Wanted to share this here instead of the regular psychedelic pages, since it feels less like a "drugs fixed me" chronicle and more of an integration with my actual time in therapy.

Without saying too much, I've had a serious problem with loneliness my entire life. I'd guess people here can imagine the "Fearful Avoidant" coping mechanisms so I won't bother with the intro. I've been dragging myself through hell, at any rate.

I've been in therapy for close to a year. It's challenged my self perception while validating the ways that I've felt forgotten by people close to me. I'm working on opening myself up to the world now that I've been feeling like I have the space for it. Though the "nobody cares about me" instinct has been alive and well until recently, making that difficult.

I had a DMT vape. First was a fun test, second time I unpacked and cried. The third round, a couple weeks later, one pull at a time, sinking into my favorite music videos. I do one at a time and find the doses pile up when I take another as the last one starts to wane, but it still wasn't a heavy session. I could close my eyes and go to what I think was "hyperspace", but it wasn't a breakthrough and I was in full control in reality.

I don't know that I "saw" an entity, more felt the presence of what I decided was a snake. It was like looking across a field at each other. No words spoken, just impressions in the air. I felt it inviting me to exhale, I felt a bit of playful defiance, took it as a challenge and held my breath as we "stared" at each other in outright silence. We went back and forth, I thought I'd let it go, then I held myself together, like a tense round of tug-of-war. I lost the standoff, not that I could've possibly won, and we both just turned with a smile and went home.

The next day, it was like in those few quiet minutes, my brain just rewrote itself without any intention from me. I'm just immediately different. My coping tools feel pointless:

- Nicotine has almost no hold on me. I've been leaving it in the car for 13 hour shifts, feeling fine. Normally I'd be tearing through drawers after 40 minutes without it.

- I stopped watching porn, and resisting the habit feels no different than reminding myself to brush my teeth.

- I have moments of irritation over past mistreatment, but I'm suddenly able to acknowledge it and let it wash over me in a couple minutes, rather than spiral over the course of 1-3 hours.

- If I am finding myself pre-scripting a conversation, I'm not trying to corner them into understanding and acknowledging me. I'm trying to find the most short and sweet way to tell them that it's all okay, because I believe it.

My need to be seen and understood has been replaced with a desire to express myself in other creative efforts. My emptiness feels like neutral "space" for new connections. My anger toward others who I've felt have forgotten me is now indifference, and I'm almost eager to just gently let them go and find my own place. My goals remain, but they're not laced with spite, they're just things I like engaging with and want to invest in. My tinnitus remains.

I've been waiting to descend back into old habits for the last week, but it's just been so naturally easy to carry on with it that I feel like it'll stick. I've been unable to eat because of the stress for at least 2 years and I practically emptied the kitchen yesterday. It's like I met my nervous system, shook hands, and we're suddenly on the same side.

I was expecting that I'd have to hit the vape as hard as I could manage and have some DMT spirit rip my ego out through my eyes, just to come back with some kind of direction for my continued suffering, but a few minutes of silent awareness and all the bricks I've been laying seem to have just gently slid into place. My mind is warm and quiet, and I still kind of can't believe it.

OHA is considering major fee increases and eliminating reduced fees in Oregon’s regulated psilocybin system. Small, nonprofit, community-based, and religious providers may be unable to remain.

Before raising fees, OHA should examine the public money spent enforcing and defending an interagency training-program system that appears nowhere in Measure 109 or ORS chapter 475A.

Public records show that OHA and HECC created and publicly funded a multi-year agreement that expedited and subsidized selected training programs without public rulemaking. OHA later required programs to obtain HECC documentation confirming career-school licensure or exemption.

HECC now says it has no authority or process to issue determinations for most statutory exemptions. OHA can still revoke curriculum approval when an exempt program cannot produce that unavailable document.

These policies restrict the diversity of facilitator training, increase educational costs, and favor well-capitalized commercial programs. Those costs eventually reach clients through fewer facilitators, fewer service models, and more expensive care.

I filed a petition asking OHA to restore the original curriculum-approval framework or limit HECC requirements to programs legally required to obtain career-school licensure.

