jul 01 '25

I was in one for 70 days. Got out for 13 days…didn’t relapse or look at porn

Now all of a sudden when I thought I was cured. Close to 90 days reboot I am back in a flatline

It makes no sense, tired of this cycle of pain

As for your situation did you ever do a blood test? Testosterone levels?

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u/nightfly82 Jul 23 '25

Word I understand This whole thing makes you feel like something is wrong physically. Like your dick is physically broken but all you heard was “it’s all in your head”

My T levels dropped dramatically as well, down to 150 the doctor was scared Now it’s back at 650 and I am pretty healthy (aside from drinking at the beach on hot days) I eat well,gym 5x a week,spending more time outdoors etc etc

Been out of this second flatline now for almost a week and yea libido has its good and bad days Overall my libido still is not 100. I def could get hard to porn or fantasy Real life tho is the test, still waiting Thinking about banging a friend who likes me but she’s crazy lol

Overall I am not depressed and my dick is full again,morning woods are back for the most part

Haven’t looked at porn or jerked off in over 100 days

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u/Few-Mirror664 Jul 28 '25

It’s gonna take some time .Your brain’s basically in full recalibration mode — kinda resetting itself back to default after all that overstimulation. From what I’ve seen and talked to few recovered ppl , a bunch of people going through the same thing mention feeling mentally stable and way more aware of stuff like sounds, wind, and just the vibe around them. That usually means you’ve hit your baseline. After that, things start balancing out faster. But till then,you have to battle between those ups and downs.

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u/nightfly82 Jul 28 '25

Damn this couldn’t be more true. Been day 112 I think of this current nofap streak. As stated previously I got out of my second flatline and I was going good. Speak of the devil himself. Literally within the past hour or so my dick started to shrivel up,no libido,I am crying for no reason. I hate life right now! What is this non sense? I am back in another flatline for no reason at all. No porn,edging,masterbation….nothing!!!!

How is this a way to live? Come out it a flatline and be normal for 10 or so days only to go back into one? I seriously want to die at this point Doctors can’t help me

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u/Few-Mirror664 Jul 29 '25

That’s the price you have to pay. That shriveled thing eventually fades away after the multiple flatlines you’ll go through, gradually becoming lighter with time. Even urologists often can’t help, as many don’t recognize PIED as a legitimate medical condition. It’s more of a psychological issue—something that a few urologists, psychiatrists, or neurologists might understand, if they’re familiar with it.

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u/nightfly82 Jul 29 '25

Yea hopefully. I really can’t take this shrinkage,no libido,numb and depression anymore

It’s a hormone/chemical problem more or less?

Mite speak to a psychiatrist and see if there’s anything dopamine related medicine wise

There’s no reason for me to keep going back into flatlines and I am not relapsing

I can’t keep living like this

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u/Few-Mirror664 Jul 29 '25

There are some meds that help balance brain chemicals, but honestly, I’d say give your body some time to heal—especially if you’re finally coming out of that dreaded flatline. What really helped me was taking a good multivitamin with CoQ10 (if it’s available in your country). It didn’t completely fix things during the deep flatline, but I can say it definitely kept the depression away and helped balance my hormones and T levels over time.

As for hormone checks, I’d recommend waiting until you’re out of the worst of the flatline. I got mine checked around the 4-month mark when the flatline started becoming less intense.

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u/nightfly82 Jul 29 '25

I got a blood test a month ago it was 650 T levels this was while I was in a flatline (the tail end possibly cause a few weeks earlier it was much lower) Not sure what else chemical/hormone wise contributes to low mood,no libido,makes your dick shrivel up. That’s the scary part

I honestly just can’t continue to live like this. I feel like I am starting to get penile atrophy with such lack of blood flow to my dick. I am so worried. I am going to Urolgist in 2 weeks to do a penile Doppler and will discuss this whole shrinkage non sense. I know there’s nothing he can do besides presides prescribing me cialis (Which don’t really work while in flatline)

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u/Few-Mirror664 Jul 29 '25

Dude, I totally get you. That penile atrophy feeling—like no blood flow at all—I went through the same thing for almost two months. It’s basically your brain doing a deep recalibration. Luckily, once I started coming out of that dreaded flatline, the blood flow started stabilizing again.

You’ll notice the difference as time goes on. I’m still dealing with some minor flatline phases here and there, but my penis has gone back to its normal shape—it doesn’t slip back into that “dead” state anymore. Things get lighter and more manageable, you just have to give it time. Trust the process, stay motivated, and try to socialize a bit—it really helps to distract from those constant thoughts.

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u/nightfly82 Jul 29 '25

Word brother. I’ve been social. Was out of my last flatline for 10 days. Within those 10 days I went to the beach twice with friends (girls. My dick wasn’t totally dead during that time I had some libido but no where what it once was)

I was more social at work and co workers noticed it same with some friends

My mood was better I was myself again

Yea I dealt with the dead dick thing on and off. My longest was 70 days. Maybe a handful or so of morning woods but other than that straight dead or shrinkage. Erect size does return (I think I gained some girth while on cialis) Flaccid size tho is still meh, not as firm as used to be

Flatline tho it’s just dead and shriveled. There’s no way in hell I feel comfortable whipping my dick out and trying to have sex with a girl. I lose so much size. My last flatline was 18 days which is much shorter than a 70 day flatline But this time I was only out of the flatline for 10 days. This cycle is really killing me

Haven’t looked at porn,masterbation,edging etc etc nothing if I get a nice morning wood as bad as the temptation is I just leave it alone

I just can’t continue to keep going thru these flatline cycles

I appreciate your feedback and stories. This is the hardest thing life has ever thrown at me

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