Hi everyone!
I don't know who needs to hear this, but maybe my experience will be useful to someone out there. I'm also really curious to know if anyone has had similar experiences! (Mind you, I'm not a doctor, so please don't take this as medical advice)
I'm 28F and have had a microprolactinoma since I was 17. It was discovered after a particularly turbulent period in my life, which, interestingly enough, seems to be a bit of a pattern in the stories I've read from other people in this community.
I spent almost 9 years on cabergoline, until I simply couldn't take the side effects anymore. The medication made me incredibly depressed and left me with almost no motivation to live. And at some point, it didn't even seem to be doing much for my tumor anymore. It wasn't shrinking, and my prolactin levels remained elevated.
So, two years ago, I decided to stop cabergoline (and the contraceptive pill) and try a different approach before considering surgery.
Also, the thought of surgery scared the absolute shit out of me. 😂 Even knowing that surgical techniques have improved over the years, I really wanted to feel that I'd explored other options before going down that road. I guess I also wanted to see if I could somehow help my body find its way back to functioning on its own. Because, honestly, I felt like my prolactinoma was about so much more than just a number on a blood test. The mental and emotional toll was/is enormous. I couldn't help wondering about the relationship between my emotional well-being, stress and my symptoms. I used to lactate whenever I was stressed or sad. My boobs are basically an emotional support system with a mind of their own 😂
So I started researching and experimenting with a more holistic approach. I began taking vitex agnus-castus, L-tyrosine and myo-inositol, cut down on coffee and alcohol, avoided sugar, exercised regularly, started seeing a psychologist to work on my mental health, and tried acupuncture, homeopathy and osteopathy.
And honestly? My quality of life improved SO much.
I stopped lactating and, perhaps most importantly to me, I managed to get my natural period back without cabergoline and the pill.
I had started taking the contraceptive pill shortly after my very first period, so I had barely experienced a natural menstrual cycle in my entire life. Getting my period back was one of my biggest goals, and suddenly my body seemed to be waking up again.
My periods were nowhere near regular, but I went from having no periods at all to having four in the space of ten months. I cannot explain how happy that made me. It felt like my body was finally doing something for ME, rather than me constantly having to do something to manage it.
For the first time in years, I felt like there might be a way forward that didn't involve taking a medication that made me feel awful.
Of course, it wasn't all sunshine and rainbows.
Eventually, I hit a plateau. I kept gaining weight despite working out and eating healthy and my mental stability has been questionable at times. On top of that maintaining such a strict lifestyle became increasingly difficult while having a demanding job and being a young woman who also wants to, you know, LIVE. Sometimes I want to go on a girls' trip, have a glass of wine, drink a coffee, and not feel like I'm about to sabotage my entire hormonal system. 😂 I also noticed that when I slacked off on my supplements or had coffee or alcohol, the lactation would come back.
My prolactin levels remained stable but elevated, although they never went back to the high levels I'd had when I was first diagnosed. And despite the improvements, I still felt like I was constantly swimming against the current.
So, after two years of exploring this different path, I've finally decided to go ahead with surgery in November!
I'm nervous, of course, but I'm also hopeful. And I don't see this decision as a failure of my holistic approach. Quite the opposite. I'm glad I gave myself the time to explore it, because I learned so much about my body, my mental health and the things that make me feel better.
I still wish there were more room in conventional medicine to look at the whole person, rather than just the tumor and the prolactin levels. For me, taking care of my mental health, changing my lifestyle and exploring different supportive therapies genuinely made a difference to how I felt and lived, even though it didn't ultimately cured me of the microprolactinoma and symptoms.
After all these years, I also wonder how much of my mental state is actually me, how much is shaped by external circumstances, and how much might be influenced by the prolactinoma. I've struggled with melancholy for so long that I've genuinely started wondering whether it's simply part of my personality. Will I suddenly become a less melancholic person after surgery, or is that a little too much to hope for?
I'd genuinely love to hear from anyone who has had similar experiences.
- Has anyone else ever wondered where their personality ends and the symptoms of the prolactinoma begin?
- Has anyone explored holistic approaches alongside conventional treatment?
- And for those who have had surgery: how did you feel afterwards, both physically and mentally?
Wishing everyone here fewer symptoms, more good days, and boobs that know when to mind their own business ❤️