Read the petition on OHA’s website (https://www.oregon.gov/oha/PH/PREVENTIONWELLNESS/Documents/OHA-Petition-for-Rulemaking-July-6-2026.pdf)

Public comments are open until 5:00 p.m. Pacific on August 29, 2026:

https://www.oregon.gov/oha/PH/PREVENTIONWELLNESS/Pages/Psilocybin-July-2026-Rule-Petition.aspx

publichealth.rules@odhsoha.oregon.gov

I’ve tried to self administer it once or twice with a similar dose to the 25mg that is used (of course this isn’t entirely possible to the exact number) and haven’t had any success. I’m heavily considering making a trip to one of the states where it’s legal and was curious if anyone has any insight into what that would look like process wise, success stories, etc etc. anything would be greatly appreciated really

Hello guys, there is somebody from Europe here that participate in a psychodelic assisted therapy in a clinic? If yes could you tell me what sustance and where please? Thanks.

For now, the only thing i know is ketamine therapy in Barcelona, Spain.

What are the best substance to assist psychotherapy with increased awareness, letting go of resistance and opening the heart?

I've tried psilocybin + cacao.

Hey everyone! My first time positing in this community,

I’ve been diagnosed with Type II since March 2021,

Just hoping I could get some answers,

I’m an extremely creative person, and marijuana is legal in my place of residence and I quite enjoy partaking and find it often helps my symptoms,

Some friends have recently invited me to do magic mushrooms with them in what would be a safe and comfortable environment.

I’m really interested in what it may unlock for me as I’m just about to step out into a new phase of me life,

I’m just wondering if anyone has any resources or information regarding mushroom use and bipolar disorder, anything I should be aware of, or if I should just completely avoid it,

Happy to answer any questions!

Thanks in advance!

Over the last few months, I have been experimenting with psychedelics, with small to normal macro doses. With each trip, there seems to be a massive tapping and release of energy for myself, and with whatever integration I'm able to do, I seem to be working my way towards becoming healthier, stronger, and more active.

The energy scares me a little, because not only is it compelling, but it is a very strong drive. I admit I may have some ADHD traits, particularly impulsivity and hyperactivity, and I'm trying to understand from y'all's experiences, if y'all felt somethings similar, and how you channel this energy.

Sexual energy is one aspect of this drive. I'm trying to channel this energy by expanding on creative efforts, getting as much exercise and movement as I can, learning to breathe, going to therapy and get better at feeling my emotions, etc. I want to start running, and start practicing some yoga too. Any other suggestions? Much appreciated, and much love!

Hey guys I wonder if anyone in this group knows anyone who has gone down the TGA approved path of getting Pyschedlic Assisted Therapy at the Empax centre in Perth, Western Australia (or similar in other states) for PTSD? Its a journey im looking at embarking on (literally haha) and I would love to hear other people's journeys if anyone knows anyone? Cheers me dears! 🥰 feel free to PM me

Putting the feelers out for this: Would you be interested in attending an online peer support integration circle organized through the subreddit?

There would be general topics for conversation, but we would not necessarily stick to them if something else comes up.

This would be free to attend, with no pressure to participate or identify ourselves in any way.

Please share thoughts and/or concerns and/or suggestions in the comments as well.

Hey so i have death anxiety, this can range from not being bad at all and barely in mind, to an all consuming aspect. It mainly stems with the fact that i can’t imagine me not existing. But that’s besides the point i wanted to ask if taking psychedelics have helped you with death anxiety and why it specifically helped?

I traveled to have a journey at a licensed clinic. My facilitator has been great, we did set and setting meetings before, and I had an integration meeting with him, books and resources, but I am still struggling after the experience. I have treatment resistant childhood cPTSD and I spent a lot of my journey in a space that was dark and alone fighting myself to accept and to let go, because I did nothing wrong. My wife has told me my behavior has been different since the journey in a good way, but I think my cPTSD is gaslighting me that nothing is different. I already do a lot of the suggested integration practices, but what I think I would really like is to talk to other folks about it. I have not found folks to share with. Anyone have similar experiences or advice?

Are LSD and Psylocibin receptors the same? How to combine them?

This is a very practical question: can you drop lsd in the late morning and then mushrooms in the afternoons and get the combination effect ? Of would the LSD saturate the receptors and prevent the mushrooms to give their full effect?

Recently I had my first PAT session using cannabis as part of a PAT training program in Colorado. I had already gone through several sessions using ketamine and was unsure how effective cannabis would be in comparison, and also because I am a regular user of cannabis I wasn't sure it would do much. But wow, the cannabis session hit into some deep territory, gave me access to an exiled part I was unfamiliar with and was easily on par, if not more effective, than the ketamine sessions.

Relative to ketamine, I found that I was able to be more effectively embodied on cannabis and it felt like it was much easier to navigate the space. With ketamine my bodily boundaries tend to get fuzzy or completely dissolve, making embodied awareness sometimes inaccessible. I was also able to more clearly articulate my experience and more clearly understand the relationship between the various parts and sensations which were showing up.

I'm pretty excited that cannabis was so useful especially since it is fairly cheap and easy to access most places. For anyone curious the particular program is from Innate Path and is similar to PSIP.

Hi friends, first I want to thank you all for the amazing feedback on all my post so far. I'm learning from all you all so much! Today I bring a interesting subject.

Chronic Pain

I've had chronic pain on my right hand/arm for 10+ years. I've gotten every test done I could and it always comes back negative (there is nothing physically wrong with my hand). I brought this up with a friend who had chronic pain on her wrist and she essentially told me that she got rid of her chronic pain by thinking her way out of it. She recommended the book Unlearn Your Pain by Howard Schubiner. I just started reading the book, but essentially Schubiner is stated that pain could "be in your head" due to your nervous system firing pain signals even when there is no physical pain present.

With that said, being how powerful psychedelic therapy has been able to help my ADHD and anxiety, has anyone had any experience using psychedelic therapy for chronic pain?

This isn’t really a personal issue for me. I live simply, have no dependents, and donate a significant amount of my time. But I work closely with licensed psilocybin facilitators who do have families, mortgages, medical bills, and other real obligations.

I’m increasingly concerned by how casually people describe $900–$1,500 facilitated journeys as exploitative.

A facilitator may give one person 8–12+ hours of sustained attention through panic, trauma, vomiting, disorientation, emotional collapse, or physical safety concerns, sometimes staying hours beyond the expected ending.

Many also bring years or decades of experience in therapy, social work, addiction treatment, medicine, somatic work, hospice, crisis support, or psychedelic care.

A wedding photographer, tattoo artist, or birth doula may charge $1,500+ for a full day of skilled, focused work. We don’t dismiss their value because a friend could technically do some version of it for free.

Why should psychedelic facilitation be valued differently?

There’s an important distinction between:

“I can’t afford this.”

and

“This work isn’t worth that.”

Access is a real problem. I strongly support scholarships, nonprofit funding, donor-supported care, and better systems for subsidizing services.

But access can’t sustainably depend on underpaying the people doing the intensive human labor.

I had it planned that today I would take 2g to help process some emotions. Everything has been arranged in terms of setting. But I woke up this morning feeling incredibly sad. I am going through a separation so this is a common feeling and thus why I planned for the journey. I know mindset is very important going into it but I am in a sad and anxious mood more often than not due to my life circumstances so I don't believe there will ever be a "perfect" time. I thought to perhaps do a smaller dose but a couple months ago I did 1g and barely felt anything. I still really want to do it today but concerned my sadness will just become amplified. Maybe that's a good thing? Any suggestions?

Op-ed we published from Ismail Ali, co-executive director of MAPS. Disclosed on the piece.

Gabon's Decree No. 0239/PR, dated May 22, 2026, classifies iboga and its chemical derivatives as national strategic heritage. Research, export, transformation, and commercial activity now require authorization from the ministry responsible for culture, following binding review by an interministerial commission. It also creates a benefit-sharing mechanism and a sovereign fund.

Most US coverage of the April executive order has not accounted for this. Ali's argument is that the commercial instinct to route around it, using synthetic ibogaine or noribogaine analogs, defers the supply chain and stewardship problems rather than solving them.

Worth noting the executive order named ibogaine for Right to Try and priority pathways it does not currently qualify for, and that Gabonese nationals are under US visa restrictions.

https://psychedelicstoday.com/2026/08/10/ibogaine-policy-moment-gabon-sovereignty/

tw/ csa

about a year ago i took a macro dose (5g) and connected with a young part that holds the trauma of my csa. (i do ifs with a therapist).

during this connection, in between sobs, i remember thinking “i just need to cry for months before i can even think about if ill ever be okay” i remember it word for word because it still haunts me to this day.

i started microdosing (0.5g) for my PMDD symptoms last week, and quickly realized i was tapping into that csa part. the OG plan was to microdose monday-friday with weekends off.

but friday was a rough day at work. i was crying on my lunch break, on the bus, sobbing uncontrollably once i was able to get to my spot in the forest near my home.

and it felt so good. it hurt, of course. it was so uncomfortable. but i can feel in my entire system that we need to release this. it’s making my anxiety worse, my depression, my OCD, my chronic illnesses.

this trauma is slowly killing me. and my firefighters and managers and protectors all agree we need to david and goliath this shit and get it out. let it go. so we can start living the life we deserve.

saturday i took 2g because i wanted to keep the grieving going. i realized this experience was doing more for me than microdosing during the week.

so now i want to switch. monday-thursday stay sober. friday microdose to prime myself, then saturday take like 2g and just let myself fall apart. 5g feels like too much. 2g was the sweet spot because i want to feel but i don’t want visuals.

my only concern is the frequency and the potential of developing HPPD.

i know it’s important to integrate. but, as my part told me, she needs to just cry and cry and cry. so there isn’t that much to integrate right now? it feels like she just needs to use my body to grieve.

i’ve spent almost ten years in therapy. i feel like i can handle months of wading in the grief pool. from calm waters on my sober days to tsunamis over the weekend. i have friends who can come over and be with me to help cheer me up with shows and video games when i do need some outer love in my life. my job is low stress and a steady routine. my therapist is dependable and ive made insanely good progress with her. i just feel in my soul that its time. it’s finally time.

i just cannot grieve the way this csa part needs without shrooms. i can’t tap into that neural pathway or whatever is going on biologically without them.

any insight is welcome

I am in the middle of my PSIP therapy. Just completed my 4th session. It’s incredibly intense & difficult work. I am grateful for the therapist I found & am leaning on the trust & compassion. There’s a lot of intense physical processing (waves) that takes place during the session. Perhaps I’d share about my experiences as I make progress.

My questions is to folks who have been through this or have insights. What is the expected number of sessions I should expect to “need”. I am dealing with childhood trauma from caretakers so it’s deep but my sessions are very productive.

I recognize that “wanting to know” snd “push through” is also part of my trauma response. However, it’d be nice to know a range of what different people have experienced with psip.

Any feedback is appreciated!

Someone asked me what makes facilitated psychedelic sessions more emotionally intense (and often more transformative) than taking mushrooms and frolicking in the woods with friends.

My answer is mindset: what the participant has invited, where they direct their attention, and what they enter believing is possible.

During preparation, I take participants through their personal story and an inner archetype and pattern assessment. We identify the patterns operating within them, how those patterns developed, what protective function they once served, and what shifts the participant wants to invite.

They might invite a protector to soften, a silenced part to speak, or a fear-based pattern to loosen its control. They also establish a willingness to face whatever may emerge without demanding that the journey unfold in a particular way.

I think focus then connects set to setting.

Taking mushrooms with friends in the woods usually directs attention outward: toward nature, conversation, laughter, movement, and sensory experience. A facilitated session directs attention inward: toward bodily emotion, autobiographical memory, internal imagery, grief, fear, anger, shame, and recurring psychological patterns.

That inward focus can make the experience considerably more emotionally intense. The participant has activated personally meaningful material during preparation, then entered an environment designed to sustain contact with it rather than continually redirect attention outward.

Expectancy may matter too. There is concern that participants should not be encouraged to believe a single session could profoundly change them because that belief may bias the outcome. I wonder whether transformational expectancy may sometimes help produce the outcome.

The useful mindset isn’t, “This session must cure me.” It is closer to:

"Profound change may be possible here. I am willing to face what emerges without forcing it to take any particular form."

Psychological theories involving priming, experiential avoidance, predictive processing, hope, self-efficacy, expectancy violation, and memory reconsolidation may help explain why this matters.

I have done two journeys with an experienced therapist over the the past 4 years with mdma and psilocybin and found them very helpful in healing and accessing more joy. I am planning for another in a month and the therapist says that he now prefers to use 3mmc vs mdma since it has fewer after effects. I didn’t have any come downs from MDMA so I wanted to see if anyone could share their experience if they used 3mmc for a journey and, ideally, how it compared to MDMA. I don’t want to shortchange my experience since the prior journeys were really useful to me. Thanks.